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Hey, I'd like for you guys to know about this place from hell called highschool. Not only does it suck to the average person but its like a concentration camp to me. Since I developed hppd and all this shit in the summer after 8th grade my first school year with it is at a completely different school and I can't tell if I feel normal or not because its such a different surrounding I don't know how I'm susposed to feel at school. Anyone relate?

Always drink 1 or 2 Mountain Dews a day but everything else in my diet is healthy. Eat a lot of fruits mostly mangos and bananas and consume a LOT of steak. And I drink a decent amount of milk

No I would wait a few years and just dabble in pot occasionally. Pot does nothing to my symptoms to

Hey I know there's been a thread like this before but I need different advice/help than what the guy in the other thread needed. I've decided that's its time to try for a script for keppra. I've never tried to have anything prescribed to me before so I seriously need your help. Do I need to discuss this with a neuro or psychologist first? I don't think it will work out to good if I just ask my doc to prescribe me keppra and show him the studies, right? And I don't have a nuero or a phychiatrist so do I need to get one first? I'm desperate can someone please help and discuss how you got yours prescribed? And if it means anything im on MediCal, thanks a lot.

The only think that keeps me going is the belief that when it all goes away, I'll be 10 times happier than before, get to feel normal, and smoke weed again. If it wasn't for that I would've offed myself awhile ago.

Haha funny shit jimmy! I Originally just posted this because I've read a lot about this drug and thought it had potential and everyone for some unknown reason but Larry thought I was talking about taking it myself

I know it sounds just like it but I have had dp and dr before and this Is not it. It's more like this experience has changed how I perceive the world. But it's for sure not dp/dr

Mine is not a full success story but its still great. I was a huge mental wreck depersonalization anxiety visuals panic attacks depression. All I have is visuals I'm so happy that all the other shit went away that I'm actually happier than before hppd. I love my life now

Thank you Larry for fucking understanding that I had no intention of taking it and was only asking if anyone else has heard of the benefits the fucking drug has

I'm confused, not just brain fog but in life. I can't think straight and feel confused with questions and problems but that's the least of my troubles. I'm not sure of everything, I don't know what an emotion is, I experience it but I no longer get why I feel that way. I don't know what life is anymore its feels like a big clump of unkown things put together for unkown reasons. I don't know how much longer I can go with these confusing days and ups and downs. Does anyone else feel this way

No no you guys I'm not putting shit in my body I meant for others to share their experience and or information about the effects the drug has on their symptoms as I've heard that it can cure depression. I'm not doing it OK!

No i am of do dr anxiety stress etc and it happened all at once but not visuals, and no I didn't mention this drug to fmget high I mentioned it because it rebuilds dopamine receptors or something.

I feel you man my light sensitivity, the only symptom that actually bugs me has not improved at all even though I've had massive improvement in every other symptom. As long as it doesn't get terribly worse dont worry man.

Thanks for the replies guys, still feeling fucking amazing! Just waiting for visuals to go away might start on keppra but to be honest I don't care life is good and I hope you guys all feel better soon.

May sound weird and just the stuff you don't want in your system if you have hppd but it has some interesting effects. It has been used for depression and can cure depression for about a month after a single use. If anyone knows more about it post it, just thought this was interesting.

Like I said I've been feeling really good lately and my visuals have actually been reducing and all my other symptoms are nearly gone. The one problem I have is that when I start to feel better i also start to get emotionally dull. I just feel like I don't care anymore and life is just dull, and it isn't depersonalization. Any ideas what it is?

Like I said I've been feeling really good lately and my visuals have actually been reducing and all my other symptoms are nearly gone. The one problem I have is that when I start to feel better i also start to get emotionally dull. I just feel like I don't care anymore and life is just dull, and it isn't depersonalization. Any ideas what it is?

Thanks for the response jimmy. I didn't mean its nice to have visuals but its not the worst symptom for many. My hppd is relatively light and doesn't make driving at night or reading any harder than it used to. Most people with this shit disorder have other shit disorders with it like depersonalization and anxiety attacks. Once you get rid of all that shit life is just a little bit worse than before hppd, that is if your visuals are not bad by themselves.

I just wanted to let everyone know I feel fucking great again. Feel just like I used. Absolutely no benzos at all in my system to. Although my visuals haven't decreased I want some people on here to know something. Although visuals are not a fun thing to have, they don't matter, as long as you feel nice and happy. Little stupid to post just this but I thought maybe some of you guys could use some hope.

I remember one member on here saying it was being looked into as an antidepressent as it makes you feel so good when you start it. Glad you feeling great.

Sorry for the late response but thanks for responding you guys. Been feeling fucking fantastic today don't give a shit about visuals.it once again feels like my symptoms are reducing but my snow is the same and getting slightly worse. Who cares though as long as I feel good.

That's great news I love success stories glad your feeling better. What I mean though is that my visual snow hasn't reduced at all. It's my worst symptom and all my other symptoms don't want to stick around but this ones got other plans. I'm posting this because I'm getting desperate I'm getting into junior year now and I never really tried but I'm have to now and my brain fog is killing me and I know if you get rid of visuals you get rid of brain fog to.

I would like the help of everyone but I mostly need the long timers on this site as they have seen the most cases of reduction and completion sucess. It's been almost a year now, I think maybe 8 months since I developed hppd and I'm still not quite sure what to make of my symptoms. So far I have seen: Closed eye visuals 90% gone. That black hole light in the air thing 95% gone. Trailers 15% gone. After images 40% gone. No other visual symptoms have changed, my snow is the same and my light sensitivity is the same, luckily those 6 are my only visual symptoms. My snow is just noticeable enough during the day that i can notice it a couple of times without looking for it. It doesn't get much worst at night and is my worst symptom. My light sensitivity isn't a bother to me. My non visual symptoms like anxiety and feeling like I'm tripping are almost 100% gone. And my brain fog is still here but isn't noticeable during the day unless I'm tired. Once again this is to everyone but I would be happy if some people with a lot of insight like Jay or merkan or brake etc could respond. Do you think my visuals will ever go away?

My shit is going away I'm pretty fucking happy. Idk if you guys have this but do you ever check your visuals at a certain place during the day with a certain lighting and you can see more pronounced visuals? Well I check my closed eye visuals in the bathroom because there's a bright light and a white bath tub and usually when I check my cev's then I see tons of moving circles. When I do it now I can't see anything except a little snow.

Sorry man, weed doesn't do shit to my visuals but makes me feel like a full blown schizophrenic. Since my mental well being is almost completely normal when this shit goes away I'm gonna give it two months and then start smoking indices occasionally.