I feel with you too man! I f you are supposed to vent here well, it just feels so unfair that i got hppd after my second use of hallucinogenes... Whilst many of my friends still do all sorts of drugs whithout any signs what so ever of hppd. I just want to be me again, i barely know how i used to be anymore except i was the really Nice guy with a job, many friends and a loving girlfriend. Noone understands me anymore and it feels so unfair again... Why me or why anyone? I want to be me and get smashed at the bar just waking up the day whithout this damn static everywhere. I want to be able to stay up late whithout having superstrong visuals.
I miss the old me... Everyone is noticing my withdrawal behaviour but they can't help, i can't help. I want to join the army and become a officer, but with all the physical and mental pressure that comes with it it's a nogo... Unless i get cured but i will never loose hope.
Well that's me, i'm tired of being weak.