2muchmandy

Windscar im the same as u. I just didnt fully come down

do we have a name for fake ketamine...mxe? cos thats what fucked my party im sure

me too man. as a drum n bass/junglist soldier my diet consisted of stella and mdma. as for pain snorting mephadrone? pffff. try snorting 2cb. the worse pain iv ever experienced

thanks man thats really reassuring. i hope it does go away for u, aswell as myself haha. im with u on the booze. i aint drinking til i know this is gone and staying gone. im applying for a job at my local bmx park and intend to leave home so im hoping the new job and flat will fit in nicely with recovery. past couple have days have been a bit tough but its just a hiccup im sure

What happened to them?

if my visuals go away 100% which i think they should then i reckon il call myself cured. the paranoid and derealisation i get somes from me being scared the visuals will get worse. if they go away im golden, no need to shit in my pants anymore

mine kicked in 8 hours after i had a line of that fake ketamine stuff. i was on mdma, cannabis and had been drinking. when i was coming down, i started hallucinating like on 2cb, was too hot, then cold, shaking uncontrollably and sweating, i thought it was seratonin syndrome. paranoia etc. then over that week it calmed down. and a month on i think its like 70% cured. im hoping mine was a tap on the wrist, saying sort ur life...or this is what ul get

iv had hppd a month, my visuals have improved like 60/70% id say, the paranoia has died and i get it once every couple days. no DR anymore really, DP, im a manic depressive iv always felt distant. im pretty confident il fully recover

yeah very true. i try my best to tell myself to shut up

man thats sounds pretty horrible. do the symptoms come in waves? cos i think im getting on the way to being cured. id hate to relapse sorta. today was my birthday and i spent it paranoid and depressed over fuck all :/

Today is my 19th birthday and as a presen i got conjunctivitus in my left eye, i think its that. But i keep worrying its something serious, iv had it before but couldnt remember the blurred vision from it. Does anyone else suffer the hypercondria hppds paranoia seems to bring on u, im sitting crapping my pants im going to go blind over whats 99% likely to be something iv had a few times before and will be gone by monday. Its this shit that wears u down mentally and tires u i find.

Ben gleib does a hillarious bit on adverts saying theres never a better time to speak to ur doctor about certain drugs etc. And hes saying are we supposed to be recommending medicines our docotr give us. But with disorders like ours we actually fucking have to. Its a pretty frightening situation for me. Let us know if u decide to try this stuff

i think a person in psychical form is nothing, not special. what makes a person is how they act, feel, respond and the memories they have and give. if uv had ur brain remapped like a car engine ( what i think of hppd as doing ) u no longer have the memories ( they feel flat and 2dimentional ) u dont act the same, u dont feel the same either. its basically having ur personality ripped from u. i would try do the shit u used to do. i think the more u try get away from it the worse itl get. first week i had it i didnt feel like listening to drum n bass or working on my car but i forced myself to do it because i knew that what euan did, euan is a bmw nut who listens to dnb. its kinda like u gotta emmerse urself in ur own life.

I agree. I never see my best friends anymore. And u realise all u had in common was a white powdery bag. Wasnt like that at first but thaats how it started

u just gotta re evaluate ur position and realise if u want a shot at getting better u either cut it out or forget it. thats what iv done. all my mates go mental with everything, iv just not seen them or when iv been there abstained. i dont wanna be like this my whole fuckin life, im 19 and my heads like soup. try think of drug times as then and now is a new chapter to write. wev had our fun but nows the time to wake up and sort shit out a bit so we dont go totally nuts

hppd is frightening the crap outta me, i appear to be getting better but am i. will it worsen in a years time? if it gets unbareable il end it, i have no bones about doing so but for now im hopefull

i think the best thing to do if u dont want ur hppd to worsen is just dont dabble with anything. i havnt touched anything since getting this basically a month ago and its rapidly improving. like, i havnt touched caffine, energy drinks. i stay away from smokers etc. my visuals are much less, the snow has got better but theres sorta ghosty geo patterns. i hope this is symptoms improving not seeing in worse

I love special k. I was on mxe fake ket the night I got my hppd. I was fuckin rattled but fun party fucked. So funny when people look at u in horror as u wobble and swim down the street. Thinking wtf has that guy taken. I wouldnt take it seen as we all now have a disasosiative disorder. Surely it wouldnt help taking a disasosiative

It would work as a prevention. People would spend all theor cash sorting things and couldnt afford drugs

this month so far has sucked and even im surprised i didnt hang myself, i got hppd, lost my job and yesterday my dad was driving my new bmw home and the engine blew up 10 miles from home. today we set about it with spanners etc. and stripped it down and it must be said being out in the sun and keeping my mind busy has made my visuals much fainter. theyv sorta come back now but i didnt notice them atal today. bmw cures hppd?

im kinda the same, i realised the last time i ever rolled i didnt know if i liked drugs or not. i think i did and do. but i dunno. i just took them cos they were these all the time. i spent atleast 30% of time on drugs paranoid or " getting through it " probably a bad sign i shoulda picked up on

i wouldnt be smoking ganja, just scared drinking will make mine worse permanantly

if i got it that bad or my hppd got unbareable id do it. dont fuckin blame him

does the hppd return to a base level or does it get permanantly worse

it really sounds like 100% junglist heaven man. so fucking cool. im tempted to go to innovation in the sun