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ya..the feeling of detachment is the most common symptom when it comes to dpd.

ghost images = ghosting

i had the most realistic dreams of my life since my onset..and it was impossible to differ wether they were real or not..at least while dreaming but when i had a dream that could have been real..it occured all too often that i believed it really happened.

i also have dp/dr and you are right and doing well facing your fears i learned a new lesson last time i smoked a head through a bong when i was with a friend and had a very alarming anxiety attack but got it under controll after 20 minutes of really facing my worst fear..it was so scary in the moment but made me so much stronger afterwards...its amazing how much controll i have gained over myself from panic attacks when it comes to anxiety and other issues. im sooo glad...

what you describe sounds exactly like dpd (depersonalization disorder (dpd) and dont worry about the name cause that doesnt mean you cant have derealization too)..but to answer your quastion..no you dont have hppd. i know it cause i had hppd and im over it but suffer from depersonalization disorder and have only visual snow, mood swings, depression,sometimes tinitus, dp/dr and if i trigger them also panic attacks...in fact its different for everybody but look up the symptoms of dpd and you will find similarities to what you describe here. and flashbacks what are your flashbacks like maybe you also have hallucinogenic trauma.

ghost images

dont obsess about these things..man i know that anxiety can cause a wide variety of strange unexpected symptoms (headaches, nausea, faster heartbeat and so on almost all kind of auditory, visual, psychological and physical hallucinations) cause ive been there and they could lead one to permanently overthinking conditions and worry but stop giving any attention to them or they get worse and worse...if you learn to be calm when symptoms occur..anxiety and symptoms will fade step by step until one day you finally let go...just hang in there and never lose hope..remembering anxiety cant do anything to you.

it could be a sign as it sounds like one if i remember correctly..its been the same with me ...firstly i only had breaks and later it faded completely .be patient and dont expect too much at once. by the way...since you re talking about anxiety..i smoked a way too big head ten minutes ago and had a panic attack...now its under controll and fading.. i learned to beat anxiety..everything is possible.

so dont go to school then and stop crying around about it..cause it wont help you + its in your hands to go there or not.

i didnt do anything since my onset...no school, no work and no other kind of stress..and i wont do anything like that until im completely cured even if it takes all my life.

i dont get clonazepham and wont get benzos prescribed...i would like to have some on hand..but doctors leave me hangin so i have to take opiates cause i dont need a prescription and buy them from a dealer

i dont get panic attacks without overdoses anymore and even if.. i would be able to stop them immediately...cause im the controller of my brain again...yesterday i drank 2 beer, smoked a joint and took a little opium and was fine and able to enjoy the whole experience. i still have access to big amounts of ket..and was lately thinking about taking some..but im a little afraid of a bad trip..and i only used ket twice in my life...one time with a friend (an overdose of ket impured with acid) and the other time alone and a way too small dosage to feel anything...but i know it can be very enjoyable..i also have depression from time to time so it could also help me maybe..i dont know what to do.. would it be a good idea to start small or is it better to wait for a few month again before.

of course i love to be able to smoke again im really thankful..but i dont know if i can smoke as much as on my old days (didnt try it) and even though i can smoke again and it is becoming more and more like a weed high again, it is still not quite the same as prior to my onset and thats what fucks me up a little + what fucks me big time is that i can not put every kind of drug and amount into my system (didnt try it) without being afraid, worrying or maybe make my dp/dr worse and also the highs wouldnt still be the same as i used to..hope the rest of my rarely occuring dp/dr will fade forever and completely.. man i was high all the time since my onset without drugs but it always felt like a very bad trip...so its a relief to enjoy drugs again getting the effects expected. and i dont like the imagination of taking care for my health like a 99 year old man for the rest of my life..its like buying a pc and spending all the time im using it, for defragmenting dirves and installing anti virus software and so on, without ever really having fun and using it for what its made (playing a game, watching movies etc.)...what i want to say is..life has to be fun or its useless..dont want to live a life filled with pain and agony.

i also meditate and i also face my psychological issues and experienced amazing betterment through it.

ya without doubt its real funny since it has been caused/triggered by another kind of mushroom XD

fuck it..it sucks that i still cant/dont know if i can take all kinds of drugs again and with the drugs i can do..i just cant take huge amounts...i want to have fun again without worrying about something stupid

really? ketamine wont increase hppd for you?..thats awesome. and do you have dp/dr...cause i have no hppd anymore but still dp/dr and was lately thinking of trying ket but i dont want to make dp/dr worse.

lions mane has no more effect on me and even at times it has affected me it was just in a positive way...notice that lions mane has absolutely no drug like effects its just a suppliment. realize that dp/dr is an anxiety disorder and it starts like this: severe shocking anxiety => trauma => dp/dr so if you find a way to release trauma you wont have any automated fight, flight, freeze response coming from your brain that means you have resolved internal conflicts and you will be able to turn your attention to the outside world without going crazy or being anxious. cause what most people dont know is that the shitty vision coming with dp/dr is panic realted its a symptom of a brain being in panic mode..due to the brain has to do with anxiety and has no attention left for anything else..its blocking. the answer is yes visual snow will get better when dp/dr is over but it will never be over when you obsess and dont touch the root of the problem which is quite difficult since people with dr/dr mostly cant belive and deny its an anxiety issue. my visual snow is a lot better now but i still didnt come over anxiety completely and have to deal with some snow.

try meditation

i dont think a schizophrenic would know that its not real and worry about going crazy..dont be afraid

man i know altered perception of any kind is the worst for people with hppd/dp/dr...thats why im wondering so much more that its possible to enjoy these things for me again

by the way.. its crazy how good i feel today i just drank coffeine..took opium and smoked a little weed... and im totally enjoying it ...its not long ago that every single of these substances would have given me severe panic attacks and strong visuals even in the slightest amount and since i beat my anxiety i have no problems with taking drugs again..you might be asking yourself why im always talking about drugs when it comes to test ones hppd/dp/dr symptoms..its because if you can enjoy drugs ..its a kind of perfect proof that you are almost or completely cured..thats due to one affected by these disturbances can not really enjoy life or drugs..its like they can not come to terms with their own feelings (brainchemistry)...and i was there...

maybe it could help..but im not sure..but even if not you have at least the guarantee that it might help with visual induced anxiety.what are visuals if they dont disturb you..they might fade after a while if you dont worry

try cbd oil it helps with panic disorders and since my bet was always that hppd is just hallucingenic trauma it has to do a lot with anxiety and you dont trip on cbd + its health benefits will replace a bunch of suppliments

ya of course this is the problem with disturbances like dp/dr/hppd..all too often they will be miss diagnosed..and then you get the wrong meds or useless treatment and it gets worse...fuck the system...we have to learn to cure ourselves and also prevent any other possible issues waiting for us in the future..which leads the most of us to have a healthy lifestyle in general.