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I feel your pain!!!!!!!! Opiates somehow make me feel almost completely normal. But they have messed up my life even when used properly because of tolerance. Before I started doing labor work and strength training ( love the endorphins) I was going to go on a small dose of methadone as well. The only problem is I've seen what it does to ppl in the long run and how they have to keep upping their dose. If you didn't have to up it I would take it. Not only because of hppd, but my fibromyalgia and the pinched nerves in my spine. I want to say no don't take it, but if you are completely miserable and have tried everything possible to make you happy (girls, travel, working out, sports, hobbies, working) just try the smallest dose and don't go up for as long as possible even though you'll want to. I watched a Doc. recently called Methadonia (2005 HBO documentary, watch it on Youtube or Netflix for a great perspective). It was all about Methadone addicts and it talked alot about them looking for benzo's cause it give's you a false heroin feeling as a combo with M/done. I say this cause I believe your on klono, that also might make it harder to get meth prescribed Idk. Man I know how you feel but going on done is the absolute last resort just like benzo's. Fun fact in that movie it said 60% of methadone addicts had a harder time getting off benzo's (fucking great i've been on them forever) Dam you can tell I've thought lot's about this as well. That one time we did those drugs fuckkkk, feel better man. PS Jay Balotelli is unreal, can't wait till Sunday drunk football day:) Also Jay? Not trying to be a smart ass at all but don't you have to have a good amount of money to travel? I love my wife but if I could just travel the world I would get a different flavored girl in every country lol

''Would it be ok to use it like that and not everyday? '' It would be ok. But the relief klonopin will bring, makes it extremely difficult not to eventually take it everyday. You'll feel great for a while from klono, but eventually everybody hits tolerance and welcome to hell. Only you know if you're mentally strong enough to only take it once or twice a week. GL!!

You can smoke weed, drink alcohol, take pills occasionally isn't that enough. I remember when I only had the visuals with nothing more, It didn't bother me at all. Now I'd cut my arm off, go to jail for some time, many crazy things to not feel like I'm on a horrible hit of acid for the rest of my life. Hope you make the right choices and don't fuck with your brain

First 2 yrs I turned into a recluse and just wanted to die. So my Dad forced me to travel S.E. Asia w/ him and even though I was nervous at first, but I began to enjoy life again. Playing tennis, girls, scuba and working out plus the beauty of the world was life changing. By yr. 3 I started to feel much better. I'm still doing well, married ect..it's not even hppd ruling my life anymore. Just the f///ing klonopin. Only take that drug if you're seriously suicidal. gL all!!

''if my doctor doesn't believe in Hppd then how do you get them to prescribe Keppra? Did you lie about headaches? '' That's how I always go about getting my meds. I just say I'm suffering from whatever the meds are targeted to helping w. Just easier then trying to explain hppd, for me atleast.

good ? I'm so sensitive to lights, driving home from work at night w/ all the headlights blinding me not fun

I heard my neck crack while on shrooms, and then I light show of colors arrived. I knew something was wrong, the next month my muscles were spasming constantly and I had every symptom full blown. Wish I had this board to check out while that was happening cause doc's were more confused then i was. Just a bad memory It does bother me when hypochondriacs think they have hppd, but I still feel for them!

have to act like hppd doesn't exist, or they might take off running lol, sad but true

Funny post, Many times I've been with sexy girls and just watching them undress, dp/dr/anxiety kicks in and I start thinking to myself, does this hot ass girl know how insane I feel right now and is this really happening

"Do the other meds you're taking besides the k'pins make your hppd worse, or can you not tell because the K'pins block out their side effects? " Good ? I often think of this here's a little breakdown Tramadol- helps alot because it's binds to the opiate receptors. It makes me energetic, takes pain away, plus wipe's out headpressure ect...It does increase visuals but the euphoria makes me not care. Zanaflex- (italic won't stop:) helps a great deal w/ headpressure and that feeling of tightness in my muscles from hppd (my favorite med to combat hppd) Depakote- makes me tired and kills motivation but helps alot w/ bipolar, I force myself to exercise everyday to counter this drugs side effects, does increase visuals alot but helps anxiety so it's a wash. Nuerontin- I'm not sure if it makes hppd worse cause the kpins and the other meds that help my hppd. The fact your bipolar and this keppra has helped you so much makes me really want to give it a go. BTW you look identical to my good friend Hillary crazy but a good thing lol.. Time to enjoy the outdoors, My Wifey and I are going to are families house to go swimming, bbq and have a few beers. Time to chill and forget about hppd Take care everybody, I appreciate your concern you're a nice person

