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  1. yea I drink everyday too man... although I cant really blame that on hppd cause I've been doing it for years mainly due to depression. But the DP/DR certainly doesn't help.
  2. Long story short I made a thread on here about a yr ago about having hppd...and how I got it. In the post I mentioned how I was drinking alcohol and smoking weed pretty much everyday ( I've had hppd for 2 yrs now) Now Fast forward to about 6 months ago I was browsing through these forums and I was reading something on here (cant exactly remember) about someone having some symptoms and explained their hppd got worse after smoking weed. Now A couple weeks later one night I drink a couple beers, smoke a bowl fall asleep and wake up with exact symptoms! I believe it was patterned vision and after images... Now even though its been 6 months I still try to figure out did I subconsciously somehow worry myself into seeing these things? Or is it just coincidence and it really did get worse?? I mean I could be in denial because I definitely do have the symptoms.. but Im wondering had I not read about em would I even be seeing em? It sounds crazy... but with the way this whole shit has gone.. I dont know what to think anymore lol.. And referring to the title of my post... I pretty much have every symptom in the book... constant DR, patterns on the walls, shaking edges, my brain kinda "glitching" when I turn my head like something moved when it didnt, noise (even though I dont see it unless I look for it), after images, seeing white swirly things when I stare into a blue sky long enough, and Im sure some more things Im forgetting right now... all this 24/7... Im just thankful that I've been through alot in my life that made me strong and have dealt with depression 10 yrs... and as soon as I was pretty much over it...... BAM!!!!! I get this bullshit. But I refuse to let it break me because I just look at it as another obstacle in my life that I have to deal with. Anyway... even with all this.. as stupid as it sounds I still feel the need to smoke weed. Like I said in my first post I got this stupid shit cause I accidentally smoked a laced blunt. I've never done any other kind of drugs in my life. And Im kinda pissed off cause all I wanna do is go back to smoking my weed to relax... but then again Im kinda tired of having to readjust to all these new symptoms. I guess this is just a question for the older folks that have been dealing with this for some years and took the same approach Im taking... is there ever an end to new symptoms?? Like once u get em all, u just learn to deal with em and it cant get any worse?? Or do new symptoms just keep popping up until you really cant function Sorry for the long winded post.. but Id just like some input from people that have dealt with this.. cause trying to explain it to my friends got em looking at me like Im psycho lol. Thanks in advance. Oh and to any kids that are new to hppd reading this..... STAY AWAY FROM MARIJUANA!! You could smoke constantly day and night and be fine.. but all it takes is just that ONE time to make your symptoms permanently worse... believe me.. you dont wanna end up like me lol (seriously)
  3. ehhh I figure I should start off by saying ..Im 28 yrs old and I've never experimented with any other drugs in my life. This was just a random occurrence (my luck) that happened after I accidently smoked some weed that was laced with pcp. I dont even like taking over the counter pills.... I've been living with hppd for about a yr and a half now. I havent been officially diagnosed but after reading about it online Im 99.9% sure. I get the brain fog, visuals, DP, and sometimes just totally zone out in my own world, on and off for a couple hrs. Oh... and on top of hppd I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for about 10 years now. So you can only imagine how much fun I'm having with this lol Now, I've been drinking (at least 4 beers) and smoking weed pretty much every night now for 8+ years .. including the time I've had hppd. I did stop smoking weed for couple months after it first happened... but I felt no improvement so I figured I was just stuck with it eitherway. My question is for those that have been living with hppd for more than a couple years now.. Do you think there is a chance that things can get worse if I continue this way? Even though like I said I've been drinking and smoking pretty much every night for the past yr and a half since I got it? And also do you think there's even a chance of it getting better if I stopped at this point? I mean of course me stopping would benefit me in other ways . but Im talking strictly for my hppd. Cause at this point I pretty much just learned to deal with it... and its really become nothing more than an annoyance if anything. Except when I get totally hammered and wake up the next day hungover and tripping my ass off... but that only lasts the next day or two. Thanks in advance....
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