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i also like budhism but i couldnt live this way. i cant meditate because iam so grounded. but i love the theory to make you free of everything to reach your nirvana i allways tried to live this way but not on a spiritually way. post HPPD i am also very interested in the old european mythologie before the christianization. i like the culture of the kelts and the germanic peoples. but i would call me a atheist since iam a child. so the most spiritually things doesnt fit into my way of life. i know meditation has a big impact on your mind but as i mentioned i cant do it^^

hmm i never had a bad trip only good times and i love to think back to my active time. the only bad experience was while we took liquid acid and my wife had a bad trip i was also tripping hard but i had to guide her a bit. that was stressfull but the next day everything was fine. but my wife had a few creazy lasting effects she had a few panic attacks and flashbacks but thats gone now. she has no HPPD like me, but maybe aform of PTSD everytime when iam talking about my expiriences with friends she has to leave the room and i see the panic in her eyes. thats stressed me abit but i dont think that this triggered PTSD in me. i only have visuals nothing than visuals absolutly no anxiety or something like this. its a bit like a good trip while sober, but i have to say it would be great to not have visuals but they are dont prevent me from leading my life. my only prob is that i often think about the visuals because they are allways there but they dont bother me.

haha not done it before but now i tell you what i have taken during my drug history: -started with nicotine than alc than weed at the age of 12 to 13 -than alot of E and other designer drugs no idea what it was a few let me trip 3 times a week from 18-20. -daily amphetamine from 18-20 -than mushis maybe 10 times or more: really nice trips but slight HPPD starts after the combination of mushis and salvia. -salvia maybe 50 times fuck that herb^^ -alot of nitrious gas 2 times a day maybe -tickets maybe 50 times -liquid LSD on sugar one time that was my last "hard" drug ever 3 years ago i had a nice trip but my wife got a bad trip so we decided to stop -LSA a few times -DXM maybe 4 times really strange trips -Ephidrine -herbal E -Kratom maybe 15 times -Opium one time -atztec dreamherb no idea how it is called in english -afew other herbal drugs ive forgotten the name -Ether one time -crystal one time -cocaine 10 times could be that i have forgotten something^^ also i always cominated drugs. one of the best trips was weed+salvia+lsd another one was weed+mushis+lsd the funny thing is i had always slight HPPD since i was 19, but my "full blown" HPPD started with 25 after 3 years of staying away from hard drugs i only smoked weed and had a stressfull time. i smoked weed from 16-25 daily maybe 7 spliffs a day.

hmm dunno hard to say i think yes in someway but it would depend on the type of dysfunction. but as you see alot of people here see improvment with diffrent drugs so what ever it is seems to be treatable in some. another part is its mostly impossible to cure brain damage you can maybe treat it but who knows the brain has a great plasticity i think the brain could only heal itself completly. i think its a bit like these images: once you see the face and concentrate on the face you only see it. its hard to forget it and only see the whole picture. same with our symptoms....but maybe this is the point where drugs could help if you have less symptoms yo u are able to forget about it faster or better. hmm never heard of it i will read about it soon i have visitors and not much time these days.

i was watching a TV show about sensory illusions. there were shown a lot of illusions, visual and auditory. the thalamus plays the main part in these illusions. maybe our occipital lobe is only the sufferer of a wrong working thalamus. here is something intersseting. maybe this would also explain some of the comorbid deseasses a few of us have. e.g. regulation of sleep. seems everything could be explained by a not propper working thalamus. also tinnitus seems to be connected to the thalamus in some way: also dopamine plays a part in the thalamus maybe this would explain why drugs like sinemet coul help some of us: i think it woul also explain why there is such a big bunch in symptoms and not all of us has the same. i am in a hurry right now i will elaborate this theory a bit more soon.

<joke on> maybe some sort of micropsia while looking on your testicle <joke off> you dont need every possible supp. whey and maybe bcaa are enough, when you have a good diet

i dunno if a high IQ is compelling but there should also be a special plasticity of our brains. A german brain specialist has published a few studies about the brain which show that a brain is allways able to learn new things this is not limited to childhood but it is also able to unlearn things when they are not used anymore. he gave an example: a long time ago the paramecium had a better brain as now. they also head eyes and extremities but when they found the best and easiest way to live this disapears over time. so maybe ignoring could be a big part of the cure

no absolutly no high maybe abit stoned or sedaded. it is used to treat chronic pain, anxiety or shizophrenia. here in germany it is available if all other medical treatment is unsucessful and you have to pay 500 euro per month. but yesterday night i researched a bit and it is possible to extract it of hemp. you can watch videos at youtube. i think i will wait a few month and if my brain dont heal itself i am going to try it..... the only problem is you never know the exact dosis for example shizophrenia is treated with 300mg/day, depression with 800mg/day.

no idea i wouldnt try it brcause of the headaches. i smoked knaster a few years ago tastes like christmas tree^^ but if this would really stop VS i would smoke it again or would travell to amsterdam and buy some harlequin seeds

CBD=Cannabidiol here weed is also illegal, but Hemp you use to make shirts for example is legal it contains <0.3% THC and a lot CBD this for example: http://compare.ebay.de/like/330583242294?var=lv&ltyp=AllFixedPriceItemTypes&var=sbar but you also can buy buds of hemp. but you could get headaches from smoking it.

