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  2. Few days ago I relapsed hard into depression and chronic fatigue. Hard to feel the feels I described earlier. It feels like it’s been reduced but it’s complicated. I ended a 3.5 year relationship last week so it really makes it impossible for me to accurately continue to update this thread. If I didn’t feel awful from this, I would truly be crazy. Nevertheless, I can’t attribute my emotions to things one way or the other so I will be stopping my updates for the time being.
  3. Methylation is very complex and insanely hard to navigate. Just taking methyl b12 can cause other vitamins and minerals to tank—notably methyl folate and potassium. it also can increase neurotransmitters in the brain. in my stack, I must take methyl-b12 to keep the whole thing running. By itself though, it’s bad for me.
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  5. Sorry for being a jerk. You're a good guy and I know you're trying to help. My dog died today so I'm having trouble not getting mad at random people. To try and answer what you wrote, I've seen this guy for about 15 years and did everything you suggested in the past. Luckily when I last talked to him he wrote me a prescription for 2mg a day and told me I can go as slowly as I need to. Sorry for being a jerk. I don't handle stress well so I generally flip out on people for no reason. Just yesterday I yelled at someone in a store for not wearing a mask. I'm a prick but I'm working on
  6. You definitely are having neurological disorders. You need to stop the use of any drugs/narcotics of any kind immediately and permanently. It is probably definitely possible that it was eventually brought on by a seizure. There are rare cases of people using drugs, and some other incident bringing on HPPD, even as simple as drinking alcohol, I have seen it here on this forum of one person reporting exactly that. As Jay said there does seem to be some neuro deficit associations between HPPD, epilepsy, and migraines. They are all very strange conditions that are not entirely understood yet. Some
  7. I apologize if my words were blunt or contained information you already understand. I would scour the internet/google scholar (use the advanced search functions!) for any literature you can provide your doctor to support your claim for a slow taper. Ime, doctors are much more receptive to scientific literature than their patients. this might help. I just scammed a few sections in one part but they mention the Ashton protocol and even just going to a medical doctor instead and explaining what is going on, as this really needs to be treated more as medical issue than a psyc
  8. I'm sure there are some links between hppd and seizures, but you'll probably never know which caused which, so better to focus on recovery now. Stay sober, get healthy etc (i know this isn't much of an answer!)
  9. I consider this post to be very outdated now, both by my reactions to things and also just the website I was using wasn’t great. I now use self decode for my genetics. most importantly, for my methylation I now follow This protocol by Freddd... it is not for the lighthearted and I haven’t made it fully through it but still I have had enormous benefit from it. https://docs.google.com/viewer?a=v&pid=sites&srcid=ZGVmYXVsdGRvbWFpbnx1bHRyYXdlbGxuZXNzcHJvamVjdHxneDo3ODUwNWMwODUyODZjMmM0
  10. Hello, my name is stephen, im 18 yrs old, and for about 6-7 months ive been having visual disturbances such as visual snow,halos and negative afterimages, these were much worse in the beginning and ive had episodes of derealization and depersonalization where it used to be nothing really felt real, ik these are symptoms of HPPD but i never had problems like this when i was doin LSD until i was excercising heavy one day and had a completely random grand mal seizure for abt 8 secs, my nuerologist said that the HPPD could’ve been unlocked by the seizure, but ive never heard of that myself, and iv
  11. I'm not entirely sure if I had VS before HPPD. I noticed the snow at first maybe a month after I took MD, but I asked my friend about it and he misguided me into thinking it was normal. I continued on smoking weed until eventually in October realized my vision was getting worse. My DR doesn't seem too extreme, although when it does happen it scares the shit out of me. It makes me think really existentially, which you might think would be pretty cool, but in reality the question of "am I real" is terrifying. I gave up drinking for about 2 months, but then started back at it. I had my
  12. I was able to work through my initial symptoms back in October/November/December, even when drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes with friends my symptoms rarely became debilitating. It helped my anxiety a lot that things were opening back up after lockdown and we were returning to a sense of normality, and during this time I didn't have much trouble getting work done in college. At Christmas/New Years I came home and the whole family was drinking a lot over the course of a week or two, which I joined in with, and then being back in lockdown things felt a bit surreal. This drinking (and
  13. Oh! Nice to see someone Irish on here. I first found out I had HPPD when I was asking my mom whether when she looks at and away from the light does the blotch of light stay in her vision. I was extremely surprised when she said no, so I started the Googling.. How debilitating are your symptoms? Can you continue on with your college work?
  14. I'm aware of the fact he's tapering me too fast. The problem is I'm in a rural area where he is literally the only prescriber. I have no choice but to go through this jackass of a prescriber. I called him last night and told him I need him to contact me today, and do 0.5mg a month instead. If he doesn't agree I'm simply going to have to yell at him. I can't do the Ashton protocol. I'm very aware of how it's supposed to work, I can't go that route. I know you were just trying to help, but you have indeed made me much more anxious.
  15. No problem bud. If you can, yes. Especially if you’ve drank and noticed it effects you differently from before. Many report that alcohol makes their hppd worse, albeit temporarily for most. Alcohol kinda has a very dirty chemical moa. I can’t think of any brain disorder where it’s recommended. Hell there isn’t even a safe daily amount set by the government anymore. there is some beliefs here on this website that hppd involves some measure of brain injury as a component (scary word but such a common injury). If looking at it this way, one would deff want to avoid
  16. I’ve gone through fast tapers. I don’t recommend it... it’s much better to make a liquid solution and taper so slowly you don’t notice. It’s the easiest on your brain too. my friend did 7 years maxing out at your dose. He went too fast. this isn’t meant to make you anxious, just IMO, you will be in withdrawal for 1-2 years. You can either taper so slow you barely notice, or you can go fast and be in hard withdrawals for 1-2 years. The time will still be the same; the only difference is how much you suffer during that period. I don’t outright say this often but you
  17. Might try it again but every time i do it gets me fucky i think.
  18. I've been trying a choline/inositol combo for 2 weeks... no noticeable difference, for better or worse.
  19. I tried choline but bad reaction. Any work for y’all? I need them for another issue. Have b12 coming tomorrow.
  20. So mythl b12 good or bad? Listed both. Also mythl donors are bad?
  21. This might be a long one, but here goes. I've been looking at this site since the end of November, and I think I've found what's been affecting me. I'm 22-years old; a college student living in student accommodation away from home during term. I've occasionally experimented with drugs since I was about 15 (in social groups, never alone), but it was only in the last year or so that I ever tried ecstasy or LSD – not something I've done often but I found them quite positive experiences. Both times I took acid were quite low doses, and generally njoyable experiences. The only thing I noticed
  22. I haven't made my own introduction yet, but I've been the same looking at this forum for a couple of months without posting anything. I'm a 22-year old college student, and I know it's not relevant but I'm also from Ireland – so it's good to hear I'm not alone here! I've been experiencing very similar symptoms. I smoked weed with my friends maybe once or twice a month for about a year, and this sometimes caused really unpleasant anxiety (only after doing LSD for the first time – only did it once again, last year). My current predicament began after a caffeine-induced panic attack at the e
  23. Hey Onemorestep, Thank you for your reply. Your perspective is really valuable. Should I abstinent from alcohol as well?
  24. I'm never planning to sell for $/£, just keep until it's worthless or i can use it to buy things in the real world.
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