Mr.50's

i recently started using 500 mg of niacin, 600 mg of nac, and 40 mg of lutein with 8 mg of zeaxanthin. first of all the lutein and zeaxanthin, used for light sensitivity, has greatly reduced my light sensitivity. when i used to go outside it was so fucking bright, and on foggy/rainy days everything looked darker than it usual. when i go outside now my eyes dont fucking hurt like hell and i dont get headaches from the sun either, but i still have light sensitivity its just reduced. For the nac and the niacin, i take those with my morning coffee. for about 2 hours i feel foggier than usual and actually more depressed. but after about 2 hours my mind is about 50% clearer and ive have many moments where ive felt more complex emotions, wich i think is my depersonalization clearing up. i havent felt so clear headed since before i got this disorder, ive been using these 3 supplements for about a week.

im trying lutein and zeaxathin for a 2nd time, its suposed to help with light sensitivity. last time i used it was back in january, i was using 20 mg of lutein and 3 of zeaxathin and it helped my light sensitivity a fair bait aand reduced ,y snow by about 25%. this time i am using 40 mg of lutein and 6 mg of zeaxanthin,just over the recomended limit. hopefully this helps.

brake, i just thought you should know on the third day i felt crazy. i woke up with more energy than the first 2 days but felt depressed and manic. it was fucking horrible. my heart was beating hard as fuck to

just wondering, if you do dm me

FUCK! i broke the fast, my heart was pumping fucking heard but every time i moved i felt like fainting, every time i stood up i almost fainted. i felt like i was sea sick and for some reason depressed. the good part is that food tastes fucking great! ive been drinking mountain dew daily for like 4 years now and it tastes like my fist bottle! maybe one day ill go longer

day 3: woke up confused and extremely depressed, i feel like its the first day again. i dont know if it will just continue to get worse or if i might actually get better, but im not giving up i wanna be hppd free and happy agian, my heart is beating hard, i dont know why but its been doing that for since day 1

day 2: woke up with very little energy, i can smell food so well i found my self multiple times trying to figure out what food im smelling, thinking about that food no matter what it was for hours, i had an unusual craving for koolaid and olive oil lol. my mind is already a lot clearer and my acne is clearing up fast.

water fasts for both, juice fasting does'nt do shit in comparison to water fast cause you still get sugar in you so your body does'nt go into ketosis and does'nt cleanse the body

Im on my first day of my second fast this week, my last one only lasted two days but i still had many benefits. Im trying to go to 15 to 25 days on this one before school starts. so far i have a bad taste in my mouth (toxin elimination) and a headache from caffeine withdrawal. Ive thought about food a lot but not as much as the last time. Ill keep you guys updated

im on my second fast this week, im trying to make this one 15 to 25 days. the reason im doing another one already is i just realised school is gonna start soon. im a sophomore now so it cant be as bad as last year but im doing the fast in hope of it making my mind more clear. last year was literally traumatizing ive never been so close to suicide. fuck i even switched schools, no one picked on me and i have a lot of friends there its just i dont think i could handle the memories wether i get better or not. you HAVE to do a longer fast brake, after 3 days you go into ketosis wich acts on your body the same way keppra does and they both have been used for epilepsy

sorry ive been off so long, i had many failed attempts that lasted about a day, energy drink withdrawal (caffeine and high fructose corn syrup) is a real thing and is very hard to get off. i recently did a 3 day fast and had noticeable benefits. the first day sucked dick, full on sucked, going around the house thinking about eating while food is nearby sucks. the next day i wasnt as hungry but still a fair amount, i started to taste a real bitter taste in my mouth wich i read was my body emitting toxins through m tongue and skin. my body also smelt horrible as the toxins came out with my sweat. i quit the fast but i noticed that i was alot more clear headed and my emotions were more, organised sort of speak. im sure if i did a longer fast it would have had a lot more benefits. Oh and my snow is a fair bit less noticeable, nothing major though

