John Smith

Yeah brendan, i started taking NAC again, it's helpin me lots. Although I have been exercising so i cant attribute it to that directly. Found some hydro syrup in my moms medicine cabinet and i drank it for about 4 days last week, also while drinkin, and now ive regressed again :/ haha but yeah nac definitely helps

wait so CBD doesnt get you high? that sucks

According to Rolling Stone, the lyrics came from Roger Waters' experience when he was injected with tranquilizers for stomach cramps by a doctor prior to playing a Pink Floyd show in Philadelphia on the band's 1977 In the Flesh tour.[5][6] "That was the longest two hours of my life," Waters said, "trying to do a show when you can hardly lift your arm." The experience gave him the idea which eventually became the lyrics to this song.

hahah why did a big mac give you a panic attack? Big mac guuud and yea mine definitely wouldva gone away pretty quickly and i never woulda gotten dpdr had i not insisted on smokin day in and day out for 5 months post hppd, not to mention the opiates and hard drinking...it was after smoking an e with a friend and gettin reallllly wasted that i noticed everything getting worse. Before that I could be sober for just a week and id notice half of my symptoms really decrease. After this experience, not quite so.

I get those too. It's weird though, sometimes drinking makes me hella DPd (that's when i know that the next day is gonna suck, symptom-wise haha) and other times it makes me, well, drunk and happy. Drinkin really doesnt affect HPPD for me, just the DPDR/Cognitive aspects. But yeah, i just deal with it by staying quiet alot, which sucks. Reading actually helps me both formulate thoughts, and recall things/situations/words that I "used" to know, for at least a while after i do it.

goddamn keppra sounds pretty good right now

Yeah, that happens to me too. The times ive felt better, i just go back to being my manic, hard-drinking drug-using old self, and then after about a week i inevitably get worse again, becoming the numb, laid back, depersonalized drone that i am today I became a major stoner too, i miss it dearly. But honestly i smoked alot post hppd and it rarely felt good, so although i do remember how good it used to feel before and miss those feelings terribly, i just associate it with how shitty it made me feel after i got hppd, so i dont really indulge or even feel like indulging anymore. btw trudeau how has keppra affected your cognitive issues?

Yeah, i end up hating myself for doin it half the time, but the other half it doesnt really affect me and i end up havin alot of fun...drinkin and benzos is really all ill do anymore...i miss weed, but i dont expect to touch it ever again...and idk, i drink occasionally because i think that a few beers with my friends is better than staying at home moping and feeling sorry for myself...at least this way i forget and go out and have a few laughs and feel normal...better for my sense of normalcy and self in the long run i think, though i am tryin to quit drinkin for at least a year.

I dont really have that. It only gets worse for me after i do drugs. My hppd has a tendency to decrease if given time, i just always relapse like a turd. Gettin drunk means pressure headaches, depression, moodiness and worse dp for a week oh and worse fatigue

Some people do experience that with DP, where you go into this mind maze and you cant really stop the thoughts, kinda like trippin, although it doesnt really happen to me. If youre gonna talk to your parents id recommend saying what i said which is that someone sold you laced weed (which really did happen to me.) It's a good excuse and youll be able to play it off a little better, hopefully spare em a little pain as well.

Hahah aw man im sorry to hear that, although i hate to say it's kinda nice to hear that im not goin through it alone. It's weird how we're all so different and have been brought up with such different ideas in our heads, yet the way we experience HPPD and deal with it are so similar.

When i explain it to my friends it's more like "youre freakin out over nothin, ive always seen static stop being such a pussy." I dont even bother trying to explain DPDR, i just say i feel numb, although i havent really talked to anyone about my symptoms for a while now, im past sympathy.

Im so glad to hear youre feelin better. It definitely must be weird to go from HPPD to basically normal in just a few days like you did. I cant honestly remember what normal feels like anymore, or what a wall without static is supposed to look like.

Yeah man dp is the worst for sure! be careful when you taper down!

Im afraid of goin into my old neighborhood and touching the walls or doors with my hands for fear that this kid i know who used to sell acid mightve touched em right before me...it's pretty OCD, but ive read cases of HPPDers gettin contact highs because our threshold is so low that it really freaks me out even though i realize how crazy it is

I know that a lot of people are born with things like visual snow and consider it to be normal. I cant speak for everyone else, but i saw my symptoms appear in a matter of seconds, id never seen trails, static, or afterimages while sober, i didnt even know such a thing as visual snow existed, so for me to be "normal" is to not see any of this shit.

really? thats weird, i love eating. Except i can't eat things with mushrooms, i always think what if they grew them wrong and they became trippy? hahah...and yeah it sucked it wasnt due to hppd though

yeah man, that shit is seriously crippling, i pretty much spent 6 months on a meal a day in bed

Any of you guys experience fatigue?

I developed DP after drinking caffeine.

I liked shrooms better honestly. I found acid to be a tad overrated, but i guess i never got a real good batch. I never saw trees turn into fractals, that sounds fuckin intense.

yeah, it's an anti seizure medicine, so definitely by a doctor, many shrinks won't prescribe it regardless of whether they believe you or not, and will send you to a neurologist

damn i cant believe how similar my shit is to all of yours...the mumbling and shit, definitely. I had an IQ of 151 (supposedly). I guess i still do. I was also soo fuckin laid back and witty, although it's kinda weird to admit that "out loud" without feeling like a douche. But yeah man, it's been tough.

It should be, make sure to exercise and lay off the booze and weed! I drank alot two days ago and have been feelin pretty shitty again, should be gone soon though

Oh yes, quite alot. It's more my DPDR than my HPPD though. My concentration and recall are pretty shot as well, but i manage. I know all the information's in there, it just doesnt come out when i need it to..i just read your introductory post...i also have a hard time speaking and formulating thoughts, it's pretty annoying, glad youre goin back to school, if I could do it, im sure that you can too...