trip into hell

or maybe both...dont know but all that sounds a little wierd..

nowadays i can smoke weed everyday again but in low doses...i ask myself if im addicted to weed again after one month of dayly smoking since i dont want an addiction at the top of my dpd..cold turkey makes it worse im sure

listen to yourself (your inner voice) and if it says no..dont do it...if it says ok smoke a very small amount with no tobacco or you might risk getting a panic attack or extreme anxiety...just my experience when i started smoking weed again..start small and if you dont like it dont do it again for a while..to come back to it one day

all too often the visuals drove me crazy since they were pretty intense and 24/7, they made me feel so weird, dizzy, suicidal and anxiuos ...i thought i seriously damaged my brain or something...thanks im also glad that i managed to get back to normal vision again n try my best to overcome dpd..wishing all the best to every sufferer out there..

...i have read all the posts here and im experiencing sensitivity to drugs myself...but commercial drugs have always been worse for me than natural...i had to deal with extreme sensitivity for a long time (4 month) and after these four month i had no more hppd but still dpd that means im still highly sensitive...now 6 month after my onset im taking a wide variety of natural drugs in low doses and even smoke weed again..when i was at my worst i thought i would never do any substance in my life again..but im back..

never heard about this phenomenon..but sounds like strong depersonalization + ???

it was pretty annoying, debilitating and colorous and everything was morphing and melting, i had extreme afterimages and when i was focusing at something...it started to change colour from one to another + opjects and sometimes the whole environment started to to move towards or away from me or even shrinking or growing..i had the wierdest dreams due to my closed eye visuals...it was horrable and now looking back to that tough period of time feels somehow like it was just a dream..but i swear at my worst i thought i would kill myself one day cause i thought i would stay this way forever..and i still have dpd now...after my onset i first thought it was only one illness causing all of my symptoms...but as hppd faded and i listed my remaining symptoms for my psychologist she told me that its clear that i still have dpd now + looking up the residual symptoms myself i found out they are well known for being dpd. somehow im happy to be free of hppd but still having slight dpd is also not funny for me.

i dont take benzos and also have slight ghost images its a typical symptom of dpd (dpd => anxiety disorder => permanent anxiety => adrenaline => enlarged pupils => seeing doubles, visual snow or tunnel vision etc)

ah ok...but i know many people toking who arent lazy...pot has many strains with different effects + everyone reacts different to pot in general and even different strains..its a drug with a wide range of different reactions for many people..remember how many cannabinoids there are and every single one has specific effects. i bet there are strains which release dopamin.

i wouldnt recommend SSRIs since i also have dpd and they make most dpd people sick..me including

man you completely missunderstood what i was saying..of course there is no specific intensity in the dsm...but im not coming up like a doc for someone if i tell one he/she doesnt have hppd when he/she doesnt have any of these in the dsm occuring symptoms...since the symptoms he mentioned are derealization, tinitus, visual snow and flashbacks and are not mentioned in the dsm and even more typical for dpd (depersonalzation disorder (an anxiety disorder)) then for anything else... how could this person have hppd if he has no of the dsm symptoms but all typical symptoms of dpd? by the way i have the same symptoms left after my hppd is over instead of the flashbacks but i had some in my acute phase...and my psychologist and all other evidence says i have dpd and i told her about all my remaining symptoms...so i had both hppd and dpd as comorbid disorders and now since my hppd is over i have dpd left..well if i cant tell the difference between these two disturbances i dont know who could. and what i said is not even dangerous...cause whether one has hppd, dpd or even both disturbances..this person has to take care about the same things...i mean: i shouldnt take almost any drug with hppd just as with dpd... its just not enjoyable to extremely debilitating experience...so why should one do so...i didnt ever recommend. .. i didnt/wouldt try to send someone to hell..its not my intention ..you should know it..

doesnt smoking pot increase dopamine, serotonin and even gaba levels? and whats adhd?

youre crazy im a little afraid of the dizzyness cause i always think that i can feel the world spinning and losing controll..since i fear that sansation i think i can now imagine what an epileptic is going through. today i smoked a cig with a small amount of weed mixed in out in nature and drank a glass of 20% alcohol before..when i was at home...after i smoked the cig i felt dizzy all day but it stopped being intense already a few minutes after smoking.. i cant understand how this feels great but if you like it its maybe just my anxiety after all dp/dr is an anxiety disorder and before my onset i never had problems smoking tobacco and even enjoyed it..now it might trigger anxiety for me cause my worst fear is to experience endless dizzyness and helplessness or seizures (even though i never had seizures) fuck i have to face that fear and defeat it!!

man its no offense at all but how can you say its nonsense? i dont guess and what i say is not dangerous for anyone...remember what i said..''hppd symptoms are only visual but also intense and psychedelic'' and all the symptoms you listed are visual, psychedelic (thats why hppd is also called ''the never ending trip'.. even though its a bad one)..so where is the nonsense in my post?

if school is too much for you just dont go there and leave it at that..just live your life its meant to be enjoyed..not to freak you out...so forget about disturbing things like school, work and shit..we are no slaves of the fucking system

no problem..im always glad to help someone out... yeah these two meds are always good to have on hand..and there is still something you should know..if you take lavender it might be that it wont work the first few nights you take it but dont give it up, cause for some people it takes time to affect their sleep patterns...for me it took 3 nights...get some ''lasea'' (lavender oil caps) and take one every night half an hour before sleep..i found out it works best this way. maybe you could also get a lavender extract, tea or even pure lavender oil...but i would buy the caps cause they are already dosed with lavender oil.

man you smoke cigs...i still cant smoke tobacco i get dizzy if i do...

man seriously take some valerian or lavender its natural and non addictive...i had that propblem too and these two did wonders for me but lavender is better for sleep..valerian is better against anxiety...when i was at my worst i took lavender and had 7-9 hours of sleep instead of just 3-5 hours..

its quite easy cause in this case he only describes very common dpd symptoms..no hppd symptoms..hppd symptoms are only visual but also intense and psychedelic..just look up dpd and you'll find the similarity to what he describes here if it occurs that someone has permanent psychedelic visuals + visual snow, dp/dr, tinitus, etc..this one has both hppd and dpd...why is that so hard to imagine for most people..since these disturbances are well known to be often co morbid and you can trust me i had hppd and dpd and now have only dpd and the psychedelic visuals are gone...so i know the difference

no the doctor cant do anything i visited one and he had no clue what was wrong with me..people with dp/dr have to deal with this symptom all too often and it has nothing to do with that cause when you close one eye you still see two of everything (ghost images) so its something psychological...its a sign of a brain exhausted by anxiety...since dpd is an anxiety disorder the brain is always in anxiety mode..that means always adrenaline => enlarged pupils => static, ghost images and other wierd symptoms.

this dp/dr condition is crazy its like being forced to do something and not leave yourself hanging otherwise you feel shitty..but if you do..you will be rewarded with trippy feelings of the good sort

heroin/opium... well its like being stimulated and sedated at the same time which is just as enjoyable as paradox

i feel like that everytime im on long walks...its a magic feeling telling me that even though im in a very special situation..everythingis going to be allright and its a bit like im on a weak but nice acid trip or so...other times i feel like on heroin or opium. ..im just loving it!

dont obsess about the shitty things you see or feel when you do something nice as being in nature..just enjoy...

that sounds pretty interesting...i will take a closer look at what you said even though i only have dp/dr