hppd24years

I see color patterns especially in the dark.. They are like turquois blue and purples very bright they seem to intercept each other while moving around the objects that I see them on: wall, ceiling, bricks, floors, etc.. Always in the color blue, purple and green oddly to say.. Do u get afterimages at all?? Or feel like ur mildly tripping?? My visual snow or static vision is minor compared to other symptoms I get.. I strongly recommend for u not to do any psychedelics what so ever ur brain is telling u to stop so if I were u u better listen.. Take good care of urself and others.. Hppdfor24yearsnowintomy25!!

Dam eh, I hope things improve for u but it's extremely important to lay off all psychoactive drugs as well as psychedelics.. Stay clean exercise and eat properly this will help ur body cleanse whilst getting ur brain back on track.. If u don't want hppd for life then u better take what I'm saying seriously.. I have had this disease for a long time (name is self-explanatory) and this discussion with others.. Trust.. U have a life a head of u don't gamble it away on pure pressure and fitting in because those peeps don't have to live in ur shoes from the aftermath.. My hppd has been progressing beyond most peeps on this sites imagination. No disrespect but my symptoms are chaotically crazy!! Hppd24longyears!!

It was good enough to launch him to this site.. I wouldn't recommend that amount to anyone, I feel personally it's a lot.. This is a psychedelic drug that sends peeps to Psychological impairment. It's kind of like the old saying goes "Big things come in small packages"

Well it's been a long 24 years to say the least from my wonderful experience with Shroom Shronks laced with l.s.d. That was the first and last trip of psychedelic, sensational, surreal, sabbatical, self-sadistic, pseudo-sonic, self-suffering, StateofRegret, <<<(What happened to him)[hope he's ok sincerely] self sabotaging, shafting, shattering, shity, scary situation.. How's that for alliteration?? So no, never tried psychedelic drugs after the hppd nor really wanted to, thank personal logic for pin pointing the origin that this disease stemmed through. I did smoke some weed after and hash but I found it brought back my crazy out of this world trip or simulated it.. I did drink a lot though which is a drug too according to Health Canada.. I never felt or seen paranoia, panic, afterimages, visual snow, star bursting, hues, etc when I was drinking or drunk. Usually when I would awaken I felt clear headed and in tuned with normality. I did drink for years after hppd for it was my only escape.. Unfortunately I had to quit drinking because it was becoming increasingly detrimental to my health and life.. I even quit smoking cigarettes.. I hope I see a visual that will brake this state of regret I'm in.. One day I'll sail again not to see evil but Alice n wonderland to have lunch with mike zero, jay, BigPapaChakra, Missjess and all their friends.. Woosh wouldn't that be really far out?? Take good care of urself and others..

It's exactly 1.75 grams.. So almost 2 grams of shrooms IHaveSeenEvil ingested..

You know, when a man has struggles in life with himself in regards to belief and understanding for change the last thing he needs to hear is the word stupid>>(whether your interpretation is defined as mild or moderate it's totally demeaning and disrespectful to that specific individual) Self conflictions are horrible enough dealing with Hppd as is, people don't need strong negative adjectives to put them down even lower.. hpps33 we are all in the same book here and on different chapters through out.. No one is better than the next one and surely no one should call anyone names either. Maybe try to add some advice in a more positive constructive manner that would encounter better feed back and ultimately better results. Asshole!! <<<< Completely kidding but I think you can feel the drift.. Hppd24longyearsandstilltalkingtomyself..

I think personally this will be useful and will help put the finger on understanding our gens in regards to how they work as well as how they function.. I'm first to admit this is all Greek to me, out side of my mental domain, but I'm more then willing, capable to learn, understand, my pathology and their functions. I'm going to do 23andme as well so you can add me to the list.. This is a good start and will have significants either way for the way of the will to conquer this disorder or shine some light in the grey area that is needed. I strongly advise other peeps to participate in this so we can get a better understanding of hppd and maybe a solution.. I think it is well worth the 99 dollars and ur nucleus that contains 99.9% of ur genetic make up.. Hppd24longdamyearsdoing23andme..

I'll get to the point really fast here.. This disorder makes ur brain over analyze everything u hear, think, see, etc beyond the scope of ur human mental horizon.. Every ducking day I'm looking for another hallucination and then saying to myself "this is a different one ohh fuck man I'm going insane this time" I'm always feeling this shit progress very frequently it truly makes u feel like an extraterrestrial being.. I'd give my left nut just to be hppd free for one day seriously..

I too have always been inquisitive of that for over 24 years mang.. I always fantasized over talking with someone face to face with hppd considering I thought I was the only one with this disorder.. It would be interesting for like a meet and greet definitely just knowing and seeing someone that is seeing the same alterations as u.. It would be like being a kid again meeting Santa Claus for the first time.. Lol.. I'm in Canada could drive to N.Y.C. it's really not that far from the Province of Ontario.. I was actually talking to visual about that.. I asked him if he had ever met someone knowing they had hppd.. Seems to be the common denominator around here ironically.. It appears to be some pretty whacky wild kool-aid style shit mang!!