dunno but wouldnt do normal Hemp do the same, high CBD and very very low THC http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hemp this should be available in the most countries

i had the same, my first symptoms got better and a few new occured,but ghosting was my last symptome which kicked in. but this is almost gone now again. its only there when driving at night after clubbing and these fucking trails of my hands started self induced by thinking about them, i also saw it on TV and people against white walls, but after stopping to obcess about it they are back to my hands only. but this bothers me no more, because i think why should i wave my hands infront of my face while not focussing on them, i also wouldnt do it without HPPD.

yeah i also did it has gotten better now but i mean with this picture it was like my brain was seeing it like everything of the eyes was blocked out. very hard to describe maybe a bit like dreaming

my visuals can change through out the day but that was worse in the beginning. they get worse: -after awekening from a lucid dream (snow, afterimages) -after awekening from a naptime in the noon -shortly after sports -partying one day behind the other -negative stress -hangover -being tired -obsessing about symptoms and a few others i cant remember now i think^^ but that was worse in the beginning now these points hasnt a big impact anymore i got a few crazy visuals in the beginning while falling asleep i saw something like this: not thenormal snow i could only see this with closed eyes not like a CEV it was like my brain was broken like an old TV after awekening i got something like this: but sometimes colorful. it was a bit like a colorful frost pattern and i also got a few real flashbacks. onetime i was watching the simpsons dont know if you now the beginning theme where it starts witch a cell and then zooming out untill you see homers head, after this every wall was breathing like shit a bit like the wall begun to zoom out too

yes i agree totaly as i write above unless you have taken drugs dont call it HPPD thats impossible even because of the diagnostic criterias. there are PMA which also is researched a bit (known in medical books), remember not every migraine must be noticeable by headaches. And also there is PPD its not an official diagnosis but i think doctor Abraham uses this as well.(there are a few studies showing Palinopsia can ocur in healthy brains, why not the other symptoms) i think the main diffrences are that alot people of the Yuku forum report progressive symptoms in my opinion that is because of a very simple reason. if you have HPPD stop all drugs and your trigger has left your life so your brain is maybe able to heal. if you have PMA or maybe something like a status epilepticus the trigger can be still with you. like somebody with HPPD still using drugs, and your symptoms are able to get worse. but i read about the most symptoms you can find here also there. also ghosting and movement is reported by some but not as frequent. today the only diffrences we are able to call according to the criteria are the diffrent triggers. a few years ago Dr. Podoll did a long survey about these symptoms you can find it here: http://www.migraine-...6/index_en.html i think every thing is mentioned there except a cure(maybe that wasnt his aim, seems he wanted to do a survey about Migraine Art) but this is after dr Abrahams work one of the best works till now. every doctor who dont find a cure must be wrong in some persons view and i think this is one of the biggest problems of the yuku forum, every day a new therory from a not medical person which gives false hope or anxiety, its like a vicious circle. a example could be the name of this topic^^ or like: Person a: "my ring finger is longer than my forefinger maybe thats the reason af my symptoms" Person b: "ohh i have this, too" Person c: "seems a lot of people have this, maybe its related" that is leading in a wrong direction and drives people into hypochrondria

thats right. and i also believe that the mechanism is the same and this forum the best medically support board for altered perception is so everyone with this disturbances get the best information here no matter if drug induced or not. but i wouldnt call my self suffering of HPPD if i had never taken a drug because some people could label you a drughead.

dont think so^^ candida diets could even be dangerous its just another naturopaths money making magic in my opinion. to have a candida overgroth you MUST have a very fucked up immune sytem so we all should be tested for HIV. and people with Aids could die by a candida overgroth so i feel very alive^^

hmm seems somebody had this idea before lol there are a few better pictures i dont want to post

hmm i read it is a frequent side effect of laser surgery to correct astigmatism. but they say it seems to be because of the tearfilm or dry eye but drops also dont work for those people.

yeah there seem to be a missing enzyme in asians which reduces alc in your body never wanted to mention in but i read alot of gettin healed by a low dose trip in a swiss forum please please dont try it!!!!!!! but what do you think about it could this be possible?

hehe i know that sexual activity could increase symptoms for some, that is why i mentioned masturbation could trigger a migraine. but i swear thats not the trigger of HPPD/PMA/PPD or whatever maybe for a sore penis^^ as for the abstract you showed this are not the diagnostic criteria for HPPD its the criteria for positive visual disturbances. but in my opinion if HPPD/PMA/PPD or positive visual disturbances its all the same mechanism behind it but you cant technically call HPPD not PMA because to get HPPD you must technically use a hallucinogen in the past. but thats only my opinion.

lol maybe all tenage boys have pornogen persisting perception disorder but they dont notice it because they only look at their screen the whole day and have afterimages of big tits if they close their eyes.^^ also this would explain the explanation of BFEP sperm like things in the sky and if you look at it when it comes down your vision gets blurry^^

and it should disapear when you close one eye.... really strange^^

hehe^^ hmm here in germany every drug addicted is treated and also psychotics after drug use are treated.. i think HPPD is very mysterious and doctors dont know who to handle it if they are aware of it

quark is a longterm protein dunno how it is called in english^^ its the perfect midnight lunch but i cant see it anymore i changed to cotton cheese and sometimes quark