2muchmandy

Thanks man il check thos out. Its never reasuring when the word breakdown is used. U seen my latest thread and symptom. Its kinda frightening me

This ones worrying me. Does anyone else get semi hallucinations. Kinda like the grusome faces etc that can happen when ur tryna sleep but when ur awake like this is haaard to explan. Its not a full on hallucination but a thought u can kinda see sorta pops up.

Past couple days I had that. Just felt really drunk and wobbly

what i find is, it feels like ur brain turns in on urself. it starts with one thought...then a question, then eratic thoughts cos u cant answer it and it escalates. for eg this is what happens with me friend : " so i woke up this morning and felt ill " me : " ha, yeah that sucks, i felt kinda ill yesterday actually " in my head suddenly " dam, i did feel ill, i dont feel so good now either, maybe my hppd is getting worse, how bad can it get? fuck, it cant get that bad, im sure im fine, maybe im not, maybe its just starting to set in properly " then i start looking at my hands and around sorta nodding nervously tryna look like i know whats going on, head feelings light, feeling weightless and dreamy the next thing i know, iv missed half a conversation because i was standing staring into space tryna figure out whats going on and calm myself down. amasing how one thought triggers an anxious DP attack

I had it real bad at first, like I was doubting my existance, maybe. Was in a coma, was the universe in my head. What I found was useful was immersing myself in my own life. U really need to do the things u do, listen to ur favourite music, do the hobby u do. Make urself feel coumfortable in ur own body again

Again stories like this keep me sane and hopeful. What was ur meditation method?

hppd symptoms seem to come in waves, get bad then better so dont worry too much. i find it helps to just shake my head take a deep breathe and shake my hands, rub my legs and like, figure out im here, i can feel me, its all real sorta thing if this feeling gets overwhelming. i also think its important to be open with the others around u so they know why ur acting a little distant and fucked up.

I had that all of yesterday, felt really spaced out and drunk. I think its part of dp/dr and u just dont feel spacially aware and everythings a bit swimmy

Hopefully its. Not so bad once I first wake up and stuff. It just appears later. I had to write my cv/resume and it got difficult

Glad it went for u man. Im kinda annoyed I thought I was in the clear but apparently not. Im hoping it goes away, I mean tbh im not worried about it hugely, I just dont want all objects doing that, text I can handle. Was it just text with u

As previously stated im just about cured, todays not been a great day ( bit of paranoia, very mild ) but its been a great week with vast improvement however, there is one symptom thats popped up or iv just noticed. It happened pre- hppd but its worse. when reading text sorta floats around. Is this a common symptom and is there any way to try and deal with this, usually i wouldnt bother a fuck, but thanks to hppd unique way of altering thought process, im worried it will spread out into every day life leaving me in some acid like state. Id be very upset at that because i reckon im like 90% healed

Thats kinda shit. Id say im at the final push and about to.call myself healed in a week or so. I was hoping I can go back to the occasional beer in a month or so?

Oh yeah shit. That might be a cure. Hypnosis to forget symptoms. I reckon for mild sufferers that would help

my main visual problem now is text, like moving out of place a bit, kinda wierd. like a 2cb comedown. still ghosty patterns on the walls too. if these 2 things go away i declare cured.

FUCK that. glad i dont have it

i never really asked, what is " ghosting " is it the double vision thing, or the ghost like patterns on the walls?

what techniques do they use ghoemeh

I try doing that when im getting to sleep anyway. I imagine im out drifting or on the bmx and try get a nice scenario in my head. I dont see any harm in just going with it and drifting away for a bit. Will probably do u good, its like ur brain asking for a break for a while

its good theyv gone boogres. its fuckin horrible. and as for ferret worrying about going schizo, ur not man dont worry look how many other people have had the same, besides the thoughts may be horrible and disgusting but ul manage. and besides, it doesnt matter how bad they are if u dont act on them then ur not doing any harm, ur also ignoring them and theyl go away. best of luck man

yeah its strange man, it doesnt really happen to me now i have hppd which is wierd but pre hppd if i stayed up too late or drank more than one day in a row i had it bad. it happened to me the first day hppd set in but i think that was the booze

I always used to get that if I drank 2 or more days imn a row. When hugover it was realy bad, scenes of people being mutilated. Horrible faces gurning. Had it the first day of hppd. Get faces rarely now. Worst one was on the bus home from glasgow the morning of my comedown and hppd onset. On a megabus freezing thought I had ss. Started to drift off. Someone walked up pulled a bag of this guys head and shot him. When I realised it was my dad I sorted came to shouting. Since then its pretty much stopped. Tht was a disgusting cev though

I was the same ferret last week was aweful for me. I thought I was about to be cured then relapsed but this has been a great week. I think its just about realising hppd will have bad phases on the road to recovery. I wouldnt worry too much dude.

thanks alot jay thats really made me feel better. iv kinda realised now ( before when i got a break from the anxiety ) id feel good but i spent it worrying about stupid stuff, now iv kinda realised make the most of when i feel good, cos tomorrow i might feel shit. as for the worsening i lost my job the first week but i wasnt stressed about it and im friends with my boss so it wasnt on terrible terms. i think il just continue getting plenty vitamin C, keep as care free as possible and think positive.

Its just the fact i may have kept drugging through the warnings so it may be too late and thats whats scaring me shitless. i just dont wanna be living in a permanant acid trip u know. but as i say im pretty sure im healing well and its just the nerves that are there. if i do heal il probably never drink again, dont wanna risk it. i dunno what the fuck id do if it worsened severely. i feel kinda proud in the sense alot of people would have gone completely mental by now but iv managed to keep it together

Today i just kinda realised i had what were probably warnings of hppd and have done for a year so after smoking weed or staying up too late after drinking heavily. Seeing static in the dark, ghosting shapes and stuff. When trying to sleep seeing the graphic nasty images etc and obviously i didnt know about hppd so i just ignored it, i didnt know what was going on. Maybe it was unrelated but who knows. Was just kinda wondering if this is the case and iv drank and taken drugs now and then but stopped now its definately set in. How bad can this get. The first week i had it was unbearable, the paranoia, the visuals and so on, things improved ten fold since then. i feel basically normal bar the visuals sparkly and patterny for 10 mins when i wake up, text wobbles and breathes a little, snowy most of the time, ghosty patterns on walls but over all things seem to be improving do any of the long timers have any advice or thoughts on how im doing? and how bad can hppd actually get, like i mean i remember jay saying for 3 years he felt like he was on acid and that really terrifies me. i feel like im on the mend so, i dunno. bit of reassurance or others thoughts would be good.