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I have just gotten feeling better a tiny bit with Tums-- 2 large tums.......(seriously).....but maybe its just acid reflux (sorry seriously didnt mean pun).........but i am 50x beter than i was 3 months ago so ....I know 3 months ago it seemed like nothing helped........so not sure

I would help out a bit and i've had separate instances of persistant-flashbacks in ~15 years but i am rough around the edges in more ways than one, i can be crass, brash, opinionated, and sometimes aloof; other times i can be a pathetic mess. lol So that's where I'm at. lol

Yeah I know about the blur and the 2D............try very, very small amount of benzo, asprin, iboprofen, magnesium with calcium + vit. D together (maybe), nothing helped much except (maybe) first 3 things a bit. try SUCKIng on a B12 tab instead of swallowing it all together, i don't know, coconut oil, CoQ10 ?

How available are these RCs? It seems to be a growing trend. And it seems like it may be easy to buy them online. The FBI/DEA (or whatever) have really been dropping the ball lately. Things happen so slowly in a democracy (in USA) that these semi-legal drugs stay semi-legal even until people start dropping dead or become drug/brain damage victim. ......What kind of people deal in these kind of drugs? (ex. - hippies?, goth people?, metal heads?, frat kid?, shady people?) What? if you got time check out this video and things at the bottom of this page: http://hppdonline.co...__fromsearch__1

Check out this site that shows you how inconsistant purity is with street drugs; and how it it often not the drug that is actually being sold: http://www.thefix.com/content/bunk-police-drugs-music90372

I'm diggin' it...... you kind of got that late 70's Jimmy Page/Joe Perry sound and playing goin' on.......If you every want collaborate i have PTools, Logic, etc. We could send back and forth files, just a thought

Bactrim is a sulpha-anti-biotic. I am pretty sure it is not in the same class as fluoroquinolone/quinolone group of antibiotics. With the fluoroquinolone/quinolone group of antibiotics, there is fair risk, if you misuse the drug, irreparable psychosis. In my opinion, Bactrim is one of the best ab's, well for the infections it treats. Side effects should be less than let's say levaquin, and penicillin. Hallucinations, increased visual disturbances, and psychosis, I believe are all possible with bactrim/HPPD but I believe should be less of a risk than the drugs i had mentioned. If taken as advised, i believe you should not run into any problems.

You must of had a bad HP-episode, i did too and at one point i was on Risp. It was the best out of all of those atypicals, i thought. I've also had some major, major setbacks, where basically i haven't been able to do what i wanted or needed to do with my life for like probably 10 year (give or take). You just got to get to a point where you manage yourself and minimize your exposure to negativity. I don't believe in breaking you down to build you back up. Now is the time to feel good about yourself and feel good about everything you're doing.

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I come here to talk about the emotional implications of Hppd, and the changes in the "default" setting in the good feeling and clear senses we are used to. <--(Hppd or Non-HPPD related). At times, I have been so sad, but unable to cry. Tell of some things emotionally caused by sensory loss, HPPD, family, bad luck. etc

Sorry man .....This stuff i can relate to. I don't want to be forcing my views.... When i was 16, before HP, i started getting tinnitus and anxiety because of it, a lot. You wake up from sleep in the morning, with cold-sweat inducing deep depressive shock ....and face the real reality: that you have this hearing loss, and with HP, your senses have been all mangled. You're just going to have to put off the expectations, plans, dreams, and ideals for a while and cope with issue that stands before you. Sunglasses is a treatment, hold no shame.

It's interesting........what is the cause of the anger? (aside from the normal things lol) ......And do you feel like people prescribe you antipsychotics to "quiet you down"? Or you take them for your own reasons?

for a while there is was having maggotvision where these tiny translucent bugs filled my entire visual field, dancing symmetrically along with the larger autonomous glide of the amoeba-shaped water striders. ......luckily thats gone away

Jeez......if i had a rockstar, i'd feel like i was tripping balls. ......and mandy, cheesecake really? c'mon man j/k.......they got some good cheesecake over there in scotland? mmm..................oh yeah and you guys are talking about OCD; i feel like the total opposite of OCD; i feel like a slob, semi-psycho, ADD zombie, deer-in-the-headlights, hit-in-the-head-with-a-shovel stunned, in shock, stung-with-lightning hallucinations

