Missjess

I know for a fact anxiety is not the cause for me tho...I deff have mild hppd

Well...I started to feel a little uncomfortable yesterday yes..I could feel a little anxiety coming on :/

SHIT !!!

Well this is all very new to me & it does scare the shit out of me!! This is way worse then Dpdr

What the actual fuck!!.... That is scary as hell ! I'm already fkn scared out of my mind being like this!! I need to buy ear plugs and fuking sun glasses tomorrow!

Everything just keeps getting fuking worse, I tried to take sarcosine to help me...made me feel worse.. I accidentally had lemon lime and bitters from a pub and forgot bitters has alcohol in it! Since then I seem to have lost my "body grounding" like my body feels like a stick and like there is nothing there and now my surroundings look a bit "swishy and moulded together" like my brain can't distinguish a separateness from things everything just looks like one big mess!! My vision looks static, I cannot stand noises and sounds now I need to get fuking ear plugs!! This came at horrendous timing coz I have my trip to Brazil tomorrow for healing and feel I cannot go I feel totally fuking disabled mentally and physically what do I do :(

So I took just a tiny bit of sarcosine & it has actually just made my hppd worse Not sure if I can travel tomorrow for my Brazil trip everything looks so trippy & things feel like they are morphing together

It rlly fkn sux hey...how r we supposed to get better with supps and medications if we can't even take them!!?? I only take a rlly tiny bit of something now and that's pretty much all I can fkn take

Don't fuking touch Iboga!! Especially if u already have hppd!! Read my post here and wat happened to me: http://hppdonline.com/index.php?/topic/3499-iboga-totally-messed-up-my-brain-chemistry/

So I just had a lemon lime bitters from a pub ...now I feel so shit!! I didn't realize the bitters has olcohol in it !! I'm in a rlly bad mood right now and things feel hallucinogenic just a little bit more fuk sake ! I hope this passes soon

It wasn't just me there were 2 other guys on longecity who tried it and had same reaction as me..1 didn't have any of our kind of problems and the other did he had similar problems I am exeoreincing from Iboga ...so just be carefull !! Try it but be carefull...

Yesterday I tried only 50mcg of JDtic... Luckily I took a small dose because the effects were horrible! I felt a weird feeling, a little dysphoria and I was rlly spaced out for like 12 hours...I felt a weird electrical sensation running thru my nervous system a couple of times and I felt like pressure or a weird feeling in my brain as it was working...I took the dose at 2.30pm and I went for a walk around 5pm I was sweating a bit and my mouth kept getting rlly dehydrated and dry. Later on during the evening I experienced weird pains and sensations around my chest area.. I won't be taking that drug ever again! Luckily the worst of it ended at 12am at night and I also was thinking about going to hospital just until the morning. If anyone is going to try this drug with already messed up and sensitive brain chemistry only try a TINY BIT to see how u will react. But I honestly can't recommend jdtic and that's from my experience

Shit! I was like that for about 4-5 months after my horrible Iboga trip, I couldn't drink coffee, stimulants a big no no!! I wud pretty much get a funny and bad reaction to everything I took!! Apart from sedatives R u a lot better now tho? Or do u still experience these awfull things?

You mean write up the progress of my healing trip? YES I CAN I will make a post about it and keep everyone update coz I think everyone should be made aware of another healing alternative to cure there hppd....that is if it helps me!! Which I rlly hope it does

Kellen How long have u had hppd for and how bad is it? Yeah I cud not imagine that either !! Going travelling is gonna be so fkn hard in this state I rlly have to do my best not to focus on the lights and ppl so much but it's hard when ur brain doesn't fuking process anything!! What is keppra? I'm too fkn scared to take meds I always react funny to meds and supplements now since the disaster Iboga trip...I tried jdtic today and that was fuked up! Never again.. Thanks !

Well I'm kinda new to this hppd crap so it's kinda hard for me! But u know what I have improved...initially I wanted to fuking hanging myself and had to refrain from the intrusive thoughts for about a week ...now I am doing normal tasks with much difficulty and not laying as much attention but it's real hard not to when I feel extremely fuked up every second of everyday

I accidentally found him when searching for healers...here watch this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-YhRwI-PWY it will tell u all about him and show u different healing journeys etc Wow that sounds absolutely horrible ....i can go to places but everything just looks so fuked up and I just feel high all the fkn time...when I look at my hands and body I always feel a "hallucinogenic" feel to them not sure how long I can handle this for

Yes I know but I'm rlly struggling to cope with them!! Like it's so fkn shit If I do make it there I hope to god that I can be helped

This is so shit ....don't know how I'm going to make it to Brazil!! Do sunglasses help???

I was in the airport the other day and everything just looks so fuked up ...my brain is way to dissociated to even process anything

It's pretty hard to ignore...but even if u did ignore it wud still be there...so what u say isn't true at all...

So no medication helped u? It just went away on its own? .....I have that feeling of the wide screen television in my head too if to feels anything like that to u? My friend has arrived with jdtic but I'm fkn too scared to try any...I heard a couple of bad reports on longecity. Bit the dp is just so so bad and extreme that I rlly need to take something to try to reverse this. Perhaps I shid try naltrexone...not sure

Well yeah it is but I have it to the absolute extreme with hppd added to it I feel no anxiety tho

No ur referring to derealization ... Dissociation is where u feel detached from urself and emotions, and body. In the drug induced dissociation I'm experiencing it's extremely severe

I'm curious to hear about anyone's experience with trying jdtic for dissociation & dpd Thanks