Ya I've def thought about it. The main problem is I'm bipolar and worried about keppra rage. Plus I take so many meds already I really don't want to try anything else till I get off of most. Tramadol, nuerontin and zanaflex for sports injuries, depakote for bipolar and a high dose of klono for hppd. I just don't feel comfortable adding anything else. No doctors have a clue I have hppd, I tell them my probs are anxiety related. (Hate the way they react when I mention hppd) So I really don't think any doc would prescribe keppra anyways. That's great your friends and family get the old you back, Happy Friday!!

ya def, always good to get your mind off hppd!

"Aww naa man thats not me sorry, thats my hero. Im not as good as thatyet. I have some videos but nothing as crazy as that! " You were about to be my new hppd hero j/k (DK.) put a few videos up if you have time take care!

I belive that's you riding bmx, that's just fucking bad ass. I feel high just watching that, unbelievable and I'm hard to impress. You look happy as hell on your bike hppd has nothing on you!

That's too awesome! I really hope it continues to work, there's nothing I wouldn't give for these improvements. I still do pretty good, but I really wish I could show my wife who I really am. GL!

Since it's getting slowly better stay away, these are a last resort pill. I've seen survey's that methadone is easier for 60% of ppl to get off then benzo's. 3 or 4 day period is the most common time for the wd's to hit due to the half life. It's hard for me to believe klono has effected you this long only taking them for 3 weeks, but you have no reason to lie, sucks man....alcohol hit's the same receptor and prolongs wd's btw, I tried to drink myself outta wd's to. Just a waste of money and a couple DUI's take care!

good post

No, especially when you see how bad you could potentially suffer, stupid question

Alc. itself won't bite you in the ass. The decisions you make while drinking can, especially if you're blacking out! Make sure you stay away from driving obviously. Addiction will screw your life up, so after school (even now) careful w/ that, Live it up, I miss those college parties!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My main side effects are loss of memory and depression. For memory I have to write important info down, depression I exercise alot, plus keep busy odysseus (awesome you got off btw), many get terrible shakes when cutting down, it feels aweful...Take care!

Shaolin, how did you get suboxone prescribed?? Does it cost alot of money or does your insurance cover it, I really want to give it a go.

Good job Oliver, I hope someday I can say the same with klonopin. I thought the first yr. of hppd would be the hardest battle of my life. Getting off klono after a decade is far harder!

Most know opiates and benzos can help alot in the short term, but eventually you run into problems far worse then you started with. PPL including myself, need to make sure to explain this to newbies so they don't get hooked on these highly addictive drugs thinking it s the only way they can live w/ hppd.

Physically yes, mentally no. Believe me those provide alot of relief from hppd (codeine is very weak) you won't care about the visuals. In the back of your mind it's hard to forget about it. (I'm talking about stronger opiates, suboxone is extremely potent but meant for wd's) Visual is def right, they are so dam addicting, and your body becomes tolerant to them so fast. Maybe give it a try, if you feel you might become addicted just drop them.

I'm not sure then. You want something stronger then codeine but weaker then morphine. I'd just talk with your doctor, You might even have to go to pain clinics out their for stronger opiates idk.... Just stay away from methadone! I've honestly heard suboxone is hard as hell to get off as well. One thing I have found out is Neurontin has eased my opiate wd's by atleast 75%, it even takes the edge off klonopin wd's a bit surprisingly. Maybe one day I'll do 2mg of klono 10 days, vicodin 5 days, then Nuerontin 5 days and live happily ever after Time for work take care man!!