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Update 7/16/15 : last day of being in Hawaii. Still seeing visual snow or static if I look at blank surfaces and in the dark and I see halos around phone in the dark but the visuals are not all in my face this time. They are still intense but I am working on ignoring them. Sitting in our resort room and lethargic as fuck. Can't really think.
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Update 7/15/15 : yesterday was sorta hell but I feel great today. Visuals as usual but I try not to look at walls or blank surfaces and I keep my phone on low brightness in the dark. Low brightness doesnt get rid of halos completely but it helps. I no longer have the desire to smoke which is great. Appetite is still low ever since the magnesium pills though but I don't care about that
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On Fourth of July, I made a dumbass decision to swallow 16 allergy pills(400mg of diphenhydramine). Actually I'll tell the full truth here. I did that same dose of diphenhydramine 3 nights in a row ! Visuals ten times worse than before. Derealization intensified. A few days before I left, I got magnesium glycinate pills from a friend. I took a couple and shit ! Fucked me up for two days straight. Static visuals got better but halos were the same. I walked out of my house at 11:30 at night and walked all the way to this area where my friend dumped the allergy pills. I hallucinated for like an hour on the way there. I remember walking with an old friend from elementary school having a full on conversation with him and he disappeared ! this was the 2nd time I full on hallucinated without any drugs ! When I got to the location, I was walking around with a knife cuz I was scared as shit, I ended up not getting the allergy pills. My mom was pissed. She had been treating me like the black sheep of the family ever since learning about my past drug use. And when my dad found out about me walking out at night, he believed I was on drugs, which I wasn't. The magnesium helped the static visuals but halos looked the same. Made me feel nothing but sadness and anger. I even broke down crying for like 3 minutes. I have had almost no appetite and had to force myself to eat. I felt better the day I left for Hawaii, but still had small episodes here and there. Today, I still have very low appetite and food tastes a lot different. The 6 hour plane ride was the worst. One second I was normal and then I would start feeling nauseous and the brain fog was the worst it had ever been in a while. I could barely even talk. After landing in Hawaii, I just tried to enjoy Hawaii as much as I could. i woke up at 5am the first morning and THE FUCKING VISUALS WERE SUPER INTENSE ! I usually keep phone on very low brightness to avoid halos but this time, I still saw bad halos even with the phone on its lowest brightness setting. After that, we got up started exploring and almost never thought about HPPD for the next 4 days. But now it is the night of day 5 of my vacation and all day, I have been feeling bad brainfog, still very low appetite and weird sense of taste that I have had since taking the Magnesium. In the car, the interior is black so I had to deal with visuals during car rides. Super strange visuals underwater, Visuals that I never seen before and hard to describe. Just sitting here typing this and going back making sure my brainfog isn't affecting the way I am typing. I been in Hawaii for 5 days now and can hardly remember anything clearly. I just remember everything the same I way I remember dreams which I am used to since almost all of my memories are like this. I am feeling very slight sadness as I am typing this but I am glad the (possible) depersonalization is keeping me from getting very sad. I told my friend to keep the HPPD discussion to a minimum cuz I don't want to get stressed out and I don't want him to get stressed out either. Memories from today are coming back so I might be going out of order now. Had a panic attack this morning when I woke up. Been having a hard time thinking all day. I started pacing around the hotel room just like I do at home. I hope the rest of this vacation doesn't turn out to be like it has been today. I have been keeping it all inside all day and finally decided to write this. I still have had minor episodes of anxiety during this vacation but I am always a ball of nerves. Anyone else go on vacation with HPPD ? What is it like for you ? Any different than vacations before you got HPPD ?
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Stress and that feeling where you feel like you are going insane, I have the same thing and it sucks. Do you have depersonalization or derealization ?
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Snow Vision and strange symptoms
TheGman6072 replied to Fake's topic in Symptoms: Descriptions, Discussion, Debate
This usually happens from hallucinogens. Have you taken LSD, diphenhydramine, shrooms ? -
Ok well I hope it isn't related to the pill
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If this is making your depersonalization worse and making your head pressure worse, why did you give me those pills ?
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So I have had HPPD for just over a year now and on the 4th of July, I took 400mg of diphenhydramine. Now for the past 2 days after the diph trip, I have been feeling like I am in a dream and it seems like nothing around me is real. I dont feel any emotions and I have been feeling this for 2 days. I can't feel angry or happy about anything.
