hppd24years

That is pretty premature for just four months. I don't know if u did psychedelic drugs to get ur symptoms or if they are hereditary or not?? Do u see trails, traces, streamers, squiggly turquoise colored lines,? Strong afterimages too or just depression, anxiety and losing ur ability to function?

This shit is so scary and needs to vanish. My hallucinations are dam horrifying. I wouldn't wish this disorder on my worse enemy. This crap is relentless and does not want to quit. I wish u perseverance while finding the solutions through ur journeys of salvation. Good luck..

I remember when I went to high school I also had hppd but didn't know of the disease it was extremely difficult that's for sure. I hallucinated and my ears rang like a mother ducker. I felt strange and not myself things felt different just everything felt like a dream state which I never understood til now. No buddy had what I had I knew there was something wrong just couldn't explain properly but I felt it. I managed to make it my reality while cope in with it dam it was hard. I managed to get my grade twelve and O.A.C.'S which is a prerequisite for university. Stay strong Kido and u will get over the intrusive thoughts as time passes.. Stay clear of all drugs.

It is obvious that u do not have severe h.p.p.d. I don't know how u expect to ignore something totally abnormal with the expectation of it flying away like a bird. I can relate when I first had h.p.p.d. it was more periodic which I could ignore it and I did but the severity was minimal then. Now the disorder has amplified into something immeasurable. Let me give u an analogy of my verse. If u put ur hand under tepid water u can ignore it because its tolerable if u put ur hand in boiling hot water u scream because u can't tolerate it despite reprogramming ur brain to believing its not happening when it is. Like this isn't Star Wars and we are all Yoda's with our Jedi mind tricks!! Use the force Gilligan's Island. Maybe u can find the Skipper too and get us off the mind fuck island by ignoring it?? No offence but if I could I would like to give u my tinnitus and out of this world h.p.p.d. for one month to see if u don't put a rope around ur neck that would be my challenge to u but in reality I can't. I guarantee u that u would have a different perspective after living behind my eyes and ears all jokes aside. Trust.. I do realize that u are sincerely feeling what u write while believing it which I honor ur theory and respect it for what it's worth. Hppd25yearsnow..

U are a trooper One day I will sail again I've been on this site since November and u have the courage of a tiger. U don't fuck around mang ur not afraid to dive into the area of the unknown that takes a true soldier. Either ur a dam crazy individual or u are determined to prevail in figuring this disorder out. Good luck mang!!

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I too received this disorder when I was like 15 to 16ish. I never knew what the hell hit me either no doctors had any idea of hppd including myself.. It was a horrific experience it did relieve itself from me for around 6years in my mid twenties but it came back harder than when I first initially came a victim to it. I know it was from coffee drinking over a period of years that resurrected the hops back in me. I strongly recommend to stay away from anything with caffeine in it. Trust.. Even when u get better don't fall for pure pressure with any drugs because just remember it can and probably will entice self produced progression always remember that it can get worse from not making the right choice. U don't want to be chasing normality for 25 years like me now from making the wrong choice. Stay clean be positive and u will over come it trust. Hppd25yearsnowandstillbreathing.

I was just reading the messages and looked up out my big bay window I could see the text words stream in a long ribbon like banner sailing across the trees like in a turquoise blue/purple color.. That's kind of hard to ignore.. The picture on the wall in my house which I see in my peripheral vision when I look away is completely distorted with three perimeter thick lines that shoot off of it like a star. (I forgot to make a wish) Channel vision is a little bit more fun in the sun and u can't forget tinnitusation << that word deserves a standing ovation. Tinnitus is a nice uninvited ringing, high pitch, blunts of scream piercing through ur head everyday 24/7. This is just a few symptoms of no sympathy I personally find this virtually impossible to just ignore.. Doctors and specialists need to start looking at this seriously people have taken their own lives because of it no joke.. Tolerance can only last so long into the progression of the distortions and disturbances. This is not something to just accept or ignore by any means or measures. There is a lot of options on this site that plenty of peeps have had experiences with just dig up a few rocks u never know what u might find.. That's all folks!!! Hppdfor24longfuckingyearsandactuallyinmy25thnowwishmeluck!!

I was just reading the messages and looked up out my big bay window I could see the text words stream in a long ribbon like banner sailing across the trees like in a turquoise blue/purple color.. That's kind of hard to ignore.. The picture on the wall in my house which I see in my peripheral vision when I look away is completely distorted with three perimeter thick lines that shoot off of it like a star. (I forgot to make a wish) Channel vision is a little bit more fun in the sun and u can't forget tinnitusation

Well sometimes I do go for a swim off the deep end time to time.. I just hope when I do I find my way back and don't drowned..

U don't look like Mr. Engels.. I gather that's the dude from Little House on the Prairie?? Tigress7 u need to borrow StateOfRegret's glasses and take another look.. I find the picture to look very intriguing more like a 17th century style with a twist of Abraham Lincoln fun house... Kool pic.. How did u get hppd StateOfRegret?? I might change my name to "StateOfRedemption"

I have had hppd for 24 years and dp/dr with Blue and purple afterimages, tinnitus, anxiety, convulsions, channel vision, wiggly lines, floaters don't count, feeling like I'm tripping on and off, trails, streamers, brain fog, and prob a few I forgot about. However I did exalt in triumph for around 6 years in the 24 years period. Symptoms were at a minimum rarely noticeable. Unfortunately like a boomerang they came back with a vengeance!! I blame it on the coffee drinking caffeine was the culprit.. I stopped drinking it but no changes yet.. I get tracers from reflections now like light reflecting off of anything never had that before.. The only time I get my escape is when I'm sleeping and in my dreams. I have realized I was dreaming in my dreams and starred at things quickly looked away and no afterimage, no hyper sensitivity to light, no anxiety no hppd what so ever. My gfriend said she heard me scream out loud "I don't want to wake up" it felt like such a relief like I never thought about it at all. When I was younger I craved mind alterations now ironically enough I just chase normality.. 24yearsofhppdandstillpraying..

