TheGman6072

but they still feel nice !

Was it magnesium glycinate ?

well I might be able to get my hands on some opiates or benzos so hopefully it helps. Hopefully I can get some cash. I might see if I can get some of those edibles from that guy but I won't take them. I'll just sell them to get some cash

Uh oh we going to see another fight ? Lol fight !

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I might as well not even take edibles since the last 2 times I took weed felt like a waste of my time since I didn't enjoy it as much as I used to.

Weed does make it worse but not that much. I'm not going to do drugs cuz if I do, it would probably just make people less willing to help me.

A job ? During the school year ? I can barely function in school I'm too unstable for a job. Even if I did, my parents would hold my money. I can wait though

Instead of posting all the time, I might just post monthly updates or something. Not posting on here sure helps or I don't really know what's making me feel better. So for the past week and a half I have been more calm and less anxiety but I still get bad moments which includes terrible panic attacks but not as often. Usually when I get in some stressful situations, I just shut down instead of reacting. Won't be going to my appointment since my mom says I will NOT be getting any prescriptions from a doctor so I said fuck it. I am just waiting patiently for plan B but I ended up getting a new phone about a month ago and I'm kinda hesitant to give the guy my new number. Really need to get my hands on meds soon. So this past week, I tripped out twice in my history class. I sometimes feel like I'm tripping but this time, it was much worse. My hot history teacher morphed into a fucking witch in the corner of my eye. All of my visuals were ten times worse and I felt like I had combined LSD, weed and diphenhydramine. The second time this happened which was on Wednesday, the other teacher who was in the room pulled me out of the classroom. I was twitching a little bit and I was very disoriented and he thought I was on drugs and almost sent me to get drug tested. Next time this happens, I am probably just going to not go to class until it goes away and I know a couple ways to make the "trip" weaker. I am going to try taking edibles in higher amounts since the last couple times, I didn't enjoy weed as much as I used to. When I smoked weed a couple months ago, I didn't really enjoy the high and last time I took an edible I didn't enjoy that much probably cuz I didn't take enough. I am currently trying to get edibles from a guy in one of my classes and he might not charge me. I can't smoke weed cuz I got busted for having a lighter in my locker so I need to get my other one back eventually. Yes I'm probably doing weed again it has little effect on my HPPD and dp/dr. Today I even started thinking about drinking again but I hate hangovers. Anybody else experience the "tripping" ?

Nobody wants to help anyone commit suicide. Only an insane person would help another person kill themselves and actually I think you can get in trouble for that

NO ! do not kill yourself ! it does nothing and it will be a very bad pain for your family and friends. I you do kill yourself, the HPPD and depersonalization could just follow you to heaven. what exactly is making you want to kill yourself ?

Sorry if I'm posting this in the wrong section but my messages folder is acting strange. It says I have new messages but they aren't showing up so whoever is trying to contact me, I am not getting the messages. It could be due to the fact that people are responding to conversations that I deleted so I no longer have them so maybe try sending me a new conversation, whoever is messaging me

I regret telling my parents now. They have scheduled appointments but they are pointless cuz I won't be getting anything to help. To them, talking to them about HPPD is as bad as doing drugs

People say caffeine makes HPPD worse. I call bullshit. I just trip on caffeine that's it. Visuals don't get worse or anything. I don't know what alcohol would do since I haven't drank in over a year and a half

There has NEVER been a time where I took drugs without it affecting my symptoms. if drugs weren't making my symptoms worse, I would still be doing it as much as I used to but now I rarely do it

I made the mistake of taking it while having HPPD and I regret it a lot

Don't do it ! MDMA is one of the most HPPD causing drugs

I have only been spending like 30 seconds on here and that's it

I still check if people are still responding to my posts. But I am refraining from posting new ones

Focusing on the positives sure helps. Also in response to the day dreaming easily part, I sometimes get so stressed out and high anxiety, I often just shut down my brain almost every time something stressful happens especially when I am dealing with school. I would sit there "day dreaming" but not thinking about anything, I just shut down

Jay, delete everyone's responses on the last 2 pages. everyone else, GTFO ????????????????

You guys always fighting ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? lol middle finger emoji finally !

Trip, what if you get HPPD and bad dp/dr again ? I love drugs too but drugs are evil !

Dafuq is wrong with you ? what the fuck you are saying or talking about ?

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