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  1. John Smith
    Hahaha doesnt that sound fuckin insane? YEah, friends i know who tried mescaline puked for hours..but then again i know a lot of people who got sick on shrooms too
  2. John Smith
    Yeah thats the thing i never rolled or tried 2cs...i never woulda tried 2cs thats why i wanted to try mescaline, or ayahuasca for that matter...i wanted to get the nuanced feeling but i guess candyflippin woulda given a similar result
  3. John Smith
    You too...sorry i called you man! haha...im feelin better, hopefully ill keep progressing the way i have been, considering my emotional state i think i will...i actually got it from mushrooms too, how many times did you trip? What do your symptoms consist of?
  4. John Smith
    God I would have loved to try mescaline though...trippin in the desert or on the beach...sucks to know it'll never happen...maybe in the next one...I actually dreamt i smoked a J last night haha...i really miss that too...rollin it, smellin it, smokin it, spending countless hours doing pointless, highly entertaining shit on the computer or lounging around with my boys shooting the shit...
  5. John Smith
    I spent only a year and a half on drugs too, but i dont wanna spend the rest of my life on a psychedelic i havent taken since i was 18, get what i mean?
  6. John Smith
    Nope. Maybe when im 40 ill start burnin again depending on whats goin on in my life at that moment, and if i ever get terminal cancer or somethin then ill definitely go nuts on the morphine but thats about it. Serotogenic/Dopaminergic/Both drugs are CERTAIN to make this hellish disorder come back, at least for me. Even alcohol has done it for many. Ill definitely drink again, but never to the point of being wasted. Im gotten used to the idea of a sober life with the occasional benzo thrown in.
  7. John Smith
    Whats the difference between a microdot and a blotter tab? Ive never gotten that...and yeah man, you should quit bud while the shit goes away...if you dont want it to be with you when youre 40 then give your brain a chance to get over it now
  8. John Smith
    Funny, im the opposite...lots of brain farts
  9. John Smith
    Fibromyalgia can bring about many co-occurring disorders such as chronic fatigue, brain fog, etc, so it wouldnt surprise me that some of use have it. I think i might to a slight degree since i get nerve pains all over my body.
  10. John Smith
    Once every 2 weeks but sometimes 3 weeks would go by, other times one, but i didnt like trippin in consecutive weeks because id get a really high tolerance
  11. John Smith
    Nah never a bad trip apart from the Dust experience, which i wasnt expectin so naturally that shit was horrible...I also could control it very well, i tripped with experienced trippers a few times and i always seemed to handle it better than them, id actually test myself, try to bug myself out to push my limits, let the visuals get scary, and bring myself back...shit was fun I did tahe 5 grams of shrooms once though, id say that was the closest to a bad trip i got, just because it wasnt very enjoyable, i cant say I got ANYTHING out of it. 3 grams on an empty stomach was my happy zone. Yeah unfortunately i got HPPD just as i was gettin to really have my fun...on my final trip i actually decided that i should trip less too, because to me id been overdoin it. So it went. Oh, salvia wasnt enjoyable at all...horrible shit. I took LSA once too, i saw some trails and my legs got REALLY fuckin stiff, they hurt like hell. Not a bad trip though.
  12. John Smith
    Yeah man, alot of people who seem fine who do alot of drugs, actually do get many visual distortions...i guess they kinda get used to it, or arent very bothered by them, but MANY people i know who trip have trippy visuals. I never woulda guessed before i asked em. Then again, some ARE perfectly fine. Luck of the draw. Certainly im the only one with DP and body pains and fatigue etc, but residual visuals are more common than you think. Ive had three friends whove done x (and not that much) ask me whether my mind sometimes goes blank, that it's somethin thats been happenin to them. 2 people dont smoke much anymore because shrooms completely changed their highs. So yeah it varies. My only warning pre hppd was jaw clicks and pains when i ate, but i wouldve never correlated the 2. I guess i was feelin a little manic in my shroom days, but i loved it, so i didnt really consider it a symptom. I thought it was just me becoming more positive or somethin. I know a kid from back home who actually tried shrooms once and never came down. He hasnt appeared socially since he tripped with 2 kids i know around 2010. My friend ran into him at church once and he went up twice for communion because he forgot hed already had it, and had to be reminded of who my friend was, even though theyd hung out many times and been close.
