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but soda contains no caffeine..i was asking how you ingested the caffeine or does keppra also contain caffeine?

but before my onset i used alcohol on rare occasions and i already have had all of these feelings...you know...angry, aggressive, sad, euphoric, etc. but i never had no effect..so im not sure if thats all just genetic but youre partially right.

keppra has an opioid effect and many people report that opioids are negated or cause bad reactions when combined with caffeine...few people report that it boosts the opioid high...guess you are one of many people who get adverse reactions..its just not a good combination for the majority...maybe you should take less caffeine or as you said avoid the combination completely..how did you ingest the caffeine drinking a coffee or what?

caffeine feels great for me...but i dont drink coffee i drink green tea almost every day..but the expensive version...its nice

jay as you know i have anxiety issues and unfortunately alcohol never helped me i just felt a little more anxious or no change at all at low doses and when i drink more i will be guaranteed to freak out...kratom did the best job in low doses...people are different..im sure what substances have the ability of giving relief depends on what causes anxiety. for the individual (what leads to the fear),..for me its dizzyness and the thought that im losing control and go crazy.

granite im sure there is a natural solution...there are always several natural ways to help with different conditions the problem is we mostly dont know them cause the pharmaceutical industry is (and was always) doing a great job tellung us their chemicals are good for us and has no interest of heaing us its more about symptom suppression with bad and serious side effects..the question is, is this worth to destroy our health just for instant symptom relief if there is a way better solution out there?!..its your life im not judging. + dont forget that legal drugs have somehow always been the worst for health..how ironic beer is not only containing alcohol did you try a hop extract., maybe that was what helped you idk..or black cumin (seed) oil against the hives its expensive and widely unknown but very good for health in general.

i just cant understand how drinking is a way out of no matter what situation...ive found other drugs to be helpful which are not nearly that distructive or dont do harm at all...drinking or similar will do irreversible damage in the long run..im sorry for you, have fun.

that was not quite correct...i mean obsessing over it makes it worse..not just thinking...but it doesnt matter you know what im talking about and you dont remember?? are you serious..you always talk about having an appointment or getting meds or worsening of symptoms etc...thats not new for me, you started a bunch of topics about the more or less same things...best evidence is that i registered on hppdonline much earlier than you and you still have about a 100 posts more than me + not to forget how many topics you started i dont even come close to that. its not very useful..i mean do what you need to do..but its not my business anymore and i ask myself how long it takes that even no one else will take you serious anymore.

why are you telling us about it...i even ask myself why you are on this forum..what are your hopes from posting here...i just cant understand why you always post the same shit but never really take advice..it starts to be annoying slowly + symptoms are not likely to decrease when you constantly talk or think about them ...what is the sense in all this

just give yourself time...and dont try to treat it with chemicals..i always experienced worsening or bad reactions of even many different antidepressants...there is no miracle cure out there...just take your time and try to stay positive..it is possible to recover but it wont happen over night..and the reason why you never heard of people who recovered completely might be that most of them dont feel the need to write about it..they must be so happy about it that they dont think about it anymore and go on with their lifes, not spending any time on the internet to tell the others about it..i guess they dont want to be remembered to something they've always wanted to forget like dp/dr for example...which i understand very well

my hppd went away about 5 1/2 month ago...but still have to struggle with anxiety every now and then..now it feels like im always a little high of weed but when i had hppd it was extremely visual like everything was morphing and i always felt dizzy + i thought i lost my mind completely and forever these days the remaining rarely occuring anxiety seems to fade away very slowly but its getting better...im almost back to normal and so glad that i managed the worst of my life and everything ive ever heard of good luck to you...hang in there

ritalin is quite similar to speed but not as strong, as far as i know...so yes it is a stimulant..i wouldnt recommend it...btw.ritalin is not good for your health man...be careful with such chemicals

db123 im so glad for you...i hope you will beat it ..when i compare your situation to mine..im sure you will be cured one day..it took me about 4 1/2 month (i had it pretty bad, it was a true nightmare) to vipe away hppd and it started with the decrease of symptoms...sounds like your chances are good... so good luck man..get well

brandon i ask myself how long it takes for you to realize that you cant get happy with chemicals + you cant take them all the time nor treat your condition with them...its useless to rely on this shit...start doing something helpful finally instead of suppressing symptoms or plan suicide...again...you are still young dont waste your time or you might regret it some day.

