Idk dude, i think if youre doubting you have it, then you probably dont. Crazy people dont know theyre crazy, the only way they do, is once theyre put on meds that help em realize that the govt isnt really after them or that Blake lively isnt telling them to kill the president or w.e...your thoughts are pretty coherent, ie not jumbled up, they follow a sort of narrative, they dont jump all over the place. Ive had doctors tell me it's early onset schizophrenia too, theyve tried to put me on antipsychotics, i know how much worse id be had i been on em.