miketusa

I regularly smoke with HPPD. Its hard to say whether or not this hinders my recovery. As I have seemingly slowly recovered over a year or so. Smoking and drinking on and off the whole time. I was DP free completely until I got extremely drunk two nights ago. I spent the next day experiencing DP. It is now gone. Visually I seem more or less the same. . . Ironically one thing I find that helps with my DP is getting baked. For some reason I am able to tolerate marijuana again. I have no idea why.

Were all here for the ride.

Yeah I got really drunk last night and am experiencing pretty shitty DP today. ON CHRISTMAS OF ALL DAYS. PLUS I THOUGHT THAT SHIT HAD GONE FOR GOOD. Ironically i can smoke weed now, but not drink. Im just gonna go sober sober for a few months again and take my supplements. Hopefully it goes away.

Hahaha it was pretty tongue in cheek. But yeah for clarification, lots of bad things grow in the ground too.

Eh. Well first off that was kind of a dumb question. Secondly like everyone else said, this isn't really the place for that type of discussion. But, to answer you. . . its hard to call psychedelics "safe" these days. The shit we get now is a far cry in quality from what most people were getting in the 60's. That isn't to say there isn't legitimate LSD or "Molly" out there its just cheaper and safer to make similar alternatives. Most people won't know the difference and they make more money. The best thing you can do is buy a drug testing kit and test the psychs before you take them. Most of my friends do this, having been had by other "friends" trying to make a quick buck on numerous occasions. My advice to you is to make damn sure whatever your taking is the real deal. The chances of you finding legitimate LSD these days are pretty slim. The RC's and Cannabanoid designer drugs are fucking ruining peoples lives. Almost ruined mine. Thankfully I'm a bit more mentally resilient than most. Still, I implore you to carefully consider ingesting anything other than the real deal. There are so many new RC's and designer drugs being made every day. And while a great many of them are more or less harmless, some of them have proven dangerous in one way or another. Just use your common sense. And remember "If it grows in the ground, its probably ok"

I can't tell at this point. Doesn't seem too make it any better or worse. It used to make super anxious. But I really enjoy it again, and smoke daily as of right now. Still, I know I have hppd, as certain symptoms persist. DP/DR surface slightly every now and again. But I am quick to recover. I think about it less and less as the days go by. That also seems to help.

Ive been taking Tramadol recreationally on and off for around three months. I also took Gaba less frequently for the same amount of time. Gaba is amazing, but some of the horror stories I have heard dealing with withdrawal scared me away from taking it more.

Careful man

See thats weird! I got my Hppd from marijuana, or at least it was dormant and weed brought it out. And for a while I had the exact problem you have. I would freak the fuck out, and end up in a weird mental place. But recently its all subsided. Though my visuals and tinnitus are acting up right now, but I blame the tramadol on that.

I get thatI think. Like right as you are about to fall asleep your visuals go ape shit and you just suddenly wake up scared as shit? I like start having weird visions almost like really fast vivid dreams right as Im about to nod off that usually jolt me awake and sometimes scare the piss out of me. Ive seen like spiders and shit WITH MY EYES OPEN that were obviously not real. It was weird as hell. I used to see graffiti everywhere when it happened. That stopped though.

Ive been thinking about this a lot. I spent the last two weeks smoking pot with my brother. I dont know what happened, but after a few days I suddenly started enjoying it immensely again. Whats weird about it is this. At first it was making my symptoms a little worse. But for some reason I kept smoking. Soon I was enjoying it, it felt like it used to. It was like I made peace with it. Anyways, this week I have been working a ton and Ive been feeling really, really good. I had a little DP this morning, for the first time in a long time. But I kinda just knew it would pass and it did. As of now, my symptoms are suddenly at an all time low. Im feeling more and more like my old self as the winter comes. Its amazing. AND the only thing I did differently was smoke marijuana a lot. ITS SO WEIRD. I think theres a lot more PTSD involved than we think. I means its literally the only thing I can attribute my suddenly chilled out symptoms to... That and Ive been sleeping less, getting up early a lot, and eating a lot, lot less. Which is literally all the things I was told not to do by people. Im not saying stop eating, smoke a ton of cannabis and never sleep, but it is extremely intriguing to me. Hopefully the changes continue to better. I am on some Tramadol right now, so maybe thats making my visuals better, though usually it makes them worse. This disorder is so god damn weird, I really dont know what to think about it anymore. It could be im just suddenly getting better, but I dont know. My job also requires a ton of focus, and lots of counting. Insane amounts of counting. I do inventory for a company called RGIS. So maybe thats helping too? Any thoughts guys?

