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If Aniracetam doesn't pan out I might smoke a bowl of this stuff, though I didn't proceed with buying it as I've read quite the contradictory experiences of it (mainly because some experience it as anxiogenic, which I rather not have).

Yes that's exactly why! Pedal to the metal Yeah idk about mg/ml. I opted for 24G 1" and 22G 1.5", these were the thinnest I could find in these lengths. For the extra 5 euros I figured I might as well get both lengths. Haha not sure! Been very sedentary so little muscle and relatively much fat.. kind of missing the good old days where I didn't have to question "Err.. is this a muscle?". In any case, I've read it's recommended to not inject the same site at least for another 7 days, so I'll need a total of 10 different injection sites.. I figured 2 on the leg, 2 on the bum.. and haven't come further than that, lol. Maybe 2 on the arm, and hope that by then it'll be fine to switch back to the leg, otherwise I gotta get creative. The guide is a .odt file which is an OpenOffice file, which you can open with modern Word versions I believe, as well as LibreOffice if you're running Ubuntu like me

I would think, given the theory of hyperexcitability, that cathode over occipital regions would be of more merit. However, nothing is absolute, and it may be that anodal stimulation would be beneficial. I haven't tried it myself yet, though I remember I've added quite a few articles on the subject over at "Research Articles". You might have to click " load more topics" as it was a while back.

DIY kit. You can read of my experience starting here.

Yes tDCS has been, up to now, the most effective therapy for attenuating my symptoms, predominately depersonalization and cognition. I gave it up because the device I made is a bit of a hassle to apply, and indeed benefits are rather transient. This was at 1.5mA for 20 minutes, anode at F3 and cathode at Fp2 I believe.

I'd suggest to skip Piracetam, and head for Coluracetam, or Aniracetam. I've yet to try the latter myself, but there's one member here who experiences relief with it. AlphaBrain was one of the first products I tried when I acquired HPPD, and it did nothing for me.

Me too Jay! I think it's water-based Andrew. From what I've read the shots are painless, or barely noticeable. Also some people have compared it to NSI-189, claiming it's superior. I think NSI-189 was described as having faster thoughts, and having more thoughts, whilst Cerebrolysin was described as being calming and clarifying (like here). So that's interesting.. Meanwhile I've inquired about faster shipping options, seeing as it hasn't been shipped yet. The sooner the better, right? Anyway I'll update once (I know when) it's here. Cheers. edit: Has already been shipped. Should be here in about a week. If anyone is going to try this; I've written my own simplified how-to IM injection guide, download here. Original online here.

Thanks for the advice man! Yeah I'll be meticulous about the procedure... probably gonna print out a step-by-step guide, and watch some YouTube videos in replay. Still; seems like an easy process. I'll be injecting 5ml into 2 sites every day.. and I know sites must be rotated. So aside from the glutus maximus and the vastus lateralis, I'll have to find more sites to inject I guess.. But I'll figure that all out as well. Indeed the effects are documented (and reported anecdotally) to persist beyond the injecting phase. Yes 5 days a week seems a little extreme; but I figured pedal to the metal. The shots.. yeah I guess I'll get used to it. Guess my main problem will be finding enough injection sites. 4 weeks should be sufficient to see results as most people see results within the first week, for some it takes 2 weeks, but not much longer than that. And.. after that. If it does work, I wouldn't mind injecting it into my face 5 times a day if I had to. Yes N-PEP-12 is the oral version.. Think I read it was 7 times less potent or so. There's also intranasal administration of Celebrolysin, but results are a bit controversial it seems. You could also IV; but that is more extreme than IM. One person is doing SubQ's. I'd be interested in whether sublingual would have a high bioavailability. Cool that you're gonna try it! Well shipping was 5-15 days, so I'm hoping it'll be here sooner rather than later! (my guess is early December).

Thank you! And yes indeed we shall!

