hppd24years

U know there is a handful of peeps on this site that can smoke dope with hppd which is extremely rare but they can't drink booze or get drunk because it exaggerates their dp/dr. I'm the complete opposite I can get completely inebriated from alcohol and the next day I feel normality at its natural form. It's a catch 22 for me I simply can't drink every day. U_U hppd24years.

Wow!! The roar of a lion.. That's amazing that u guys can tolerate t.h.c. without feeling u are on ur bad trip again.. In all honesty I wish I could smoke marijuana again and feel that level of pure relaxation with no paranoia or panicky type feeling. To all the peeps that don't get paranoid from smoking weed did u have a bad trip at all?? Then received hppd?? Or did u just get it gradually from doing psychedelic drugs?? Hppd24years

Hey, I remember that time like it was yesterday it is totally exciting and a great achievement to boot;O) Did u take drivers ed? Supposedly it knocks off some $$$ from ur insurance it did for me when I was sixteen. Congratz and have some fun while the novelty is still there mang!!

Brake how u doing? Are u still doing the Cannabidials if so do they tell u what specific Cbd's ur ingesting?? There is a great feeling of relaxation with certain terpinoids that mix well with Endocannabidiols that make a good stack all natural which is good. Just make sure u stay away from the TETRAHYDROCANNABIDOLS.. TRUST.. But then again some people can do it without freaking out, I wouldn't recommend it especially if u have severe hppdΘ_Θ

. I was just curious on the severity of ur symptoms as well as how long u have had hppd?? I too had to quit coffee and tea, it made my visuals go squirrelly. This disorder is horrible especially when ur at the pinnacle of it whilst everything seems to affect it.Hppdlife u are obviously not to far into hppd if u can smoke marijuana regularly, there is certainly a thrush hold and u could be on the brink of full blown hppd after ur last session with marijuana. Not trying to scare yeah I just wouldn't want to C u like me.. Trust!!

U SHOULD RIGHT A BOOK, THERE IS A LOT OF INFORMATION IN THAT BRAIN OF YOURS WITH A LOT OF RESEARCH TO BACK IT UP..

Thanks for the input it felt like a nice cool breeze went through me after reading that..Well I started cracking this shell I've been living in and breaking through the chains that left me binded in solitary disassociation. Sometimes u feel alienated into self conviction wondering frequently"Y ME" "How the hell did I get myself into this mess"?? I constantly imagine what it would be like to break free from this whilst reaching for the feeling of normality like when I was 15 years old and prior to. I know what it's like to be hppd free, I just can't figure out how to get there?? Are u the lady that had a son with hppd?? And if so is he doing ok?? Anyhoot I'm choosing a doc tomorrow and making an appointment. I feel good about it, again thanks for the input everyone(*_*) hppd24yearandintomy25.

Hum, well I have to take a plunge here while first looking down to see were the hell I'm going to land.. I can't keep questioning everything or everybody.. I have to initiate the angle I'm going in on and trust it ultimately. I have taken bits and pieces from peeps on here while developing a criteria from it.. "Battle for my brain$ sanity" I hope it's the right answer for this equation or gives me some relief grrrr.. Thanks to all the peeps on here with their experiences, theories, knowledge, laughs and time. Please excuse my hiccups from time to time hppd24yearsandtimetomakeachoiceforthebetter!!

. If u don't mind me asking like what do u say to this individual?? I mean u never met this person before I would imagine? Do u feel anxious or nervous like honestly?? I'm really seriously thinking about this myself I just have to get over the hump of humiliation by not feeling like a extraterrestrial being. No offence but do u feel weird inside seeing the psych considering ur job title? Or he/she might think of u as mentally crazy. (which we are not) maybe u can give me some insiders after ur meeting tomorrow on what they say or maybe ur opener to the psych. Good luck..

Np!!

