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ive been going through a lot lately, been getting in shape, eating healthier, transferred to a new school and have met a lot of new friends and hot chicks. I can't feel happy though, at least not that much because my depersonalisation, and I'm trying my best to get out of that. One thing I've noticed is that my Veiw on the world is dark, I've become used to a life of hppd/dp so i except everything to be a disappointment. I feel like all the other teens are all happy and enjoying there life. Can anyone relate? How can I start looking at things positive again?

ive been going through a lot lately, been getting in shape, eating healthier, transferred to a new school and have met a lot of new friends and hot chicks. I can't feel happy though, at least not that much because my depersonalisation, and I'm trying my best to get out of that. One thing I've noticed is that my Veiw on the world is dark, I've become used to a life of hppd/dp so i except everything to be a disappointment. I feel like all the other teens are all happy and enjoying there life. Can anyone relate? How can I start looking at things positive again?

I get it whenever I drink a red bull, soda makes my light sensitivity worse so I'm pretty sure it's just light sensitivity

Fuck I just bought some chai tea cause everyone drinks its, opened the package and it was like smelling a jar of nutmeg, there's just so much in it there's no way I'm going to drink any fucking nutmeg ever

Fuck I know I have this shit worse than some adult members on here solely because I got it the same exact month I noticed I was hitting puberty. It's sad to think about cause it sounds like it might be permanent, I got brain damage and then grew a foot in less than a year, I just feel like my brain grew with hppd and it won't go away now

Nitrous just fucks with your do a LOT, it's actually almost harmless as long as you remember to breathe in air with it

In the first weeks of this, i sat in my room and watched nothing but the sopranos and hogans heroes for weeks. i just found out from he director of it, Tony did'nt die at the end WTF

i feel the same way, i dont even think i have dp or dr, i dont have any symptoms of them except just being emotionally numb.i think its cause, when i got this mentally i was still an innocent little kid,just 14, sure i messed with drugs a little but i was happy and mentally very immiture. going through this incredibly fucked up "disorder" truly from the depths of hell, it changed me, took all of my happiness and didnt even leave me a spark to keep going. I went from the happies tkid in the world, to the saddest in less then a week. but somehow i kept going, i dont care if it because my soul didnt completely die or if i was so numb i couldnt feel pain, its been 1 1/2 years, but you know what im still here. it seemed like it be fucked for life but everyday im proven wrong as part of my happines grows back and i feel more mentally "at home". trust me jess, you will recover and all of those emotions you've lost will be back soon enough

by great do you mean clearheaded? where did you buy yours? is it at gnc? what affects has it had on you?

dude i made a post about that, i love soda and i can drink it without any effect on my visuals and it gives me a serious i mean more than a morning cigarette mood lift because ive been addicted to it for 5 years. ive slowed down a lot but when i have 2 sodas or a soda and a bag of candy, more sugar than i usually consume, i get an instant headache at the back right side of my head and my light sensitivity goes absolutelycrazy. onlymy light sensitivity though, its like the sun just came as close as the moon is.

yes your right stateofregret, but there's ways around that. im 16 and my mom has no idea ive ever touched drugs or that i scrambled my brain like an egg from them, so that means i cant get medication through my doc without tellin my mom why. so when i saw that l dopa in the mucuna dopa extract, is 100% sinemet with just with other herbs and stuff in this mucuna dopa extract, i researched it like crazy. how in the fuck could a hppd medication be sitting at my gnc without me needing a prescription to pick it up, i got so excited. but i read wha thappens when you take sinemet or mucuna dopa without carbidopa, scary shit all because you have dopamine that didnt go through the blood brain barrier floating around. i also read that green tea, is a natural comt inhibitor, it breaks down said dopamine to allow it to cross the blood brain barrier, theers like 20 articles about this. so amzingly, you dont need carbidopa when taking low dose l-dopa, just green tea.