I have had it for only 24 years just started into my 25th. I have been asking myself "why the hell didn't I celebrate my anniversary" I I must of forgot or as a true hppder might quote it "BRAIN FOG". THANKS MAN!!

Does anyone think that's the REAL picture of "StateOfRegret"?

I guess no one can finish the commercial song?? I'll try another one later on..

We need to become our own doctors and take what available information that is out there to the next level and stop relying on hopeless professionals that have really no interest in doing their jobs accordingly. It's the common denominator here "No concern for cures" I feel we need to develop an angle or a plan to get these fuckers to take us seriously or methodically figure this out as a team. Self taught education is powerful especially if we use it for the better.. This disorder is not NORMAL we should not just ACCEPT it either.. I'm very appalled by their lack of concern or knowledge towards hppd as well as their understanding towards it.. If I don't do my job properly I don't get paid so if they don't do their jobs properly why do they get paid?? Every one seems to feel pharmaceuticals is the answer or cure but in reality ur just a monthly customer which compiles up revenue for the drug companies all for monetary reasons. Dam jokes is all that seems to ride on this circular marigold round of getting no where but dizziness.. I love my purple and blue afterimages with trails on trails maybe 2 dimensional now.. I'm at the point if they did go away I would feel abnormal.. Pretty sick eh??

Love the Soaps very entertaining with a taste of nuts and honey it's a honey of an 0 its ***** *** ********!! Lets see who can finish it by filling in the stars. And to Jimmy I would like to take the time to notice ur ability to be nice which took some time of the essence!!

I guess I've been striped from my belt by Tigress7 for the longest man or woman to have hppd. 25yearsnowandstopedfeelingsorryformyselftodayandprobablytodayonly. Thanks man!!

I have to walk around with sun glasses all the time any light that is remotely bright kills and gives me after images like crazy.. Its fucking horrible to say the lease.. These specialists have to press the hyper space button for figuring this disorder out.. Dam..

I think if it wasn't for bad luck I wouldn't have any luck at all hppdvs.

That's awesome good to hear.

The Power of hope has no time lines or expiry dates especially on our capsules that our energy lives in. Mankind has no idea how complexed our brains are including everyone on this site considering we only use roughly 10 to 15 percent of it. I think as a whole most people are unique and react differently in terms of severing symptoms or reducing them drastically free from suffering. I believe personally in hope, strength, and humanity while respecting ourselves and others like part of a culture having a drive with passion while working with health care and professionals anything can be achieved at anytime. We need to carry the torch of Successful stories with hopeful individuals that achieved this to pass the same torch down the line so all of us can exalt in triumph consensusly from this unknown phenomenon called fuck-off h.p.p.d. To the peeps that don't kno me I have had this disorder for 25 years almost consecutively I say this because it went away for around six years then came back. However we are all unique and different that's where the word diversity comes from. I don't know what the heck is going on but its been one big mind fuck unheavenly sent. Please excuse my French but u could only imagine after my duration with h.p.p.d. one can get irritable from time to time. Sometimes I feel I'm living in a dialectical psychosis from my shroom shronk trip smothered with l.s.d. that has manifested into a mutated chronic mental disorder. Anyhoot I'm not a theorists and my Hope will still float across these treacherous seas while possibly snagging a genie lamp hidden in the bottom of the ocean while the world turns out the light for me to make my self explanatory wish.. Good luck every one and keep ur hope afloat. Hppdnow25longyears!!

U sound like me when I first received this wonderful gift from the gods of drugs passed down through the great residues. I had all the same "symptoms of no sympathy" but the scary part of it no one I knew had no clue of it or had it where I could relate. I was all alone my doctors or specialists had no idea what so ever. We had no cell phones back then or hook ups to the internet either like now a days. I literally thought I was the only one in the world with this phenomenon til four months ago roughly. I have had this incantation over me for 25 years now. As sick as this sounds I'm happy there is other peeps that have what I have and I'm not the only person suffering from this disorder.. I hope a cure comes down the line soon.. Never take Shrooms laced with L.s.d. Trust.. The shit changed my life unbelievable I can't tell if I'm in a dream or reality half the time and my tinnitus is out of this world.. Don't even want to talk about my visuals.. Good luck kid hopefully things subside for yeah!!

Well I think u are on the right track there is visual feedback loop that needs to be fixed from our optic nerve to the brain which is a little bit different from the audio feedback loop with the ears but if they fixed one there shouldn't be a problem with the other. I have both distortions in the eyes and ears from hppd which obviously sucks.. I really hope something happens soon before I change my name to h.p.p.d.25 that would be nice.. I'm actually into my 25th anniversary married to h.p.p.d. Thank you Jesus.. Praise the good lord.. Hallelujah and amen.. Thanks man..