2muchmandy

il never go back to drugs man. the odd beer would be nice but no more drugs. iv just felt the first effect of HPPD. yesterday i lost my job and was suicidally depressed for hours but im bi polar so thats no shock. but i went out with my parents to a little gig in a pub and felt better, the sensory overload musta helped me out. i have the doctor tomorrow. should i accept medication if offered? and what. any vitamins etc to take? the visuals are what im worried about. im gunna get back into bmxing and mixing and live a healthy life

my names eumo, im 19 this month and Im pretty pissed off as im certain, iv given myself this annoying condition. iv got the doctors on monday to confirm. basically iv used md ( not loads ) and 2cb ( deffo abused it ) and last weekend someone put a bit of mxe fake ket into my face and after 8 hours rolling i started getting 2cb type hallucinations, couldnt sleep despite being up for for 2 days straight. this sparked extreme paranoia, i can handle myself but not this. gut felt fear, anxiety, i thought id given myself seratonin syndrome. anyway. 3 days on and im getting closed eye visuals, visual static, feel a little bit ketted up ( feel outside myself ) head pressure, brain fog and i then research these symptoms and here i am. im learning to accept the snowy surfaces. occasional little red dots if i get stressed, iv also cut out all toxins from my life. are there any bits of advice people have for me. the second night i started seeing the 2cb dots after stressing out and had a panic attack but the past few days iv been happier than usual and quite chilled out