TheGman6072

Well I'm in the same area where I was yesterday cuz being outdoors feels better than being trapped in my house. These sheep hills make it very tempting to do BMX stunts but I don't want to make my neck more fucked up than it already is. Went on an insane bike ride and my derealization seems worse but who cares. Feels nice and relaxing but I have to not look at the sky or I will start seeing static

has anyone else experienced these types of dreams and believed they actually happened ?

It seems to have made my visuals worse but man bike riding was awesome. The wetlands had these big ass hills and I was riding down them and it was fucking awesome. There were also dirt mounds made for jumping on bikes but I have a fucked up neck so I didn't want to risk it

So I had a fucking dream last night that I was in the Huntington Beach wetlands burying a box full of weed. I just went all day believing that it actually happened. I decided to go for a bike ride and oh my god I have not ridden my bike in about a month and it was very hard probably due to the fact that I had recently stopped eating, lost some weight and I also lost some muscle in my legs, chest and arms and now I feel like I'm floating. The wetlands looked nothing like it did in the dream. I rode around there twice trying to figure out where I had buried the box. A kid from my school rides by me and starts talking to me. After that, I went all the way down to the area by the water to keep looking and then I realized that there was no fucking box and that it was actually a very realistic dream. I got home and I'm just freaking out. Not in a panic kind of way but more like a "what the fuck ?" Kinda way. Anyone else ever experienced this kind of thing ?

Fuck ! I looked it up and it's called ghosting.

i would often feel only slight sadness, anger or sometimes no emotions at all but now I can't feel emotions PERIOD. I have been told that's what depersonalization is. I always feel like my thoughts are not mine and are coming from an outside source. Is that really depersonalization ? I know I have derealization and it sucks.

How much of this does it take to make this go away ? With dp, I went from feeling only slight sadness, anger but now I don't feel anything at all.

But yeah mood problems are the worst part of hppd. Most of my anxiety has gone but the dp and dr are still there

The visuals only make me freak out when I first notice them but I get used to them. I see colors at night but I either enjoy it or I ignore it even though it's like right in my face. Like today I just noticed that one object would suddenly separate into two of the same object and they were moving farther and farther apart. I freaked out cuz now I can't stare at objects. I have to keep moving my eyes around cuz if I look too long, that shit starts. I think it's called "ghosting"

What is that symptom where I see two of one object called ? Is there a name for it ?

Well the feeling is gone but I am still seeing two of everything I look at. What is that ?

I have been up for almost an hour now and fuck I feel weird. I had a hard time recognizing my room when I woke up. First thing I noticed when I woke up was that I was seeing two of everything I looked at. Every object I look at, a second one appears and then they both start moving farther and farther apart from each other. This is actually making it hard to use my phone cuz I would just see a clone of it start to come out of it and move farther and farther away. When I got up, it is very hard to walk. I am actually close to collapsing and I have been stumbling and I fell to my knees at one point. I am walking around my house because sitting down actually makes me feel very uncomfortable because I feel like I'm sinking into the couch and then my head will start dropping down. Has anyone else ever experienced these ?

You probably shouldn't. I have been seeing a lot of people saying that medications are making their HPPD worse. I'm trying to recover drug free and hopefully I don't get desperate to the point where I do take meds

These drugs making people worse in different ways is why I wouldn't ever trust medications unless I got desperate

Update : head pressure seems worse. I thought these headaches were gone permanently since I went several months without bad headaches

I last smoked weed in April but smoking weed is nothing compared to edibles which I usually did instead of smoking it and my HPPD wasn't that bad back then but after my HPPD getting worse in July, I probably would have a panic attack if I smoked weed again.

Your sleep paralysis story sounds similar to that one time when I was laying in bed and I saw one of my friends except there were 3 of him looking over me while I was just laying there not moving. It was weird

so for the past few or four days, can't really remember, my anxiety has seemed to go away almost completely ???????? The visuals, brain fog and derealization are all the same. About the depersonalization : so before it was nothing but sadness, anger and sometimes no emotions at all. Well now it's been like 4 days and I'm feeling no emotions. I personally think this is better than feeling angry or sad all the time but I can't feel happiness either ????. But I hope this means I am recovering

Stay sober and NEVER do drugs again. If you got it from smoking pot, probably should stay away from drugs completely

School will probably bring back the stress. Especially with brain fog

I have had HPPD for a year now but it got worse in early July after taking 400mg of diphenhydramine and repeating the dose 3 nights in a row. the one you were talking about where everything is unrealistic. Sounds like derealization. Also, do you ever have trouble feeling emotions ?

Do the headaches make you feel like your eyes are being squeezed ? I used to have that all the time but stopped about 7 months ago and it just recently came back

You gotta try to ignore the visuals. For me, it's not the visuals that drive me crazy. I have depersonalization and derealization and the world around me looks fake and I feel like I'm in a dream

I can still take diphenhydramine without feeling horrible but it's the only drug I can currently get my hands on but it makes HPPD worse. But it really sedates me

I haven't had weed since April but that last time on weed was different than all the other highs