not to long back i got into a fight at my high school, this wasnt my first one i know how to fight, but this was my first one with hppd. the fight started, i won, but it was so strange, i had so much adrenaline pumping and i dont know why he was weak and easy to take down. it took me about 3 hours to even realize what happened and i have very little memory of it to. for several days i was in a constant ready to fight feeling as if the fight still wasnt over and i had thoughts such like, "hes waiting outside", "hes gonna spraypaint my house", or even "what if this dude comes into my house at night and kills me and my family!" This kid wouldnt have done ANY ONE OF THOSE but i just couldnt shake those thoughts. during this time especially right after the fight i felt like i was floating above the ground, crazy right! has anyone gotten into a fight with dp/dr or hppd?

today is the first day of the real fast, im only getting of caffeine now not tobaco to. so far i only have a headache and some stomach pangs. Not to much time has passed so ill update you guys tommorow morning

from day 1 ive noticed that everything is a lot darker than i remember it. im not talking about a depression thing where nothing seems bright/happy but the whole world seems noticeably less bright, has this happened to anyone else?

anyone else feel lightheaded when they get up. it used to be a little light headedness when i stood up but now its to the point that i almost faint.

i just cant handle emotions anymore, i dont know what to be happy for and what to be depressed for. my mind is just so foggy i cant handle happiness or depression anymore, can anyone relate?

thanks ghormeh, that's an interesting read but it does'nt say anything about repairing the brain so i guess ill have to find out myself. Im starting the fast again tommorow, the only thing ill be withdrawing from this time is caffeine so hopefully it does'nt turn out as rough. i cant wait to go on with my life. i was thinking that at the first sign of hppd, you should fast, to get all of the drugs out of your system and to hopefully repair the damage before it becomes permanent, anyone else think thats a good idea?

merkan you were right quitting all of that at once was to much i could'nt do it, im going to try again in a day now that ive gone several days without tobacco and have'nt had much sugar or caffeine.i went one day and i have to say, just that single day without food caused me to have a much clearer mind.

im on day 1 of my 3 weeks of planned fasting, and so far it isnt going well. im giving up my caffeine habit, my high sugar diet, cigarettes and food. ive had a massive headache all day with a deep depression. food is starting to seem a lot better tasting than it used to. i, hoping that this will get me out, ive been through to much and this is the only thing i can think of to get me out of this shitty life with this fucked upped disorder that no one on here deserves to be going through. sorry if i sound angry. ill keep you guys updated

i tried this spring break but the withdrawals were to much. getting off cigs was hard, getting off my gallon+ of mountain dew a day habit was harder. my head was throbbing but i went 2 days. during summer after i wean off cigs and caffeine i will do a 25 day fast. btw for all you energy drink consumers, i just found out that monster has ginko biloba in it so watch out for that

during this spring break i will be doing a 10 day water fast, im at the breaking point with this disorder, felt so good and then it all goes down the drain. hopefully i can make it past day 4 untill the hunger stops. i dont beleive this will make my hppd go away, if anything it would have to be a 20 day one but ill try this in hopes of reduced visuals. Ill keep you guys updated

Can someone PLEASE help me my visuals are my last symptom my life is almost back on track I just need something to get rid of them.

The huge head rush isn't like to much nicotene to the point you puke, just enough. It sounds kinda bad but trust me its fucking awesome

It's very relaxing and gives me a huge head rush after a small bowl. It's really helps me get through the day I recommend you try it you can buy it online. It's calms my visuals down slightly but I'm not using it for that.

Lately i have been medicating with this great thing called dokha. It's basically an Iranian tobacco blend of additive free tobacco, mixed with finely shredded bark and herbs. It's a very high nicotene content that when smoked hives you a huge nicotene rush that feels 20+ times better than tobacco alone. I only recomend using this if nicotene doesn't affect your visuals though. This stuff is greater than tobacco and hookah and is relatively safe. It's been used for centuries by the Arabs and its easy to get on the Internet. Anyone ever heard of it or tried it? If not look it up