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Never perm did anything to my symptoms and I drank for yrs in the past. During the hang over days though I would sometimes see little rainbows and shit if I had atleast 18. Hangovers are 3x's worse then before hppd. Takes me a whole day to get over one. I did try to kill myself quit a few times while drinking too much (and been in countless fights that sent others and me to ER.) because of klonopin and just getting depressed. That's why I don't own a gun. I love life but sometimes I get stupid.

I use to manage lots of vitamin stores . Everyday I would walk around and try taking vitamins and herbs to see if I could find anything that helped. Nothing did anything to drastic. Best I found to relax, trytophan, valerian root, surprisingly none of the tea helped. For sleep only melatonin can touch me at 6 to 9mg. that was (is) a big help though. For energy quite a few, but the best ones without bothering my hppd were a good B complex and the Green powder mixes (love those) the good one's were atleast $40.00 US though. I'm glad all that was free or I would of spend a good 10k. Probably expains why I quit lol, had to check it all out though. Nac did nothing so I'm on your topic just trying to save some of you some $ Of course one of you might react differently then me. My brained been wired hppd style for so long, nothing really changes even if i get high.

I don't mean to throw this Simenet off topic I know how big it could be Shalion, I lifted free weights for 3 hrs daily for 5 yrs. Also I used to play sports up to 8 hrs daily for most my life. My back, knees, two torn rotator cuffs, triple hernia surgery all this came from not stretching properly, plus wear and tear. I doubt how much muscle tension hppd causes helped. Anyways I'm on 400mg of tramadol a day and I'm taking clonidine to help the w/d's. I just got off percocet (down to just 5mg) and I want to get off tramadol but I work 7 days a week. I can't miss one day of work or I'll lose my dam job. Any thoughts. Sorry such a long post........ I get those headaches (they started prior to lifting but right after hppd) and the same thing with my back. Physical Therapy in the pool with no gravity works wonders. Therabands as well, set up a couple P.T. appointments and do all the stuff at your house. Sorry peeps wanting Simenet info. Once I get off tramadol I'll tell you how it works

I get that but just figured it for goose bumps. It's actually happening now after reading this strange post (no offense lol) wouldn't know what it was otherwise

Like he said, exercise made it so I didn't even need pills when I first got hppd. It helps everything just force yourself. Only so much pills will do, you need to take it in your own hands and be as productive as possible. I can't tell you how many fat Americans I see crying about depression but won't do anything about it. I don't even feel for them! Sadly one happens to be my own fucking Sister!

I believe this is basicall forcing yourself into uncomfortable situations until you stop feeling anxious. The best thing for me was just getting a job and before you know it you don't have time to be nervous. I remember when I used to be nervous around ppl, now I'm a total ppl person even with hppd.

just keep scheduling app w/ different nuero's, that's what i'm going to do. If they want to do testing I'll tell them to fuck off and go to the next. I always schedule my doc app. in bunches, so when one goes wrong I don't have to wait long. When you find one you like just cancel the other appointments so you don't get charged. Look up your insurance online, you'll find every type of doc in all your surrounding cities.

"Relaxed, awake and calmed down" That's great. If I get those results I'll be happier then you can imagine. Hope it keeps getting better!!

hope you respond better soon balance! If not, don't worry I've had a great life with just klonopin and working out

I didn't even think of doing that. My doc. gave me so much vicodin to take the last two weeks (around 50 mg. daily) I wasn't thinking clearly through wd's and I'm finally feeling a bit better . I'll do that same thing. Thanx again!!

Thanks guys for the help!! I"m not thinking to clearly right now but all the links I read were related to Parkinson disease. I need to bring the hppd criteria and something saying that Sinemet is under trials helping some ppl with hppd. Since I don't know this doc. yet, it would be so much easier showing him then trying to explain something I don't even understand. Maybe I'll just go on microsoft word and make my own Sinemet/hppd trial page and I'll sign experimental studies conducted by MD. 1998 lol.

That's too cool Shaolin. Even if this med. doesn't work for me, I'm so greatful for the ppl it has helped out. Nobody except rapist deserve going through this everlasting nightmare.

I'm surprised with this new simenet drug out, that everybody isn't just going for that med. Is there some reason everybodies not just jumping on the chance of possibly feeling normal???

After reading all the trials on Sinemet. I didn't realize it was so harsh on the liver and people were saying it's not yet meant to be used longterm. Just as a drug to find out what parts of the brain hppd is effecting. Have the trials gone on long enough that you now know this is a safe drug to use longterm???? I just read about all those clinical trials never knew it was Sinemet they were talking about I'm extremely confused. Can somebody explain to me if you are just getting regular liver check ups and why it's okay to take longterm now if it only last 2 hrs at a time? Thanx, hope you're all feeling good still....I've been having dreams about taking this medication for the last week freaking out I might feel normal again someday

Same here Mbellamy. I have an appointment with a Neurologist in 3 weeks. I have never seen him before and I need to bring the best sinemet information for hppd. Anything professional looking with strong evidence that you'd bring to a Doctor for Sinemet could you please post. I'm normally good at finding this sort of information, but all I'm seeing are individual post's not any criteria. Will somebody pls help me, I've suffered for almost 15yrs w/ hppd I need a fucking break from this hell. Thanx soooo much if any of you are able to find a good print out for me. I'll even send you money (Dead serious) I'll do anything at this point.

