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Fuck dots man!

Thanks for the support man, and as you said visuals are back to normal now and so is my anxiety

Vent vent vent... Today was a really shitty day overall, anxiety is of the charts and i just can't live with the thought of having this forever. I want my normal vision back and i want things to stop moving, if this doesn't pass in a few months i don't know what the hell i'll do... I'm seeing a shrink tomorrow and maybe i can sort my anxiety out. I miss the time when my biggest concern was getting laid not seeing static everywhere i fucking turn my gaze. Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it.

I have noticed more forums about visual snow popping up, it's nice that the awereness is increasing! Hopefully scientists will get their thumbs out of their asses and come up with a cure already ;D Here is the link btw, it seems to be a pretty small forum but hoefully, it will eventually grow and get more publicity! http://www.visualsnowforum.com/ There are many interesting links to presentations at that forum, it might be worth looking into.

Hard to describe, it's like the visual snow gets denser and it's making shapes. I can shape my own figures sometimes though, pretty funny Strange part is that i remember having heavy cev's pre-hppd, fractals and shit.

The mornings and nights are the worst, i can't go to sleep early couse then the next day will be longer And with cev's and visual i can't even close my eyes for a break, feels like my brain is constantly working at a high rate but the energy is prioritized wrong.

Haha I realized early that hppd is not something to be taken lightly, i wouldn't do something that would jeopardize my state, i'm smarter than that!

Atarax is a VERY mild yet effective anxietyreducer, i take one every night and i never havr dp/dr.

What is up with spammers??

Haha same here, pretty damn annoying!

Var inte rädd, det ordnar sig alltid! Writing the rest in english As mandy said earlier Dp and dr is mainly a biproduct of anxiety so if you need help with your anxiety, medecine might not be a stupid way. I was really scared to take anxietyreducers but now a couple of months later i am thankful what i did, they did not affect hppd in a bad way thank god but they are making the snow and static thinner. You should ask for atarax at the doctor, very easy to get prescribed and it only costs 55 kr! It's not addictive what so ever either. You can also read more about people with hppd on http://www.flashback.org/ just search for it. And atleast you don't have as bad hppd as this guy: https://www.flashback.org/t622040

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Mine is really mild right now, maybe: Background 5 Density 8 Flicker rate 2 Way better than before, i think.

Wow that is really bad I feel for you man.

Alcohol doesn't affect my hppd at all, although i don't drink heavily post-hppd. Be careful.

The sperm things sounds like Blue field etoptic phenomena or scheerer's phenomena, look it up.

As long as you know that you are insane, you are not. Crazy people think they're normal.

This might be totally OT but i actually experience less hppd when i oversleep and sleep for like 10-14 hours. Anyone else?

I enjoy dreaming nowadays, used to have nightmares but now my dreams are long and harmonic, i always tend to do things i really like in my dreams. And in my dreams i am hppd-free!

I at least have periods of improvement and then it goes back to normal hppd. Last week was very pleasing, visual snow and anxiety were dying off but today everything is worse, things tend to move more than before, snow and static is denser, afterimages are waaay worse, ghosting is horrible. Pretty much no anxiety though. Seriously thinking of trying to get keppra or something prescribed if it doesn't calm itself down.

I'm glad i live in Sweden, everything is free

First of all you have to accept your condition, you will never be able to live in the past forever. I know it's scary but for now just realise that this is a part of your life but there is a chance to recover. What symtoms bother you the most? And how scary it might be, you will not die nor will you go insane. And from what i've read it won't get worse unless you fuck up and drink like a viking or do drugs like Iggy Pop

It was 100% self defense, first and only 'fight' I prefer verbal conflicts.

Yeah, kinda annoying when my teacher looked like god or some holy saint with an aura around him.

Pre hppd! After a fight like i said I was so high and drunk out of my mind, woke up next morning and had a heartattack looking in the mirror, the blood on the pillow was weird too