Ive been thinking about this a lot. I spent the last two weeks smoking pot with my brother. I dont know what happened, but after a few days I suddenly started enjoying it immensely again. Whats weird about it is this. At first it was making my symptoms a little worse. But for some reason I kept smoking. Soon I was enjoying it, it felt like it used to. It was like I made peace with it. Anyways, this week I have been working a ton and Ive been feeling really, really good. I had a little DP this morning, for the first time in a long time. But I kinda just knew it would pass and it did. As of now, my symptoms are suddenly at an all time low. Im feeling more and more like my old self as the winter comes. Its amazing. AND the only thing I did differently was smoke marijuana a lot. ITS SO WEIRD. I think theres a lot more PTSD involved than we think. I means its literally the only thing I can attribute my suddenly chilled out symptoms to... That and Ive been sleeping less, getting up early a lot, and eating a lot, lot less. Which is literally all the things I was told not to do by people. Im not saying stop eating, smoke a ton of cannabis and never sleep, but it is extremely intriguing to me. Hopefully the changes continue to better. I am on some Tramadol right now, so maybe thats making my visuals better, though usually it makes them worse. This disorder is so god damn weird, I really dont know what to think about it anymore. It could be im just suddenly getting better, but I dont know. My job also requires a ton of focus, and lots of counting. Insane amounts of counting. I do inventory for a company called RGIS. So maybe thats helping too? Any thoughts guys?

Id say I'm pretty much recovered at this point. More or less. I havent gotten any sign of DP in a while. Every now and then I feel a little off, or a little down. But its small, and negligible. Around this time last year was when it was at its worst. I suffer from slight tinnitus, starbursting, and slight trailing now. Thats really it. Drugs dont seem to make it any worse, as long as im careful. Drinking is pretty fine for me now. I dont know. I still wish I could say I felt like my old self, but after all this its impossible to tell how close or far away I am from it. Sometimes I feel exactly like I used to, and that is becoming more and more frequent. I think about it less and less, as a result of being occupied with living a fairly normal life, which also helps. And so, as many of us have often concluded, it seems time is the only cure.

I use both very frequently. Be careful with both. At first I was using them as relief from symptoms, but both believe it or not have recreational value, and thus are potentially addictive. Gaba stopped my symptoms from progressing. It kinda capped my HPPD. As a result I have been able to lead a fairly normal life. I can drink now, and smoke a little every now and again. However, I became slightly dependent on it. And after dropping it felt very off for a few weeks. Tramadol didn't seem to do anything, actually it seemed to make my ghosting and starbursting worse after prolonged sequential use. Im on it right now, for fun. Id be careful with both. I think gabapentin is something special, though. And has a real potential to help you. What symptoms do you suffer from?

Actually I was outside of Marseille. In a small town called St. Chamas. Ironically enough my HPPD was the worst its ever been in my life while I was in Paris. Though this did make the trip to Paris slightly more memorable, and a little trippy.

Please dont remind me. I spent last fall in France and it was the worst my HPPD has even been. And not surprisingly I am scheduled to move to France right after New Years. It's horrible.

Unfortunately I ran into some financial difficulties around that time. If I recall the stuff is pretty expensive. Anyways I completely forgot about it. Thanks for reminding me. I should really start writing stuff down. . . .

Sleep is a pretty sensitive thing with HPPD. For me if I dont get the right amount or sleep, that is to say 8 hours no more no less things get messy. If I sleep over 10 hours the next day I feel like complete shit and it takes me a couple hours in the morning to get over it. I'd just be careful with that.

I agree with the above comments. Don't do it. Just stay sober, and try and ride it out life you have been.

I'm glad that you elected not do it. You are much stronger willed than I am. I got into it again last weekend and the results were a $700 party night. I'm done. Trust me. I've locked myself in a room ala Trainspotting. Going to get a psychiatrist and just deal with all my issues so that can cease my concurrent drug use. Hopefully what recoveries I have made have not been jeopardized and lost. I want to thank this board for all the support. You guys really keep me straight and make me feel like an idiot. Which is what I need! Again good choice Makaveli.

Thanks for that Kellen! Really enjoying the latter! Is that your room? You seem like a cool guy.

There is actually a strain out now This guy appears to like it. Still one of the ideas I am more enthused about.

You would think so.

I did it with no problems. Woke up the enxt day feeling a little out of it, but after a while I was fine. My visuals have worsened as a result of the frequent party weekends and all that comes along with them. Hopefully things will slow down over the next few months. Anyways, I wouldnt do it. My HPPD is pretty mild these days. My problems are mainly visual at this point.

Gabapentin helped me a lot. Makes you feel pretty good, too.