I can totally relate to u when I became consciously aware of hppd I was ur age.. The difference is I'm in my forties now and no doctor I went to had ever heard of this rare phenomenon including myself.. When I was in high school I never said a word I completely felt alienated and psychologically impaled on the mind alteration from normal reality.. I knew everyone around me had normal vision, didn't feel dp/dr. I use to fantasize about being normal, when my gramps died I prayed for him to cure me from my illness and to look through my eyes to see for himself what I saw and felt.. It never happened, I layed in my bed for weeks too.. The shit was swallowing me whole head first.. U have to believe in urself.. Once u do that u will naturally come up with the remedies to cope, adjust, fit in and transition into beautification. Metaphorically speaking, it's like going through complete metamorphosis like a monarch butterfly (all for stages) When u accomplish this u will be ready to fly!! Remember this when u feel alone and beaten by ur own hands from ur decision making, ur not alone, ur not the only one, and u will succeed as well as prevail.. I'm living proof of ur kind.. Misshppd24longyearsandstillsucceeding.

I really don't think calling some buddy stupid is called for.. Maybe he shouldn't do coke but there is a better way by expressing ur emotion towards someone else 's success story. Congrats on ur highly progressive journey towards the freedom of being hppd free. I could only imagine what it would feel like for my brain just can't shake this thing yet.. I have to say I do get inspired by successful stories with great admirations. I would like to pre-warn u about the coke, I know u categorize it as a stimulus but it might not be just coke ur getting you know people cut coke with virtually anything and everything.. Just keep that in mind.. The last thing u want is any regurgitation of hppd again.. I've had this for years and if I had the hand u got dealt for almost being completely cured I would never ever even contemplate doing nothing remotely that could jeopardize the release or escape from hppd.. Don't underestimate this phenomenon.. Trust.. hppd24longfuckingyears..

Never too psychedelics again.. I tried smoking pot but it brought on the trip again so I couldn't even do that but I could drink alcohol though

What's ironic with my trip is that I never seen anything on it like I do now off of it.. I never seen these symptoms of hppd at all during my first and only trip.. Seems crazy as I read other peeps experiences and compare them with mine.. If it wasn't for bad luck I'd have no luck at all.. To the peeps who don't know my trip I ate magic shroom shronks laced with acid at a party and holy in holistic Battle Star of Galatica- Buck frickn Rogers!! It was far out of this world.. With no colors, tracers, afterimages, again nothing like that what so ever.. The peeps at the party looked submerged into the floor with their heads protruding out of it and their voices sounded like someone pressed the fast-forward button.. This didn't really bug me I understood what I was seeing was from the psychedelic drug.. But it got stronger and stRRONGER where I couldn't say to myself "Jamie ur just tripping" I started to believe everything in the three dimensional world it seemed to me to be.. It was kind of like a dream that is totally unrealistic but in the dream u act into it by participating with the delivery of the delusion.. For instants, I had a dream I was fishing on my front lawn (< delusional) I was participating in it by reeling the fish in.. (participation) Then the fish jumped onto the side walk and jumped onto my mini bike while driving away, I was running after him screaming "Give me my bike back" I woke up shook my head and laughed.. (analogy here is I was able to differentiate dream to reality) When I was fully peaking out I couldn't "differentiate" psychedelic trip from reality.. I was participating into the delusion.. The delusion wasn't a fish stealing my mini-bike like my dream it was a T-Rex!! The sky went volcanic lava red a patch of lawn stretched for miles sound turned into like a jingoistic acute weird exotic animation.. The trees where like 200 feet tall it was comparable to Alice in Wonderland.. I heard a loud snort and snarl my heart was pounding I had a unquenchable thirst with a desert mouth.. Bang.. Boom.. This Prehistoric Mammoth of a T-Rex came out of the trees after me (I couldn't differentiate) I ran screaming, I could feel the earth behind me vibrating like small quakes from the weight of this "Monster" chasing me.. I could feel the THRAWTH from its mouth on the back of my neck.. It was constantly there I knew if I slowed down it would get me.. U see, I couldn't just stop and say "I'm tripping this is just a trip "now go away monstrosity"" I wish I could of but I believed it like delusional dreams.. I woke up in the hospital I have no recollection but the dinosaur chasing me.. My parents picked me up I was like 15ish and never felt the same since.. Hppd25fuckingyearsnow..

Hey brake, did u freak out on ur last trip?? Like did u hallucinate and have high anxiety levels?? Did u see colors, afterimages, star bursting, ghostly lines, static vision, ect during ur psychedelic trip??

