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Hello and welcome to our forum. I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through. As mentioned by @firehawk this is likely a form of HPPD but it's impossible to know for sure at this point. My advice is to try sobriety for a while. You don't have to swear off all substances forever. Although, if you have what Jay likes to call pre-HPPD then abstaining from hallucinogens is probably the best option for you. I would stay sober from weed for at least a few months and see if your symptoms clear up. This is a strange, complicated disorder that the medical community is barely aware of. The good news is that many people can recover from severe forms of HPPD to lead happy lives. I myself currently have a happy marriage with two children and will graduate with a PhD in mathematics next spring. I have had this disorder for about 14 years from extensive LSD use in my youth; two ~1000 micro gram doses and many lower doses over the course of 2 years. The things that helped me are: Stop all drugs, even alcohol for a while. Take it one day at a time, try not to think about the past or future just be here now. Keep yourself busy with healthy, productive things; hobbies, work, etc... Exercise even if it makes your symptoms worse Do the best you can to not focus on HPPD; minimize time spent online looking into it and time thinking about it (this tends to generate anxiety which is not helpful for us) Try not to feel guilty, you didn't ask for this. Try learning to meditate, even if it's just for a minute or two. We all have the ability to go inward for strength and healing. For example, you can spend 30 seconds or a minute sitting and noticing your breath and thinking the following: when I breath in I notice I am breathing in when I breath out I notice that I am breathing out and I smile because I am alive. It's that simple! Try and get as much sleep as you can. If you're open to it, pray to God in whatever way you think is appropriate. You don't even have to believe in anything, just ask for help and see what happens Hang in there, you'll be fine. Take Care, Nick

Hey all... new article is out on HPPD that I wanted to share with everybody: 9 years after an acid trip, I still have anxiety-inducing visual distortions that only stop when I sleep

yeah sounds like form of hppd. you have a very very similar case to me and alot of other similarities. I was very frequent smoker lotta bud and carts throught highschool im 19 now. did shrooms once last summer and had pretty bad anxious trip. I would say I normall have a little anxiety just like yourself. I had an onset from smoking of visual symtoms changes of just everything looking clearer and sort of trippy in my visual field a few months after my trip. I continued smoking months after cause I didnt know what it was and just thought it would go away when I stopped smoking (I would use carts or smoke every day atleast at night) but my symptoms didnt get much worse. I got a little visual snow from alcohol last month after I went sober as well like you but doesnt bother me in light only in the dark. I will give advice that others have given me that have helped me with the diagnoisis. rememeber its gonna be all good shit happenes dont blame yourself. plently of people can have recovery or live long perfectly fine happy lives with the condition. but its gotta start with getting sober from smoking first because its physoactive drug and could worsen your condition also would stay away from alcohol and caffeine if it bothers you exercise even if it makes symptoms worse eat healthy meditate or yoga and help ground yourself try and not stress about the symptoms, when you focus on it your mind exasterbates the condition and makes thing worse for you. try and pickup things to distract yourself or other hobbies. personally im athletic i play junior hockey but ive been playing a ton of golf and it helps get my mind off of it a ton. can read other posts for more helpful things as well but would definitely start by quitting weed. I felt alot better when I got it out of my system and found out what my baseline symptoms are. as far as anesteshia your should be fine I wouldnt be stressed about it. the first few days quitting is hard but gotta tough it out for the sake of not worsening your vision. the first couple days I had a ton of anxiety but remember its mostly the hppd not the weed. alot of people make a form of recovery from this shit you got this just trust me and others you dont wanna make your vision and symptoms worse. if you need any other help or advice just message since i feel we are pretty similar in age and cases. its been almost 2 months 1 week since i quit weed and my body and mind feel better to manage the conditon . and think this goes without saying but definitely dont do any psychedelics or harder drugs than what your doing. seems like you sort of have a mild case and i believe you can make some sort of recovery if you get sober and healthy. my mind is powerful and can adjust to its conditions just dont wanna make it worse.