2muchmandy

the problem is over here driving instructors get limits theyr allowed to pass, and like one minute in i knew shed done it, the examiner failed me on something that she shouldnt have, it wasnt faultable but shes the one with the power. I reckon shed reached her quota, but anyway i had to finish like 45 minutes of test knowing id failed. i gotta wait til september 4th to try again. sucks, in total a test costs £150 pounds

yeah i buggered up. its an hour long test and id been driving for 2 hours before it so i was kinda tired

Hmmm maybe it is some form of pressure issue then.

Damage sounds more appealing to me than psychosis, id rather be injured that a fucking nut case. It feels like the brain isnt getting enough oxygen, it explains the pains, pressures and the general feeling of being detatched, has anyone had experience diving or where theyv had oxygen?

should we email them?

I need something to control anxiety, today for eg. I bitched up my driving test cos of nerves. Would valium or xanax bel best? Something that wont risk pyschosis and worsen visuals

I fucked up :/ well the exminer thinks so. I think she just hated me, I shouldnt have worn a dub bmx ganja street millitia shirt

Omg ur so lucky! What did he play? His newer stuff or did he do old songs too

Thanks guys. Will definately prove hppd does stop you doing things. Makes it harder. But, u can still do it

For tomorrow I have my driving test. I passed the written part of my test post hppd and have done many lessons with no effect. Symptoms are funny just now. Edges are wobbling a bit, red sorta dots in vision sometimes ( mike I think its like urs but mine arnt blue theyr red ) trails are, trails are pretty bad to be honestjust as I came into my room there, theee was a couple like blue flashes on the wall, and ghostly swirling patterns appeared on the wall, but the lighting was dim. Anyway wish me luck. Getting my liscwnce will enable me to get a job and move on with my life

I definately think stem cells need looked into. I reckon there could be something to it and if there is our disorder is a prime target it could help

Its people in suits wanting to make £££

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iaejq2ohClU

Stem cells dont work. Theres no proof of stem cells ever working

I kinda think that too sometimes, it makes me keep hope. I just worry cos my shit keeps evolving and changing, mentally i have wierd thoughts now and then but i mean im pretty much mentally solid. the worst part about my hppd is the fear of getting worse, like, my visions got a bit shitter cos of the snow and trails annoy me, edges wobble. text moves a bit, thats pretty much my bag so im kinda lucky

thats what i wonder, some areas have improved, some have worsened. what going to happen but....time holds answers

ahahaha so they would, plus my car already looks like a drug dons car

Thanks very much jay il check it out. Today i went balls to the wall and ate loads of chocolate( felt fine ) had a couple hot dogs ( felt baad ) cos of the corn oil i reckon but il avoid those, chocolate i can do. I then went to the skatepark and unleashed some fury on my semi mangled wrist so it was nice to get out, got some stuff done on the car I dont have an addictive personality so klono etc may be an option in the future. I love cheesecake man, absolutely fuckin love it, just anything cake related.

so basically aslong as i take low doses i wont do any damage if the side effects happen. if they do i just stop and il be fine?

Man im so grateful for this sit e. Sometimes I let the OCD factor take over and I end up crippled by my own compulsions. This afternoon im going to go get a cheesecake and a bag of haribo

I think im gunna go bsck to eating shit now and again. Im sick of having no fuckin enjoyment in my life. Im off to buy a fuckin fheesecake

Stem cells have no proven evidence of working

id rather be perma drug than perma high/tripping, im scottish im good at being drunk

hahaha! iv had an mri when i broke my knee, its nothing to be scared of, its not pleasant but, you could manage...think of the 200 dollars my friend

Since like 3 weeks into hppd iv been paranoid about eating and what I eat. Recently iv tried to cut out too many carbs in the hope that the ketogenic type diet that helps epelepsy may help us ( theyr linked i am told ) I also dont drink fizzy drinks, i dont eat sweets, chocolate. Was wondering if you guys have changed your diet. do some foods give you trouble? ( wev established corn/corn/veg oil can ) Should i bother about my diet or is it not worth worrying about. I find myself having less and less joy in my life, no drugs, booze, pub, no sweets. I just wanna go fuckin mad and eat cheesecakes and chocolate.