I feel that when i was stoned and had HPPD, i felt like someone with brain damage smoking weed. I was like "what am i doing?!" I feel stupid and now that i am stoned i feel really stupid (and not just for smoking weed).

i've been living on all that stuff for the last 6 months: soda, sweets, carbs, you name it. I think eating badly, does not help HP but it gives you energy that keeps you away from that hungry, head-achey HP bout. So at this point i'm like a old lady that curls up on the couch with a gallon of ice cream, crying his sorrows away (lol), watching TV. lol

lol I would love to do it also but I am such a retard since this HPPD-thing that i might embarrass myself lol ........Does this include HP-stuff or is it just an all-inclusive study?

You have been through a very traumatic event. Add that with the physical damage you have done to the natural actions of your neurons, and i gets "not easy". One thing is never take LSD and smoke weed. Than for a real long time, if i were you, i would NOT smoke anymore weed. It will take you into an out-of-body, dissociative state. This is not even talking about the anxiety/panic. This comes from someone who probably smoke 95 pounds of weed in my life. Just keep yourself safe, stay away from people who could hurt you and stay away from people who don't remain sober;; and just get better. Oh yeah and another thing: i think your hallucinogen days are over. lol

I've had 3 separate instances of persistant flashbacks (~24/7) in about 15 years. My benzodiazepine experience is ~10-15 years. In the beginning, before HPPD, I just took Lorazepam when I had anxiety, maybe 3x a year, at a dose of 1/2 mg/a time. About 5 years ago, i got persistant flashbacks that began in a quasi-psychotic break. I was taking like 2 mg/day for a year. The next year: 1 mg/day. Then I took Ativan (loraz.) only when i needed it (10-20x a year @ 1/2-2 mg). 6 months ago I get HPPD-stuff again i get, from some weird circumstances. I was taking 1/2 to 1.5 mg Klonopin virtually every day for 4 months. And now ~6 months since the commencement of persistant hallucinations, things are starting to get somewhat better. I take about 1/4 to 2 klonopin every 1 or 2 weeks. Your problem is anxiety/panic, a good deal, it seems. Some of these ADs are used for anxiety. You got to bite the bullet, so to speak, and step out and see if you can get-along w/o so much benzo. Some of it is w/d symptoms but some of it is anxiety and fear that has just been masked. You see klonopin is a long lasting drug for most benzos; so you can take it everyday and so each dose will overlap and you will never actually comedown off of the Klonopin. This is ok but.......well you are not on Xanax, so tapering off is not nearly as dangerous. When I say comedown, i mean actually "coming down" off the drug. I know its ok to take these drugs like that. But it seems that Klonopin and Ativan are designed, in my experience, for more sporadic, panic-like instances.

Try Lexapro or Celexa perhaps. or go back to Wellbutrin. Benzos calm down anxiety/panic. {I knew of a person that took Topamax for migraines (i believe) and other mood shiite, but i have zero experience with this drug.}

Maybe if i start sorting boxes at Walmart, my blue-cross will pick up the tag.

Well of course it's a neuropathy or a sense that it's neuropathy .......HPPD has aspects similar to brain damage. What are your options? Go to doctor, Treat yourself, pray. You should try to have some practical plans to help yourself. Not all doctors are bad. RLS as a kid seems rare. How about asprin/ ibprofen ?? Well most western doctors wouldn't prescribe you supplements generally, unless you had a vitamin deficiency. Listen I'm gonna tell you what i think Wellbutrin XL, little bit of asprin, a little bit of ibprofen, and tiny amount of benzos and lots of water and sleep and time.

You know what they probably were real migraines but i never had them before HPPD and hallucinogens. And my visuals seemed to blend right in with the migraine visuals. Yeah....they made the HPPD seem a lot worse

Well, if you gotta neuropathy, you gotta go to a neurologist or a neuropsychiatrist. If it's just HPPD, dissociation or anxiety, try a lot of sleep and very small amount of benzo. When i was real bad w/ HPPD, i got this pseudo-RLS thing going on. Also I was getting these pseudo-migraine headaches too. Maybe you can relate to those 2 feelings, and perhaps this has brought out some sort of ADD thing. Tell me if this rings true any.