miketusa

Hey man if it helps it helps. I dont think catnip should bother you. I find tea to be extremely therapeutic for my hppd. On days after I drink and I get those rare bouts of DP nothing brings me back to me like a big cup of tea!

DON'T TELL ME HOW TO FEEEL MAAN!

Yeah I have to agree with Gobig. I kinda just brushed off the HPPD as soon as I got it by just doing things I was interested in and staying as comfortable and relaxed as I could. I really enjoy they way you look at things by the way because I totally feel the same way. HPPD is a gift and a curse. i was doing a lot of shit I shouldnt have been doing before I got HPPD. HPPD made me stop. Ive learned more since I got HPPD than I have in many years of my life. I became interested with what drugs had made me uninterested in. I traveled all over France for three months, and learned a good deal of the language. Ive read about 20 books in the past 4 months. Ive learned a lot about myself and my interests. Ive made new friends, and bettered my relationships with old ones. Ive become more independent and confident. But most importantly Ive learned forgiveness, humility and to cherish all the wonderful things that are found in this world for pure and simple enjoyment. Im talking about walks on a nice day, and listening to music on the bus as you watch all the people outisde the window. Going new places, and meeting new people. Brushing off all the minute complications we as people seem to create. Simply put I spend my days the way I want to spend them. The way that makes sense to me. Now more than ever I think it is important that you do what is best for yourself. This isnt about compromise, know that even with this you can have it all. I think the most important thing to do is cut out whatever preconcieved notion you have of your ideal self. It's about being the best you, you can be. Not the best you, you wish you were. Seek comfort. Seek yourself, do what makes you feel good. Follow your interests, make healthy choices. Thats all there is to it. Thats the cure. This is how I spend my days. And I feel great.

Interesting Ill have to try that. I have pretty bad starbursting. For about a year almost now. Thats about my only real symptom nowadays. Unless I drink or something, then the nexy day I get DP'd. Every now and then a little anxiety. But 9/10 most days if I pretend I dont have any visuals.

Its an interesting thing. HPPD for me is hardly present when Im really alone in the woods and stuff. I was in the south of france for three months and I spent a lot of time up in the mountains and outside working. Some of the best relief I have ever felt. We should all get together buy some land and start some sort of commune.

I have starbursting and no floaters whatsoever.

I wouldnt worry about this too much. This is very minor srugery. The anesthetic shouldn't affect you too much. They just kinda knock you out for a few minutes and you wake up high as hell. Even if it does, the painkillers they give you should help you ignore any spike in smypotms until the return to normal.

I dont even understand

This. If I get drunk marijuana affects me like it used to - pre hppd. Without, Im a mess. That being said this makes me wonder how much of it is psychosemtaic.

I'm sort of in the same boat. After defeating anxiety and keeping my self occupoed for so long it literally seems to melt away day by day. I was drinking once a week for the past few months, but I have decided to stay sober for the next few months in the hopes that I can wipe it out completely. I just read a lot, and play to my interests. And in that alone, life is worth living. Granted my HPPD is relatively mild. As long as I don't fuck around with drugs or alcohol too much I'm usually about 90% most days.

1.19 2.Spice, LSD, ecstacy, diphenhydramine, DXM, mushrooms, marijuana, cocaine and an assortment of pills of these I used marijuana, spice, and pills fairly regularly 3.marijuana (psychs changed the way i got high, it seemed to remove the plateau effect of smoking marijauna, so when i smoked, the more i smoked i could get higher and higher until i had a slight episode) 4. No

I feel better now. Shit kinda faded out. And Jay I get that, it felt like I had comedown from acid 4 hours ago and was still feeling that acid feeling but wasnt tripping.

Past few days have had some anxiety. Gotta little too drunk one night and have been having on and off problems for a few days. Anyways, woke up today feeling a little off. Like I'm sick, but i'm not sick. Hard to describe. Kinda just thoughtless, and meh. Not anxious, just kinda empty. Like I took antidepressants or something. Any advice, any help? I'm done drinking for the forseeable future. I just can't help myself sometimes. UPDATE: Spent some time outside working today and I feel a bit better now, still not 100% but i'm not exactly uncomfortable. It's a weird thing. It's like anxiety without the anxiety.

I don't get it.

uh huh

I'm telling you guys it really works for me. I can actually drink again a bit. If I drank before, the next day Id have like a DP psychedelic hangover. Now if I get hung over, drink a few cups of this and I'm tip top.

This is the brand I have been drinking. No caffeine that I can see. http://www.yogiproducts.com/products/details/ginkgo-clarity/

Drink some tea. I've been dreaking Ginko tea for like a week and I haven't felt this good in a while. I also tried "anti-stress" tea, and it made me feel so calm i thought I was high. Lot's of different ones to try, I deffinitely recommend Ginko tea, helps with memory and blood circulation throughout the body. Give it try, guys. If it doesn't work, then you enjoyed some delicious tea.

Interesting Boogres. What visual symptoms have benefited from your use of Kepra?

I have to agree with Visual on the symptoms getting worse before they get better. As long as your symptoms are changing I think you can regard that as a good thing. I started out with a few symptoms. That were then replaced with others, these stayed calm for a while, but suddenly began to worsen. They got worse and worse and worse. A few days ago I noticed my symptoms were acting up. These last few days I have been waking up clearer and clearer. Reality is within my grasp at this point. I feel like any day I'll have that final breakthrough. I had many of the symptoms you had for almost a year now. On tough days I like to remember John Lennon singing "Nothings gonna change my world." As long as you stay sober, in one way or another it can only get better. As for trails being the worst, its hard to say. For me it's starbursting, that one really gets under my nails. When my trails were worse than they are now, which is to say practically non existent, I got over the anxiety of them by having fun with them. I would shine a light in the air and write my name and shit. You really need to adopt a sense of light hearted humor and humility to get through these tough times. That's my advice to you. Best of luck.

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AM I NOT BRIGHT?

Word dawg

hahahaha "She looks quite hot" I don't think anyone thought you would read that

Yes. In a way. I'm a writer. And I have always been acutely aware of the presence I have within myself. I still "hear" myself. But I struggle. I feel like it's much more quiet than it used to be. I also have trouble creating mental imagery as strong as I used to. I still can, but I have to focus, and it isn't too clear. As a writer these skills were invaluable to me, I truly hope they return to normal soon.