I'm a little bit apprehensive about seeing a psychologist. I just feel weird seeing someone I don't know and pouring myself into them in person especially. It actually makes me feel quivery to the point of shutting down just by contemplating it. I have to make a choice sooner or later about what I'm going to do. Its hard for my brain to wrap around it.. I just can't seem to make a dam choice while always debating with myself. I know there is cons or side affects to virtually all of conventional drugs in the pharmaceutical world. Money is not the issue for me its my mind:-o I pretty much live vicariously through others experiences and testimonial statements while ironically suffering intensively by myself.. I prey every day and even feel weird about that too.. I also have a bunch of intrusive thoughts running through my head. Anyways its been nice snickering at u all. Hppd24yearsandintomy25O_O fuck me (not literally just saying)

Dam, i forgot about the morphing on things i look at from a marginal distance.. Usually objects morph into animals. u know when I had a bad trip on shrooms laced with lsd I never hallucinated with these colors and morphs or tinnitus how is that?? I'm straight now, y am I still tripping 24 years later??

No more airing out the dirty laundry on here for the whole world to see it.. Pm me dude if u have some retaliation towards my last post.. Chowsky!!

If u can't understand my style of writing feel free to ask what things mean I will explain any analogies, metaphors, alliteration, catch phrases, strong poetic devices, ECT. I know sometimes things can get confusing in written form on here especially depending on what moods peeps are in(:So what did Chris say to me that u apparently read on here that would be considered disrespectful towards me? U know what man don't worry about it seriously. I have big shoulders as well as good intentions for everyone to get along on this forum. Just try to be responsibley respectful to other peeps post by not being directly offensive to their writing or beliefs. If u don't understand that then try giving ur head a shake while reaching out ur hand and shaking mine in some sort of agreement towards getting along. Remember u came onto me pretty strongly.. I never seen u before until ur positive comment towards me. Hppd24years..

BigPapaChakra, I would like to take the time to say "U are a good kid with a big heart" even though ur family is unfortunately going through tough times financially, ur parents divorcing, ultimately ur brothers sickness and ur hppd. Wow that is compounded beyond my human mental horizon but I'm inspired by ur outlook with a optimistic constant view of seeing the good in everything and everyone. I do wish u the best in ur quest for searching in every crack and crevice for the cure of hppd. U are a very intelligent individual for 19 years of age I'm sure u heard that before. I really enjoy reading ur educational posts they are all great reads in fact I'm learning a lot from u and ur hyperlinks. I just wanted to take a minute in a well deserved acknowledgment from me to u "KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK" AAAAAND CONGRATULATIONS ON UR WOMEN IN UR HANDS OF MARRIAGE.. HPPD24YEARS!!

I think it's pretty simple to interpret or understand.. If u have any questions u have my number.

. I couldn't agree more and I can completely understand Jay for being sickn by Chris's childish antic games.. One day we will all have a drink to this.. Toast!!

The only intention Chris had with that message was to expose Jay to make him look like the culprit while simultaneously playing the "Poor Me" Chris has been exasperatingly obnoxious with his low down dirty bandit type ways. Now;.. with ur blah blah's to me with my personal situation with Chris, ur right, u have no idea what ur saying in regards to ur "CHIRPS about it towards me. Y are u really sticking up for Chris?? U most not have gone over all the threads.. I suggest that u take all the evidence first before u judge my find lost friend who really has no earthily business responding to something u have no idea of. U have a right to make ur opinion but keep in mind this situation of Chris's "PERSONIFICATION" has became placid which is a good thing!! Trust.. Please carry ur flammable spark SOME WHERE else because we don't need another erupted infernal roaring fire to spring up on this thread again. This craziness is finally coming down to a calm. Hppd24yearsandstillrolling!!

There was another person on hear that said she seen faces in the leaves on the trees which never happens to me.. I see thick blue lines off of virtually everything, light seems to be stretched out off of most objects, lots of tinnitus ringing at its finest, colorful orbs' with crazy spectacular spectrum, lots of after images that make me feel sick and dizzy, a really weird sensation of tiredness and fatigue, in constant immeasurable pain physical, it's extremely hard to keep my sanity on a leash to say the least. This disease is so wrong and most doctors that I see look at me like I'm a extraterrestrial being from Martin Mars.. My recommendation to u stay full clear of psychedelic, ,psychoactive, psychological mind alteratind drugs budz.. Trust..