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Learning new things
TheGman6072 replied to TheGman6072's topic in Symptoms: Descriptions, Discussion, Debate
Usually when I read about HPPD, I get panic attacks. I have high anxiety -
Learning new things
TheGman6072 replied to TheGman6072's topic in Symptoms: Descriptions, Discussion, Debate
Ok the picture isn't showing up. This is what I have -after images - I look at an object for a long period of time and look away and I still see it -difficulty reading - texts sway back and forth -flashes of yellow on white surfaces -halos around bright objects such as signs, my phone, etc. -objects appear to sway back and forth -size distortions -static -brain fog - have difficulty processing texts, instructions. When teachers would go over instructions, I would have to ask them to go over it again and would still not get what they are saying -
So I went online and did more research on HPPD and found this list of symptoms. I put a red dot next to the symptoms that I have. I had no idea the size distortions were part of HPPD. The one symptom that I have that was not on this list is the brain fog and I also have visual distortions where it looks like the air is moving
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So my friend would tell me to slow down on drinking coke or Pepsi cuz caffeine makes HPPD worse or slows down the recovery. Is this true ? I often drink like 5 cans in less than 2 hours and it doesn't seem to affect it that much. Just makes the anxiety worse but that's it
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Symptoms Worsened and Something New
TheGman6072 replied to TheGman6072's topic in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
I have had HPPD for a year now. Caused by LSD and shrooms but it just got worse after doing the diphenhydramine -
Symptoms Worsened and Something New
TheGman6072 replied to TheGman6072's topic in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
Is visual snow the same thing as the static ' -
•My usual symptoms : - movement in peripheral vision which has gotten a lot worse - static : got a slightly worse -halos around bright objects such as phones, lights, signs, etc. and it was a lot worse than normal when I turned on my phone this morning - brain fog(hard time processing texts or people talking to me, one time wandered into the middle of the street) •New Symptoms - I wake up this morning after getting 12.5 hours of sleep thanks to the diphenhydramine. And everything around me feels like it is not real or it's a dream and I don't feel happy, angry or sad. My brain is just like "eh whatever". I am suspecting derealization or possible depersonalization - visuals are Worse than usual as I mentioned above. But now it looks like the walls are breathing ! WHAT CAUSED IT : So yesterday, people were setting off fireworks and I was freaking out so I thought the only way to calm myself down was to get high. So I swallowed 13 allergy pills (diphenhydramine) which means I did about 325mg. the memory is very faint but all I remember was I was slipping in and out of consciousness like usual (5th time doing diphenhydramine) and I was seeing little fish swimming in the air around me.
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Whats so bad about HPPD anyway........
TheGman6072 replied to LethargicAcid's topic in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
It's cuz of this crap that we see the true evil of drugs. It sometimes gets to the point to where we feel like committing suicide. -
It was a mistake telling my dad cuz I used to do psychedelics and he believed I was only smoking weed but then when I told him about the HPPD, he was like "if you have that, then you weren't only doing weed. You must have been doing shrooms or something" and then I started panicking and I have not mentioned it since. My mom would think I am going schizophrenic or have brain damage
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Whats so bad about HPPD anyway........
TheGman6072 replied to LethargicAcid's topic in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
I have had this for a year ! I get panic attacks almost constantly, the visuals are very annoying especially at night or in dark rooms and I have to put my phone on very low brightness to avoid the halos. I have brain fog to the point where I was once wandering into the middle of the damn street ! I do nothing except pace around my house constantly, I went 2 nights without sleep and I feel like I am going insane ! Just reading or writing about HPPD gives me panic attacks and I am starting to have one as I am typing. I think you posted this to intentionally piss people off ???? -
Whats so bad about HPPD anyway........
TheGman6072 replied to LethargicAcid's topic in MAIN AND GENERAL FORUM
Not that bad ? Maybe for you but a lot of us have it pretty bad. Try doing LSD and shrooms on almost a daily basis, swallow 13 allergy pills and then tell us How you feel. -
HPPD, anxiety and a lasting feeling of intoxication
TheGman6072 replied to StateOfRegret's topic in Introductions
StateOfRegret, i read your first post. most of these posts say they developed HPPD after a few trips but like you, i was doing hallucinogens frequently. i was doing LSD (2 hits) and shrooms pretty frequently for almost 5 months (January to June 2014) and then a couple other times in November 2014. i noticed the visuals and the brain fog and had frequent panic attacks and i still have panic attacks like almost constantly. wasnt until this passed March when my friend, Mr.50's, asked me a few questions when i was suffering from a diphenhydramine hangover and then he told me that i have HPPD and everything i told him matches the symptoms of HPPd. i heard a good way to recover is to keep HPPD out of your mind.- 27 replies
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