  13. John Smith
    True thats pretty crazy. It's weird how HPPD hits people differently. I got it one random night, and i immediately knew what i had, and that if i tripped id prbably get stuck in that trip forever. If i were to drop even an single E, my DP would probably go through the roof to the point where id probably barely be able to speak after that. So after that year when you stopped you got crazy visuals? where they always tehre or did they slowly start coming around? What about DP
  14. John Smith
    Wait oliver you took 60mgs of xanax for 2 years? Damn man youre lucky WDs only took a week, there are people who withdraw from benzos for YEARS
  15. John Smith
    Yeah i was wonderin why you didnt see em headline in 1995...and damn mannn i cant believe you were at knebworth, that had to be fuckin epic, and seeing them before they were big, in a little club mustve been amazing, Im so fuckin jealous man I cant tell you how many times ive watched the knebworth vids, although my fave oasis gig is probably maine road...what a fuckin great party your life was though haha...so you dont know when you got hppd? I thought you popped an e one day and it never stopped or somethin
  16. John Smith
    Yeah Oliver it's really not fuckin fair. If my brain were as resilient as yours i wouldve never gotten it because i never wouldve tripped so much, it's fuckin bullshit, it's kinda killed my faith in a higher power, or at the very least made me very bitter towards the idea of one in general. Ive also become kind of envious of my friends who do trip often, which sucks, it's definitely something i need to get past, and it's thinkin about this that gets me down on most days moreso than the hppd itself. I never even rolled!
  17. John Smith
    Yeah, i love him hes a great kid, hes actually gigantic for a 17 year old, but hes such a gentle soul. Hes starting to think about girls and stuff like that, so maybe he will grow up to have a semi normal life right? And dudeee even if you take only one benzo a day and you develop tolerance, you WILL get shitty fuckin withdrawals regardless. And no fuckin way you took 16 pills a day for a month man whyyyy
  18. John Smith
    Considering how many people here have HPPD from MDMA, why would you think that it's a possible cure?
  19. John Smith
    20 xanax at a time? Damn man, most i ever took was seven, (although i think i took 12 at a music fest once, but im not sure because they were smarties). You should taper down man, withdrawals are gonna be a bitch. And my cousin has asbergers, i feel ya. He has it worse than you do i think because he isnt quite as there and his mentality is more childish, but maybe thats because hes only 17. And damn man, you kinda remind me of sheldon from the big bang theory, yeah i used to be very smart (i still am i guess, even if i dont feel it at the moment,) but early on down the road i realized that part of being smart is also being humble about it. Although many times on alot of xanax i also called people out on their idiocy so i feel ya there too.
  20. John Smith
    Nah man, alot of people here got it from a few experiences, i personally only tripped 11 times before i got it (although one was a VERY high dose of PCP so idk) although im 99% mushrooms are what did me in. Many members have gotten HPPD after a single trip.
  21. John Smith
    Yup, both, although i consider my hppd symptoms to be mild in comparison, and my DPDR came about 8 months after HPPD. That is pretty bad, my body hurts alot, im pretty fatigued, and my thought process has severely been altered, but im confident ill get better, it doesnt affect me much emotionally on most days.
  22. John Smith
    True man, im glad to hear that youre copin well with it. Did it ever decrease? Howd you get it? What about DPDR?
  23. John Smith
    Yeaaaa Jay Bring it on down is the fuckin tits, id always play it before goin out to a party, along with cigs and alcohol and morning glory, always a great way to start a night of savage drinking...They were the band that got me into music, fuckin love them, you ever see em live? This is what ive been listening to non-stop for the past 2 days, it really pumps me up, been helpin me feel pretty good...
  24. John Smith
    What injuries man? How long have you had HPPD? I have taken muscle relaxants, namely Soma, and it definitely made my symptoms a bit worse, it made me feel a little high, think id go back to baseline after i came down though, but i only took em a few times.
  25. John Smith
    Yeah i also built a tolerance, i eventually started takin it in the mornings as well. Takin 3 at night would pass me out though, but if i were to stay on the computer or somethin and let the effects pass, id be guaranteed to be awake for a long while. Those days seem so far away man, it's weird. I was a college sophomore now it's my last semester.
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