2muchmandy

man how the fuck havnt i heard of this festival!!! i love black sun empire dam that sounds like it was absolute junglists heaven!

glad its gone away dude. that shit would drive me fuckin wild. i thought i had it the other night, turns out my phone charger was whining at the wall so i turned it off. thank fuck

aaah right ok. i thought the pineal gland released it every night. ah well was just a thought

my mates big on them but i just cant get into em. time for a break from joy division before i hang myself http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-X4qxr6Z6s

title sounds a bit uneducated and stupid but, it kinda struck me as an idea that maybe the whole visual snow thing is caused by the gland in the brain that produces dmt. it pumps it out when u sleep and when u die, but maybe the patterns and snow etc are caused because mixing a lack of sleep and drugs has made the gland over reactive?

fuck that. i smoked salvia and nothing happened. wasnt impressed. i was worried incase the shapes were just me

so its not just me then. sometimes my patterns are coloured aswell and its just like being on 2cb. frightens the living shit outta me

If I knew risks of hppd I wouldnt have touched drugs. Everytime I listen to king tubby or look at my bmx I feel the want for a spliff. When I listen to music I crave mandy. Pull push by jon gaiser makes me want mdma soo badly I need to pysch myself down after listening to it. The thinf I crave most is alcohol. Iv been a huge drinker since 15. Im scottish, iv made to drink huge amounts. Id cut my losses on drugs if I could get stella back. Gin and red wine too. When I got this hppd id decided to quit psychs as id finished with experimenting. Id expanded my mind and scared myself spineless.

hopefully dude. iv had it almost 3 weeks now and im already at the end of my tether

hahaha maan thats good. almost on par with this. itl crack u up

dubstep used to be good til the americans tried it out and then the radio got a hold of it. RSD loefah and old skream. all good dubstep artists

dont think hes been active for a fair while jay i think it is genetic or atleast biological. do u guys get like, geometric patterns n shit in ur visual snow now and again? thats the bit that prangs me out

What is it?

Alright, I think il abstain longer then. I feel no need for meds atal. I get paranoid sometimes over stupid shit. I worry if il go insane or if il be cured. But then I just think im lucky im not dead with the drugs iv taken I probably should be, then I just think about biking or my cars and I feel ok. Hopefully I can remain benzoless. I feel a bit more secure knowing they are there as a safety net if the paranoia etc got worse

my mates understand jay, it took them a while but theyv finally realised its not a game im playing so theyd probably be happy to see me have 2 pints then stop. far from my past days of laying waste to 16 stellas in a night. i need to get on this benzo ting, everyones like yeah do whatever u want just make sure u have a benzo the day after. the acid/2cb like patterns are what frighten me, theyv gone unless i get tired. but the other day i was considering whats been happening and what ibv been seeing the past 2 weeks and i thought FUUCK. like seriously, i spent 3 solid days trying to ignore 2cb like patterns, weeks tripping with visual snow and extreme paranoia...how the hell am i still sane.

so if i go out and get hammered the next day will suck but there wont be permanant damage done? i hope to athiesm this goes away soon, i thought id be fine seen as i didnt take loads before getting it but if u didnt and have had it 9 years, that aint promising man. i think il give it another month or so off the booze and then experiment and see how it effects me, as u say i cant be missing out on my youthful life because of this shit. thanks for the advice

its absolute balls man. aslong as i can go back to having a beer again il be fine and cut my losses. suppose iv got extra $$$ for my car

i dont really care about them tbh, they can be killed with downers and alcohol. the depression, im a manic depressive iv been like that my life so it doesnt bother me, visuals need to go, and they are thankfull. it may sound dickish to say but i feel hard done by. iv only taken hard drugs about 10 months, tripped no more than 8 times, used mandy sensibly, was depressed but had no other disorders and now i get hppd. some people have taken acid 300 odd times, had loads of mental issues, they dont deserve hppd thats horrid to say noone does. but surely thats justifyable, mine, not soo much

theres a version of that by sarah mc...someone haha, its beautiful but very heavily depressing

standard clubbing proceedure id say man. after dillinja i had tinnitus for almost 3 days. just stick with it, try ignore it or drown it out and it should fuck off

haha dammit. im sitting looking at a bottle of lucozade infront of me. ( my favourite non alcoholic drink ) it wont effect my hppd u think will it?

whats bad for u? the visuals or all of the other aspects of it?

alright well il not bother with that then. theres so many meds on here people say take this, no dont, take this, try this. makes me dizzy haha

haha saved by the benzos. would tramadol have the same effect u think? i have like 40

deffo wouldnt sell my collection, its only got like 10 in it just now. but iv got 3 ltd editions already,. coloured vinyl is boss iv checked those tracks and pmed u back btw. that serum mix is an absolute stomper ah ur 2 years older than me then Gmo. im 19 on the 30th.