I'm sorry to hear that seeing stars I too have horrible hideous visuals that haunt and taunt me every day.. There is a lot of testimonial experiences in regards to pharmaceutical drugs and natural on here from peeps that have a practical view as well as a good under standing of the pros and cons. I'm just starting to dive into it myself while learning all about it. I don't have much experience with it yet but I can recommend a few good fellas who do.. Visual, Onedayiwillsailagain, StateofRegret, and probably lots more. I will soon but I don't want to give u advice yet in that area.. I'll see u on the forum and wish u well. Hppd24years

Almost forgot, Jay I hope u do not leave over this ordeal and I'm sure everyone would consensusly agree.. U mean well and Chris to be honest u should stay too just like visual said give each other a big hug just don't put ur hand on my ass.. Lol.. Thanks man.. StateofRegret I replied to ur last private message u sent me.. We are dealing with our differences in private message mode everyone like men.. Hopefully we will come up with good solutions for the better..

Chris u are a whining little spoiled kid who constantly puts people down and then sucky baby pooh pooh faces all the way off this site while playing the "poor me" you do not like the shoe on the other foot do you??? how about ur duck that u made a mockery out of jimmy's friend that went to Brasil in south America?? U completely were being condescending towards her or him<< (did u notice that StateofRegret?? How cool is that?? Or when u called me a cunt for changing ur comment for the good?? Buddy u ain't coming out of this smellin like roses.. This cutting into peeps feelings or posts and trying to act like a control freak by labeling how they write or what they say is pure defecating ludicrous behavior. Peeps have the write to speak and if Jay got pissed off like Chris got pissed off at me and called me a cunt and threatened me by making my life a living hell from the incidental prank I pulled.. well....- that is the biggest hypocrite and doubled standard person I have ever seen. SO Chris go eat another block of cheese and tuck ur tail in ur boot u rat pretentious copious Gang lander.. NOW "STATEOFREGRET" Y DO U ALWAYS STICK UP FOR CHRIS?? U SEEN WHAT HE SAID TO ME- U SEEN HOW HE MAKES INFRONT OF PEEPS ON HERE BUT U NEVER SAY NOTHING TO HIM.. Y DONT U COLLECT HIS PARAGRAPHS IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER AND JUMP ON JAYS SIDE FOR AWHILE CHRIS IS NO ANGEL HE MADE THREATS TO ME.. JAY SEES THE TRUE IDENTITY OF CHRIS IN ALL HIS POSTS SO IT PISSES HIM OFF WHEN CHRIS IS CONSTANTLY OBSESSED WITH TRYING TO GET PEEPS IN TROUBLE BEHIND THEIR BACKS. HEY CHRIS- FUCK U MR. FUCK U MAN!! U ARE A SHIT DISTURBER AND A BULLY.. STATEOFREGRET U LEAVE VISUAL ALONE HE'S JUST TRYING TO BUILD HARMONIZATION AROUND HERE IN REGARDS TO FORGIVENESS.. HATE THE GAME BudS NOT THE PLAYERS. HPPDGOODBYCHISTOPHERCOLUMBUSUBITCHESBITCH.. Ha!! And Jay I completely understand how u feel and the way Chris has a natural act for crawling underneath peeps skin.. This regurgitation on peeps here has to go and ratting too.. The escalation won't stop.. To anyone who reads this don't be a yellow belly under handing individual by trying to stir shit up with moderators on this forum be a fucking man and message them in private mode and figure it out one on one like adults not like kids.. This is Y all this shit is happening and being blown out of proportion.. The peeps in authority or superior positions don't need to hear it they have lives and better things to do.. Jamie..

I assume u are young and ur brain is flicking back and forth with the little red fella in ur left ear while the right ear is accompanied by the halo dude. Don't fall for the pure pressure because u are the one who has to live in ur shell for the rest of ur life;) it appears to me ur body is showing signs as almost like a prerequisite to the final that might be finalized:) that would be H.P.P.D. Trust.

I feel if there was any sincerity remotely from ur snickers you would be a man and address me or fundamentally come up with solutions in a more authentic way than this.. "Poor me" isn't a solution StateofRegret it's a tactical technique of ur persona. Maybe considering ur credentials u could come up with a more practical approach then this oxymoron ur fronting.. This is my last comment towards u and all this disarray. I will ask and maintain; Please do not bully me anymore with ur mockery of how I write or everything I say has no important values. That is my settlement in this synopses. Hopefully u can come to terms with it and comply. Hppd24years.