TheGman6072

So I am trying to be a strict weed-only stoner and I'm trying not to start doing other drugs again. I already quit LSD and diphenhydramine permanently and I'm hoping I can control myself from fucking myself up again

I do have the visuals and dp/dr but it helped a lot with that stuff. You should try buspirone

Update : so this buspirone makes me almost feel completely cured almost. I can smoke weed again and I even smoked k2 and I'm fine

I know one other person who got HPPD from spice but he also did other HPPD causing drugs

I wouldn't have smoked it if I knew but they told me after I already smoked it

Mr50's had buspirone prescribed to him and he was giving some of his to me at school before I got my own prescribed

Probably the buspirone protecting me from bad trips

So today I went to go smoke weed and this was the 3rd time I have smoked weed in the past few weeks. I had just smoked weed and got pretty stoned last week on Friday and it was pretty good. But today right after I smoked it, the kid I was with was like "broooo you just smoked k2!" and I actually enjoyed the trip. Idk what's going to happen to me tomorrow I am a little worried about this really fucking me up but I did enjoy my first time smoking synthetic weed

Ah

Why does everyone use the name "swim" ? Who the fuck is swim ?

Codeine was one of the best things ever. So was tramadol

Buspirone is a prescription and it is non addictive. I won't be smoking weed as often as I believe that just cuz this time was great, doesn't mean the next time will be great

The buspirone has worked so well in the past month ! It started out making me very sad for the first couple weeks but now it feels much better ! Still always feeling like my body is on autopilot but I'm happier and I have less anxiety when I'm on buspirone ! I smoked weed for the first time in 7 months last week and I was actually able to enjoy it again ! I got pretty stoned and it was very good weed plus I smoked a lot more than I used to. Me and my friend had a lot of fun when we were both high af and the high felt as great as it always used to before.

Actually, I'm done. I'm going to do what 50's told me and get off this website. I'm going to continue taking Buspirone and check back in here in a year from now. I'm going to be 18 in just 7 months and then shit will get real I need to beat dp/dr fast and he's right this website does cause problems trying to recover

Excersize, buspar and taking the mind off HPPD doesn't seem to work. For some reason I just want to isolate myself and not talk to anyone and just stay home all day. I am losing interest in everything in life and I can't find motivation for anything. This new school is such a dramatic change and I hate it ! I can't wait to go back to my old one. Is this a normal depersonalization thing or something else ? I'm starting to think there is more than just HPPD and dp/dr.

Is it normal for the bottom one to burn my eyes ?! ????

Visual, that's what texts look like when I trying to read lol

I will continue taking Buspirone for the next 6 months to a year but I don't feel like doing daily updates.

Sure helps to vent here and this is a place where many of us find new ways of recovery. Thanks for showing me this website cuz it is much easier to understand HPPD and dp now but being on here just causes me to get a little anxious. Good luck !

kinda hard to word it another way but one of my symptoms seems to be things "spreading" in different directions. I finally found a pic of what it looks like for me ! Only difference is that it doesn't move that fast. Hopefully the link works https://media.giphy.com/media/d2ZbxnD6YpUsYheU/giphy.gif

I forgot yet another dose ! I don't think I should let my mom be in charge of the pill bottle because she is already gone by the time I realize I didn't take the meds

I keep fighting the urge to trip or get high and I've been successful for several months but I keep getting asked "wanna smoke weed?" left and right

Today I can't remember if I took the buspar this morning or not. I think I might have forgotten to take it but my memory of this morning is so foggy right now

clearly I was not thinking clearly last night I was in a very happy mood with the Buspirone and plus I was up pretty damn late. I'm not going to do any drugs. I am really enjoying what it's like to feel a little normal again.

I'm planning on doing something very stupid tomorrow or Thursday. Hopefully taking the Buspar right after the trip will stop the bad stuff from happening after it is over