im drinking some chalomine tea right now, calms me down, have you tried stevia? I just bought a lot and it tastes amazing, its the only zero calorie sweetener ill take. i have a fear of taking artificial sweteners, especially aspartame, its aproven neurotoxin linked to brain tumors, it killes brain cells and greatly increases the damage from free radicals. i forgot exactly what it said but i read it does something with the calcium channel wich is why ill never touch it

i try to have as little sugar as i can, but when i have a lot, for example a soda, caffeine free or not, i get a horrible headache at the back of my head, and my light sensitivity gets horrible, i mean horrible, but only my light sensitivity. can anyone explain

ive been drinking tea lately to get my mind off energy drink withdrawals, wondering who else drinks it fo its health benfits. ive mostly been drinking throat coat tea wich has this bark in it that makes your throa feel like its coated with silk

funny i was just looking up that stuff sad to hear it has no benefits. im pissed cause my gnc doesnt have it but maybe yours might, mucuna dopa. its contains l-dopa, sinemet is pure l-dopa mucuna dopa is 15% l-dopa. it also contains like 30 othe things needed to producedopamine sam-e is only 1

so inn the last week, my life has transformed so much. new school, new friends, huge tits girlfriend on only the first day, mom got a new job, i got my first job, just wow. But just before all this happened i started meditating. first day, not to much cause i couldnt focus, second day i got a little deeper and started thinking differently, 4rth day Igot so deep. i was meditating for probably 2 hours, i eventually saw myself in my mind, not like you imagining it but almost like watching it happen from a tv. i saw myself floating above my house, my school, my city,places ive been and places i wanna go to, it was just beautiful. im not even sure what that meant but fuck i think meditation is almost a cure for emotional problems. upon awaking from this deep meditation, for what seemed the first time in years, i could'nt hear my heartbeat exploding like it always does, my pulse was slow and quite

sorry i see what you mean, its always helped for me though cause im addicted to sugar and caffeine so it does the opposite of what you'd expect it would and completely mellows me out. propanolol is used for high blood pressure,it didnt do to much for my anxiety but ive heard many others say it helped, look it up

hey cliqwer, i am also 15 and depressed. i quit cigs about 2 months ago and my visuals have gotten a fair bit better 15 to 20% better id say. Try velvet been extract, its at gnc and goes by the name l dopa it raises your dopamine and energy levels a ton other than that 5-htp has had a fucking ton of people say it worsened their visuals and for some caused their visuals. id recommend you dont even try it

check out my post about ashwagandha extract, shit really works. and when you feel like you have bad anxiety have a caffeine free soda, its always helped me as sugar releases a load of natural opiotes and as with eating in general releases dopamine

fuck ive gotta try that im so depressed but i just spent the rest of my allowence on ashwagandha extract. does it reduce your visuals at all

dude, i fucking have the worst addictive personlity ever. When i was 12 till a few months again i was addicted to soda, i just couldnt get enough mountain dew to the point i was drinkin a 12 pack in a day. when i was 14 the first time i tride a drug other than pot it was ritalin, and i snorted it like 8 times in that same day, did the same a week later and overdosed, fucking crazy

My friend over at gnc who oddly enough does'nt question why a 15 year old kid comes in once a week for random supplements, told me about ashwagandha extract, he said it 10 times better than valerian root and is like a natural xanax. It was $15 bucks for 100 470mg pills. On the internet it listed hundreds of benefits from taking it but most noteable for hppd'ers were anxiety, trouble sleeping, headche/backache, brain fog,reduction of stress related hormones, and preventing the effects of aging. It contains chemicals that calm the brain, reduce swelling,lower blood pressure and alter the immune system. I just took one with a meal, he said you have to take it with a meal or youll feel sick. It is so so calming, its like an opiote or something cause holy shit my snow is reduce by 45% or so and i feel just at peace. You have to try it

can this be purchased at gnc?

where in cali?

As you all know depersonalization is sort of like a protective barrier your mind uses when its experienced something it just could'nt handle. i realised that and thought maybe if i put myself in a positive enviorment that i am truly comfortable with it could go away. this summer i have been near my lovely family, in my comfortable house, have had many friends over, developed an optomistic attitude, and my depersonalization has almost gone away. The first sign that it was going away was that i was feeling more complex emotions again, not just happy and sad, wich i could barely feel with dp. then i started to feel truly comfortable with my life, and my depersonalization is going away more and more with each day