Thanks guys, I think I'll print out the most professional looking threads and bring it to a nuero or pychiatrist. ''What are your visual symptoms? Do you have any body symptoms? '' Everything you read about hppd I have it. I think having panic anxiety disorder prior to hppd has made anxiety even worse therefore all the symptoms as well. I don't care about the visuals at this point, I just want my old personality back. Even w/ Simenet if it did work, I would have to get all the way off klonopin first and find out where I'm at. I read the other day on a Simenet thread that after 5 yrs of use it usually stops working for parkisons and nobody knows why. Since ppl here are using it for hppd hopefully that wont happen. Thanx for your responses. Shaolin, I also take 300-400mg of tramadol daily for headaches and body pain. If I wasn't working such a physically demading job I would settle w/ only soma, but tramadol gives me energy and makes me feel good. Be careful about trying to get fucked up on it, I have in the past and you can get some kind of seratonin syndrome. 400mg is the max a day, I'm sure you know all this but just in case. Later all!

Findacure, I'm not sure what's been said above, but forcing yourself to exercise and leading a productive life is the key to living w/ hppd. At first you never think you'll be able to work ect....but once you keep forcing yourself outside your comfort zone eventually you'll get used to it and before you know it hppd won't be holding you back anymore. Anxiety is my worse symptom by far. Without klonopin in the beginning I don't know what I would of done. But now that I've been stuck on it for 13yrs. I'll have to go through hell when it's time to come off. (It's a very serious w/d just always keep in mind) Melatonin helps me sleep and doesn't have any bad side effects, you can get it at any grocery store just give him 3mg if hes not sleeping from anxiety. Again I didn't read anything but your post above. Sorry you have to watch your son go through this. It's possible to live a somewhat normal life once you get used to it, I'm married, own a house, cars, have a job ect....you just have to have alot of will power and force yourself to live. Keep your son on the lowest possible mg. of klonopin that works for him. The Doctors hand it out like nothing, not knowing or caring that 1 mg. is equal to 20mg of valium. Take care!

I won't be able to get this Sinemet threw my regular doctor. What kind of doc do I need to see. Plus this is an off label use for the med. I need some reliable information to hand a doctor before they hand this med out. Also is it Expensive$$$$?????? (I have United Healthcare) Thank's in advance to anybody willing to answer. Work is beating the shit out of me time for bed....

I'm getting on this med asap. I can't believe how much it's helped Merkan and others are feeling the same effects. I feel like screaming for joy......I hope this med just does half of what it's done for you guys. I'll be able to actually live again, I'm flipping out right now but so scared it might not work for me...congrats.....pls keep me updated daily for everybodies sake. This is the biggest breakthrough drug I've read about so far in treating hppd. Wow GOD help me pls

I had a similiar experience a few years back 415_. I was extremely depressed from hppd and was drinking alot of alcohol with my klonopin, and taking soma plus vicodin to try to numb the pain. One night I was so sad about my Mom dying a few yrs back and was drinking heavy with extreme dp/dr kicking in. I grabbed an old picture of my Mom and me and just swallowed a bottle of klonopin and sleeping pills. My Wife noticed right away and they flushed everything out at the ER. I was then put into a psych ward for close to a month where I never mentioned hppd because of fear they might throw coctails of pills at me. They treated me for bipolar II and panic anxiety disorder. They gave me 4mg. of klonopin daily along with depakote. (I only take 3.25 mg of klono daily still alot) The first month on depakote was hell but after a while I noticed I didn't feel like kicking the shit out of anybody that looked at me wrong and was able to function over all better which was great. I blamed hppd for everything wrong in life, but sometimes we don't realize there's other problems that could be treated that aren't related to hppd. I hope they pay for your meds the rest of your life as they're doing for me as long as I make all scheduled appointments. I really feel your pain, mentally and physically. I also have ruptured disks that make it hard to walk sometimes. The most important thing that got me back on my feet was getting a job and doing physical therapy on my back and excersising as much as possible. If you can't find work try to do hobbies. Camping, fishing, ect.... Feel better man, we only live once don't end it, longterm solution to a shorterm problem. keep your head up later

Merkan I have the same question, do you feel like your not tripping on acid anymore, prehppd. Like you can actually think straight, if so this is the best news I've heard on anyboard since I've had hppd. I really hope to live to the day where I can just feel somewhat normal again, show my wife what I'm really like without having to use benzo's and opiates

that's too awesome. I'd be in a mental hospital....So wierd how some ppl can get off klono without seizures. Way cool gives me hope as well :D :D :D :D

jay pls post how you're feeling again soon. I'm sick of klonopin ruling my life

I'm not trying to scare you, but I've talked to alot of ppl that got set back in their w/d schedule by doing 1 mg. drops. Some can handle it and it looks like you're one of them. But if anything gets too crazy I wouldn't risk it. Make sure you have somebody around just incase of seizures. If I was you I'd get 20 vicodin or percocet to help through what has to be hell. Later man.

that's cool you feel more clear headed, but I need meds that work for anxiety- klonopin is my insulin, but wish I could get by w/o it!!