A collection of articles on Cerebrolysin

So. I'm very spaced out currently. I'll add more about Cerebrolysin as soon as my brain permits, but basically it's porcine derived peptides which spark brain growth. Or something like that.. didn't get into details. I can't wait for NSI-189 lying around like this any longer, and this seems to have a high chance of helping me, moreover it seems rather similar save the RoA. Anyway, many tout it as the most potent nootropic they've ever used. I've even read 2 accounts of it improving depersonalization, one of them quite drastically. I suggest you read through the (long) thread at Longecity however, if you're interested. This one has been on the back of my mind for so long; I almost forgot it existed. When I first started looking into Nootropics, it was the first thing that caught my eye based on the (sometimes very impressive) user reports. However, the only downside is the RoA. Intramuscular injection. This is why I never bothered with it, as IM injections seemed rather extreme to me. Though now more than ever I really, really, need something that works. The upside however is that it should work relatively quickly (1-20 days, with an average of 4-5 days) and should be highly efficacious if it works. So, I went ahead and ordered myself 200ml (20 x 10ml) Cerebrolysin from Nootropic.eu. (warning: very expensive). I'll be spending the coming days trying to figure out how to do intramuscular injections, ordering needles, etc. (I've never done an injection.. hell I've even missed a lot of shots!). The only fear I have is that I'll fuck up due to my current cognitive state (I barely made a sandwhich today.. hoping Aniracetam will help with that short-term), but other than that I'm pretty sure it should be harmless. And I guess.. would suck to waste almost 300 euros on a failed experiment and jabbing my thigh for nothing. I haven't found a single mention of Cerebrolysin on HPPDonline.. Does anyone have any experience with this (I doubt it)? I'm still reading in to it, but doses tend to be 5-10ml per day, either every other day, or 5 on 2 off. I figured 10ml 5 on 2 off for 4 weeks should be sufficient to gauge efficacy. Of course this is subject to adjustments. Thoughts anyone?

Hey BPL.. I've ordered an Aniracetam sample myself to try. As for visuals; guess it would affect everyone differently. Anyway; wanted to ask you what it did for you in regards to dissociation and memory. Some people report feeling DP'd from Aniracetam, whereas other acounts are rather inspiring with the usual NZT-like reports. My memory recently has been senile; so especially in this regard I was hoping you could tell me more. Judging from your experience it seems to work instantly after a 750mg dose. This I will do and report back (Monday/Tuesday). How have you been?

Thank you wooshka; I do hope so! Yes I do.. mostly out of despair I guess. Indeed the accounts so far seem rather inspiring, whilst others fail to note any benefit.. The thing is that a lot of people who pursue nootropics don't have any true problems; rather they are chasing the elusive NZT. Hence; they have no real problems to fix; they are less likely to achieve any benefits. Indeed Coluracetam did seem rather hopeful.. perhaps I hyped that up too much myself, haha! Nevertheless.. what else to do?! Kind of running out of ideas lately. Back to shooting in the dark :/ It was there on the table when I walked into a room.. Can't quite recall; just got fed up with nothing working and constantly waiting.. I knew it wouldn't be beneficial; but never did I suspect it this severely detrimental (for so long). Had my memory served me right; I would have remembered all the troubling experiences I have had with cocaine. Ah well.

My new baseline is much lower.. stems from the cocaine I did months ago. Visuals are dramatically worse, as well as anything really. Dissociation and cognitive dysfunction is sometimes to a point where I can barely comprehend speech, let alone speak it. Anxiety is also very bad; fearing I'm losing my marbles most of the day. Subsequent result is depression.. Usually my outlet would be to keep thinking of something new; something that may help, but recently I can barely think, and as a result, can't devise a new plan of action so easily, making it all seem rather hopeless. Alas; not much improvements aside from the relief from the observation that it appears that I am not psychotic, but in fact extremey deeply engulfed in my own bemuddled thoughts, a solopsism of sorts. Anyhow, enough about that.. Gotta figure out how to fix it, right? Already tried Mucuna L-DOPA; which seemed to make it worse.. Don't know how else cocaine could make things this much worse, besides messing with dynorphin, CREB and KREB cycles and all that.. One thing I came across is that psychostimulants appears to cause neuroinflammation and BBB dysfunction, hence I'm trying some Curcumin (a different brand; supposedly the one I had couldn't cross the BBB and this one can) to reduce any possible inflammation.. If that helps I'll add some Magnolia Bark. If it doesn't; at least I can rule that out. I'm also receiving the Afobazol today, which would be my next course of action. Other than that there's not much I can do besides to wait, and the 'ole trial and error, I fear, and hoping NSI-189 will help. Though the latter is still a month or two away. On topic: Still LEDing.. no improvements I can attribute to it really, but like I said; I'll keep at it.

The equipment is the exact same LED lamp others are using. Indeed length of sessions may have to do with it, but I fear my new baseline also interferes with noticing benefits. Lastly, it may take a few weeks to see results, so I'll just stick with it for now.

Yeah I know. Some report instant effects, others days to weeks. Most report cumulative benefits.

One option would be to supplement CBD whilst smoking that strain, just a few puffs; provided that unlike me weed doesn't make you go batshit. Yes indeed quite cruel; also the accompanying useless self-blame to come along with it. But yeah, gotta move forward and just try to relax as much as possible. Indeed I have considered that; I've ordered some Afobazole which appears to be quite the effective anxiolytic (and anti-depressant) with rather fast onset of action (hours to 2 weeks it appears). Benzos don't agree with me alas; giving me rebound anxiety, generally twice as bad. I'll see how it all pans out.. Got some more stuff coming in next week too, and I'll keep at it with the LED therapy. Not much else to do I'm afraid.