jay is absolutely right no one knows what will happen to you if you do strong drugs again...or overdo weak drugs...i always loved and still love psychedelics too and i wish to do them once again...but as long as i dont feel comfortable with this idea i wont put my hands on them...the only advice i can give you is listen to yourself if you are not sure or even fear something could happen then youre in a bad predisposition and almost guaranteed to fall back...dont do it until you feel completely safe about it otherwise its not worth the risk.. after my onset of these fucking disorders i thought i would never touch even a cigarette again...but here i am even smoking small amounts of weed...even though i never forced myself into it..its a calling...i hope that one day ill be able to take psychedelics again or at least smoke as much weed as i want...able to enjoy it like on my old days without panic or similar issues...nevertheless im glad that i can take a wide variety of weak drugs in microdoses already remembering its good for saving money.. take care of what youre doing..

hey Tinbird...im german too...i had both panic disorder and hppd....my hppd is gone....the anxiety is still very rarely coming up but fading very slowly... im not sure if tinitus is a symptom of hppd since it is not mentioned in the dsm 4....but what i do know is that it is a symptom of anxiety..i know what im talking about cause when i was at my worst of anxiety i heard these voices very frequently i still have slight panic disorder and from time to time when im stressed i still hear some strange voices in my ear even though its gotten very rarely... i guess yours is fading over time..just dont give up. and this adrenaline rush you talk about is called a shockwave... it happens a lot to people with anxiety issues and all too often it leads to panic attacks depending on how strong the shockwaves are...dont obsess over this shit + take a break of all drugs, meditate and if you really feel anxious try a little valerian..it always helped me...good luck

it just caused me hppd due to an overdose and the fact that i did shrooms way too often for my last few times before hppd started so it was my fault...and its not that i still have hppd...its long gone..now drugs just give me panic and panic attacks when i exceed micro doses...but i dont get visuals or hppd back. well the reason i love them so much is due to the wonderful experiences, beautiful hallucinations, views into completely different dimensions and incredibly deep insights they gave me..i didnt ever use psychedelics as a recreational drug...in fact they have never been drugs for me..they were tools for expanding and understanding what is consciousness...i realized that these substances can be used to reach perfection in all areas of life...and only used them with shamanic motives behind me...until i made that mistake one day where i confused a 4g with an 8g bag of psylocybin mushrooms..i wasnt ready for that.

my times on lsd were also great...in fact i miss all the psychedelics and other drugs i did every now and then...i know psychedelics are not for everyday not even week but we never expected a punishment like triggering permanent mental illnes ... what did we do to deserve this shit...there must be a way out...even these days no one knows what hppd/dp/dr really is... i was always wondering how a shaman explains hppd/dp/dr...and what they would do about it...maybe the cure is just something like a change in specific behavior patterns and then you go back to normal..who knows

i love all the psychedelics (psilocybin, lsd, lsa, mescaline, salvia, dmt)...i have panic disorder and aquired it by an overdose of mushrooms..but i wont panic when i see mushrooms or any other drug...especially psychedelics remember me on the most beautyful and fascinating times i had in my life...i can only love them

as i realized my dp/dr was only getting better after my first few long breaks of anxiety,,,means that you need long times without anxiety and dp/dr goes down. in fact it took me a while to significantly decrease dp/dr...these days i only get dp/dr when i take drugs and that is still very slowly improving...just avoid drugs cause they often lead to anxiety and that increases dp/dr again..give yourself a break of every stress as long as possible.

feeling stoned is something i still experience with my remaining anxiety disorder...it might be related to exhaustion from anxiety or worry just as dp/dr is..i dont know exactly but i think its good or at least better than freaking out since its kind of relaxing

my psychiatrist told me this kind of medicine doesnt exist...it has to be invented and she also said that it might be dangerous to switch off the adrenal glands.. btw. benzos or opiates are not working like this...they dont stop the release of adrenaline..they just negate its effect to a passable extent.

hey whats up guys.. i have an improtant question...are there any adrenaline inhibitors out there..do they exist???

of course...

are you telling me i shouldnt use alcohol or other drugs to treat or cover up symptoms?!...you cant be serious!..thats not what it was about...brandon will use it no matter what we say, he was just looking for a way to come to terms with hppd/dp/dr even though almost everyone here (including me) told him already not to replace medication with drugs and the risks...so i just gave advice how to do it better...but i didnt recommend him to do so....in the end its his dicision