TheGman6072

I usually sit in the house, use my phone a lot, sometimes ride my bike around, and I often pace around the house cuz of anxiety

Jesus Christ I am not even feeling much anxiety but every time I hear a sound, my heart jumps ! It's like when you are half asleep and feel like you're falling but 10 times worse and I'm wide awake ! I also noticed my fucking chest is caved in !

Objects having a glow around them = halos. I see halos around bright objects such as phones, TVs, lights, signs(at night) and I even see slight halos around non-bright objects but I have to look hard to see halos around people or other objects

What has lions mane been doing for you ? What good and what bad ?

Ok fuck it. This was something I was NEVER going to tell anyone not even on here but I have taken PCP 4 times and those trips were traumatizing. I try to keep those memories out of my head but sometimes they come back and I still can't get over it

I'm constantly stressed and having panic attacks constantly now and I don't think I will ever be able to trust medications again after those pills that my friend gave me. Have not felt the same since

I noticed that I have not been having any dream lately. Is this related to HPPD ?

b same !

Did you recently take any drugs that could have possibly brought this back ?

Anyone else with dp use social fakes so your family doesn't suspect anything wrong with you ?

I try to think positive but it's difficult. I often use social fakes to hide it

I don't know which trip it was lol since I was doing LSD a lot and sometimes shrooms from January 2014 to June 2014 but I noticed the visuals and inability to think or process things right after my last trip of that school year

And how bad did you have it ?

Well this gave me a little bit of confidence back. How long did you have it ?

I have had HPPD for over a year now but I had not heard of HPPD until this passed May but I noticed the visuals and the difficulty thinking and processing for just over a year and I knew I damaged my brain somehow but now that I found out what HPPD was, I now no longer think "what's wrong with me ?" but I know that LSD caused my HPPD and I'm currently sober and hope not to take LSD or shrooms again but the problem is I lack self control and I don't know what would happen if I get access to LSD again

Anyone else in this Facebook group ? https://m.facebook.com/groups/205125116272670?ref=bookmarks

I feel like I'm going insane all the time

I had like 2 uncomfortable trips on LSD so I guess those are considered bad trips. Post a link to the video if you post it. What is your YouTube channel called ? Link ?

Coffee is gross lol

I don't know if posting about every HPPD experience I am experiencing is bad for my HPPD but it seems to be getting worse or new symptoms show up, I been back from Hawaii for a few days now and since then, I have been seeing colors at night, been feeling nothing but anger and severe depression, lethargic, bad chest pains, panic attacks and severe brain fog. This could be due to me taking 400mg+ of diphenhydramine 3 nights in a row on 4th of July and the nights following but this just recently got very bad.

anyone else experience this ?

why not go med free ? some of these meds can be addicting and if they help the visuals but make you feel worse, then its not worth it.

Just got back from Hawaii yesterday and when laying in bed last night, I saw blobs and patterns of blue and green moving around. I have had HPPD for a year now and this was completely new. They were not floaters cuz they move differently than floaters. I was in the dark and I was having a panic attack cuz this was freaking me out. This was just weird. This is much worse than those flashes of yellow I see on white surfaces. Then this morning, my static and halos were much worse than usual so I got out of my room as fast as I could

7/16/15, 9:10 pm : well last day of Hawaii vacation and the derealization just pisses me off. Every memory of everything I did on this vacation is like a faded memory of a dream. I hate this feeling where I feel like I'm in a dream. Just gotta accept this as the "new normal"

I have had derealization for I don't remember how long. It sucks when I do fun things but it doesn't feel real and the memory was like a dream. I was just swimming with dolphins in Hawaii earlier today and i feel like I dreamed it. All of my memories are like this. Been in Hawaii for a week now and it all feels like a dream. I have also been suspecting that I have depersonalization after having 3 diphenhydramine trips 3 nights in a row starting on the 4th of July. Ever since the day after the 3rd trip, I been feeling little to no emotion except for 2 days after taking magnesium pills where I felt a new kind of depression that I never felt before but I can hardly feel anything but anger or slight sadness now. I have felt isolated from everyone since I started doing drugs a year and a half ago and I don't feel any kind of affection for my own family but I don't think that is part of depersonalization. I don't feel very exited about certain things the way I used to and I find it very hard to have empathy but I find it easier and easier to open up on this site