You were referring to PRL with the dopamine potentiation, no? Like I said; I haven't read much into the pharmacological profiles of either substances, hence I'm not too sure I can adequately address your questions. Also, I'm not familiar with receptor density.. So as for combining Kanna and/or Kratom with PRL: I definitely don't know that. As for combining them with NSI-189: I don't see why not, though again I haven't read any elaboration on the exact mechanism by which NSI-189 exerts its neurogenesis. Joining the group buy would go as followed: Log in / register at Longecity Join the NSI-189 Group Buy Group Post a message in the "Participants" thread, specify the amount you would like to buy You will be contacted via private message with how to go about paying Synthesis will probably be finished somewhere late December. Orders will be processed chronologically (i.e. first come first serve) Or so I've understood it. I'd say give or take a few weeks, but I'd expect to receive the NSI-189 somewhere around January, February at the latest. As for dosing, Puppeteer, I think it depends on your RoA. Some people take it orally, others sublingually. I plan on starting with 20mg sublingually BID I think, but I'll have to look more in to that. I'm gonna read more of "MizTen"'s experiences, and judge a dose off of her experiences. 5 grams would give me 125 days... Yeah, on second thought, let me double/triple my order. If anything, I could always donate it to one of you if it turns out not to help me.

Yes but these products are already in the 20:1 ratio I believe, so I doubt there would be a product much higher than that. Otherwise, thank you nonetheless.

So I quit LED therapy after a few sessions. Not for adverse events, but seeming lack of immediate sufficient benefits (and it's quite the lengthy process once you get to the 90 secs/spot range), which I know is very impatient of me. Thus, I've decided to resume again with the attitude of "If it doesn't help, it won't hurt". Plan for now is to do 30 secs per spot full-skull every other day, and soon as I map my brain again I'll be doing 1 extra minute at F3, F4, Fp1, Fp3, O1, O2, Oz, and Iz. This in an attempt to save time (not that I don't have enough of that, but yeah). Idea is to have extra stimulation at frontal regions and occipital regions. I won't be able to attribute any benefits solely to LLLT (other plans in the making), but I figured I'll keep at it for 3 months and then have a week or 2 off to gauge responsiveness instead. Brain mapping guide

Yes RSHO is potent; I thought you were referring to regular hemp oil which contains no significant amount of CBD. Both Cibdex and CanChew are manufactured by the same company as RSHO, if I'm not mistaken.

You'd have to consume an insane amount of hemp to accomplish this I believe, moreover who knows how hemp products are processed without an eye for cannabinioid content.

It causes neurogenesis in the hippocampus (20% growth in mouse models I think), the hippocampus is very important not only for memory but for spacial navigation as well. Considering the putative shrinking effect of MDMA on the hippocampus (dunno bout other psychs), it may be very beneficial. Mind you, I've not given it much research to be honest, but at this points the anecdotes coming in are very promising (one virtually curing PTSD with it), so I think it'd be well worth the shot. Also, multiple people have reported an improvement in autobiographical memory, which I could only interpret as conducive to recovering from DP/DR. For further info I'd suggest reading the thread at Longecity though (noteworthy experiences start about here). As for PRL-8-53: No clue whatsoever. The MoA is very vague IMO.. Not going to play with that myself until a few months have passed and long-term use has been established as safe. W.r.t. dopamine potentiation.. not sure that's a legitimate term. I believe potentiation occurs at the receptor itself, thus dopamine cannot be potentiated but merely be more potent at a specific receptor, requiring less to elicit the same signal transduction as otherwise. Don't quote me on that though.

I took approximately ~50-70mg CBD via the Cibdex 500mg yesterday. I was expecting desperately needed anxiolysis as I've encountered before with the CanChew. Alas, nothing could be less true, for I felt like I might as well have smoked a joint (read "panic attack" and "feeling like I'm losing my mind (again)"). I reiterate that my situation has taken a turn for the worse ever since doing cocaine ~2 months ago, and I figured CBD would help alleviate the extreme anxiety I've been experiencing since; hopefully improving severe memory deficits too. Well, yesterday was hell for a few hours. Perhaps, given my heightened anxiety, I was more susceptible to placebo effect of sorts, but I definitely felt like I just smoked a big fatty (not good). Today, I'm still feeling more off than the more off than usual I've been feeling (yes, very confusing; worse than pre-CBD, better than during). Alternatively, and my only logical theory, is that the THC content in Cibdex is higher than the CanChew, but I've not found anything to confirm this. I really don't know why to be honest, but I responded completely 180 degrees differently to CBD than I've done previously. In any case I won't be taking this again in the near future, and continue my search to alleviate my current state to a point where I can at least leave the house again, for right now it seems like I've gone from goldfish to vegetable.