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Gtfo japanese. You disrespectful cunt. No one gives a shit about your antibiotics.

Unfortunately I didnt write this, haha It said in the post that the lyrics were from the band sworn in.

These are the lyrics to a song called death by sworn in. Tell me, am I crazy or does this not apply perfectly to the hppd plight? I said hell's not a place you find beneath the ground Not a place you can see Not a place you'll be found Hell's not a place that you go when you're dead Hell's inside your fucking head Dragged to hell Be quiet don't tell I've made a deal to get out of my head Trade my sanity to sleep And trust me it's cheap I'll let my body rot to the fore Nevermore, Nevermore And in the end I don't give a damn It was all part of the plan I've lost it all and I still can't sleep I can't feel, can't see and oh fuck I can't think Maybe this is what I wanted I've lost it all and I still can't sleep I can't feel, can't see and oh fuck I can't think Maybe this is what I wanted I've lost it all and I still can't sleep I can't feel, can't see and oh fuck I can't think Maybe this is what I wanted... I'm finally here in hell but I'm only a guest

So have you tried the coulracetam or the cbd gum yet? They both sound very promising from what ive read. The coulracetam actually sounds perfect for hppd with its potentially anxiolitic effects, as well as its effects on the visual system with choline uptake.

Wow, where did you order coulracetam and cbd from? Id definitely be interested in that for sure. As of now im taking multi vitamins , omega 3s, lions mane, acetyl l carnitine, alpha gpc, l tyrosine, vit b complex, magnesium, st johns wort , relaxation teas and ive been exerimenting with diff anxiolitics such as high doses of magnesium, tumeric, (antidepressant properties), and smoking an herbal blend of hops for anxiety. The hops is actually very helpful. It sort of calms my thoughts and helps me live in the moment. Also gives me the enjoyment of smoking again. Even if its not weed. It actually tastes similar

That I can. Haha. Its fading away pretty quick thankfully. I dont feel too bad today actually. How have you been lately oneday?

Needless to say, wont be using noopept again. Brought back head pressure and the feeling of being off balance.

Great! Thanks for the input oneday. Im hoping for some cognitive improvement as noopept has shown nerve regenerative effects in mice. It is actually being looked into as a possible treatment for alzheimers. Quite fascinating.

Have any of you tried this potent nootropic? It is part of the racetam family and is supposedly 1000 times more potent than piracetam. If so, what were your experiences? I ask this because I have some coming in the mail today. I am slightly nervous to try it and excited as well. I just want to ensure that Im doing myself no harm by ingesting noopept.

You guys are the best If I could hug you guys I would,(no homo) lol thanks for the mood boost :-) just brightened my day a bit.

So today I called dr abrahams office after emailing him about my condition 2 days earlier. He said he would be glad to treat me. I will most likely have an appt in the second week of september. I am lucky enough to live only an hour and a half away from his office but he said that we would do two back to back 45 minute sessions in one day, and then have a third the next day. These three sessions will include diagnosis and a treatment plan. It feels like there is finally hope to hold onto in my life! Have any of you had experiences with dr abraham? If so how did it pan out?

So, today I had an appt with a psych which was quite stressful and mentally taxing. My depersonlization flared up badly in that stressful situation. I presented my evidence for the fact that I have hppd; as well as evidence for the possible effectiveness of keppra in treating hppd. Overall I think the appt was successful because I was able to get a referral for a neurologist. On sept 3 I will see him and most likely be given an eeg as well as an mri. I guess my question would be, how do I convince him that keppra will be a safe and possibly effective route for treatment. This feels like my last resort at this point and I need these doctors to take me seriously. Will appreciate any feedback guys. Thx.

The benefits of reduced visuals seemed to last for a couple hours. The dp relief seemed to last a bit longer. Anxiety was also greatly reduced.

So I learned a meditation technique where you inhale for a count of ten, then exhale for a count of ten. You repeat this cycle fifty times. After I did this I found tha my trails were almost non existent. As well as my positive after images. My depersonalization was also markedly improved. I think there may be someting to this. What do you guys think?

So I bought a supplement for brain health and cognitive function. It contains taurine and Im curious as to what your experiences have been with this compound if you have ever tried it. Basically, I want to make sure that I am not doing myself any harm by ingesting taurine.

Ive hit the six month mark and im still depersonalized, and my visuals are worse than when I first contracted hppd. What the fuck am I supposed to do. My brain is fucked. My moods are up and down constantly. Im doing everything I can to heal and nothing is working. Is there still hope that I will get better? I have no idea.

Thanks man, it means a lot. Felt good to get that pent up rage out of my system.

Whats the point of living with this bullshit when this is as close to a living hell as I can get. I dont even know who I am or what I stand for anymore. No joy. No happiness. No friends. Just suffering. Will this ever get better? I cant fucking stand this anymore. Especially the depersonalization. Sobriety is so fucking difficult when all I want to do is drown my sorrows. Will I haveto be sober forever? I cant do this for much longer. Please give me some hope, because any hope I had is dead and gone now. I want to die.

Whats the point of living with this bullshit when this is as close to a living hell as I can get. I dont even know who I am or what I stand for anymore. No joy. No happiness. No friends. Just suffering. Will this ever get better? I cant fucking stand this anymore. Especially the depersonalization. Sobriety is so fucking difficult when all I want to do is drown my sorrows. Will I haveto be sober forever? I cant do this for much longer. Please give me some hope, because any hope I had is dead and gone now. I want to die.

So I aquired this shitty symptom where my nose feels strange and alien to me. Along with this feeling is the sense that I see my nose constantly against my own will. It sounds silly but it really sucks. Its almost like im depersonalized from my nose.

I am fucking pissed at my lazy ass boss who almost fired me for showing up late one time in the past four months, and then the motherfucker had the nerve to schedule me to work till 5 am and then come in again that same morningat 10 am. I can only assume he was trying to make me late so he could fuck me over. Now my visuals are through theroof, im about to fall asleep at work and i want to punchmy boss in the teeth who is just feet away from me right nw at this very moment. Alright. Now your turn.

Update. Depersonalization is fading considerably again. Positive after images are gone, trailing is next to nothing. Back to baseline about 5 weeks after weed sesh. Never doing that again. Just happy im getting better again

Whatevet trust there may have been between me and my parents has been lost and I cant stand living with them any longer. However, I am in a tight spot because I know I dont have enough income to support myself. My parents are controlling and intrusive and Ive had just about enough of it. My father shut off the internet so now I have to go somewhere with free wifi to access this website. Even when I had the internet he blocked every self help website imaginable because to this day he still refuses to believe I have hppd. The past few days have been shit too hecause get this, Ive been having insomnia lately so my parents accused me of doing coke. Im fed up with all this bullshit. I am an adult with adult responsibilities and should be treated as such. Sure ive made mistakes but that does by no means justify my parents controlling behavior. Im no longer going to put up with this bullshit. No matter how much trouble it gets me in. Because once I start bending over and taking their bullshit, its a slippery slope from then on. Sorry had to vent. What should I do guys?

For me the only things that really keep me going are those few moments when im at work sitting outside with my work friends puffing on a black n mild and I have a meaningful conversation with he/she and for that moment I feel connected. It reminds me that the person I used to be is still there. Thats what keeps me going. Especially when I get to be around this girl that I work with. She has a boyfriend, but I like to hope that we could end up being more than friends in the future. Honestly shes one of the kindest, most sympathetic people ive ever met. The only person ive told about my hppd, other than my parents. So what keeps you guys going?

I have this. Not too severe tho.