Checked out the site looks really interesting for sure, apparently the F.D.A. is a little upset with them but needless to say they are still trucking along... The test is surely affordable to all so that shouldn't be an issue to obtain the Genetic Analysis test from 23andme.. The reports are a analytical point of view of the likelihood into developing genetic predispositions to deficiencies or diseases; but to make things clear it's not a diagnoses.. In essence my understanding to this is it's displaying the risk or percentage in the susceptibility of disease or dysfunction from your genes which are ultimately the main area where this is initiated from.. (Starting point) There is also another chapter of this test in regards to Ancestral Linage that is included with the report. 23andme reconnect you to your Ancestral composition- four bear fathers, their heritage, maternal/paternal haplo groups and Neanderthal raw genetics. That too, is very interesting to me, I would love to see what Ancestral Linage I originated from.. I'm donating my saliva with my alien/extraterrestrial being genetics.. Misshppd24yearsandstillrolling!!

Thanks for the return message I'm going to go on line and check out their site mang.. I guess it will be a start of some progress in regards to looking into some similarities in our genetic make up while documenting them as time goes bye in a Excel informative graph.. If there is some sort of defects in my 5- HTP, 5-hydroxytryptohan, L-3,4,- dihydroxyphenylalanine, or other genes and dysfunctions from the results of this test. I can counter it with remedies, meds, antidotes, and see if they truly work by doing another later 23andme test to see if it gets corrected.. I will also be able to gage any significant physical or mental changes between the time delay while taking meds/antidotes to correct dysfunction and my hopefully deterioration of hppd symptoms.. This will target progress by being more specific than pacific and seeing if there is any clarity or correlation to gene deficiencies and hppd.. It does sound like a genius idea Visual!! And a good start to say the least!!!! Hppd24years..

And Self- Explanatory with a touch of exploratory!!! Feathered by a birds eye view!! Which is totally cool!!!

I'm busy as hell too mang.. but i'm going to look into this theory slash study and investigate it thoroughly for myself..

What exactly is your angle here in regards to this 23andme extraction of SNPs Visual, BigPapaChakra and Syntheso?? In theory we are looking for genes that are mutated or problematic to the normal? and maybe this could be hppd related? Possibly taking COPT.inhibitors could balance out the deficiencies? What is the process to this 23andme? Just curious do you have to take any pharmaceutical conventional drugs as a prerequisite to 23andme?? What do these people need to test you?? Thanks! Hppd24yearsandconcerned..

VIS.... WHERE THE HELL DO YOU COME UP WITH ALL THESE PICTURES MAN?? LMAO..

Just looking at this picture and looking away gives me tracers and makes my eyes burn.. LOL... That's hilarious.. but also conflicting with my sanity.. LOL!!!

I see, Well it is a great start and she might move on up in the future.. Another strong advantage of growing indoor is the fact you can grow your own food in the winter whether in water, dirt, soil-less mix, oasis, rock- wool or even net pots.. Just try to have fun with it..

LOL!!! offly noble of her.. eh??

Well, where do I begin?? First of all our bodies are made up of 50% to 60% of water, our brain in composed of approximately 70% of water, our lungs are 90% water and our blood is like 83% water. That's pretty natural to say the least so far.. There is a lot of Aquatic plants and edible water plants in a natural setting as well as trees, shrubs, fruits, nut trees, greens, annuals, perennials, etc.. There is probably plants or trees that are tapped into the water table right in your backyard and you wouldn't even imagine it but those tap roots can stretch to locate water for very long distances.. Humans must replace or replenish up to 2 liters a day of water, that's pretty important and natural on the contrary.. Ultimately you feed your plants in the medium of dirt or soil-less mixes with water jacked with nutrients organically or synthetically. It is very natural to grow your plants in hydroponics and remember it's generally the roots that are being grown in D.W.C., Ebb flood and drain, rotary gardens systems, Current Culture H20, Drip systems, ect- all in water.. In terms of microbes that synergistically balance out root zones in dirt there is also a wide array of beneficial bacteria microbe strains that form symbiosis with roots in water, while protecting them from pathogens and helping to process intake of nutrients more efficiently in water.. Growing hydroponically is a lot easier I find personally then in dirt simply because I use feeding timers, E.c. meters, ppm meter, oxygen stones, which allows me to keep things in its natural perfect element for growth and health. I also find that it taste sooooooooooooooo much better in water just like the human bodies I eat that are made up of a large portion of water.. Hppd24years.. (Ooops disregard the last sentence in the last paragraph thanks man;)

Congrats man, that is a hard thing to accomplish.. Way to put the brakes on when needed brake. I bet u feel better since the resignation of quitting smoking.. It's been two and a half years for me now.. I'm glad ur feeling better keep knocking the ball out of the park.. Good luck with ur trials and tribulations of conquering ur quest of rectifying this disorder..