Missjess

I'm so sorry to hear that...that sounds like a flashback to me although I'm not rlly a hppd expert but it's just wat I gathered after reading ur story. I would stay away from all hallucinogenic type drugs...in fact it's possible all types of drugs cud set that flashback off. Can you go clean for 3-6 months and take lots of brain supplements etc that's what I would do

Hi jay...I can totally relate to u about ur wedding day!!!!! Although I didn't have hppd back then it was a few weeks after my horrific time in hospital with Iboga and I was still learning about all these new fuked up brain symptoms I also had dp on my wedding day it was totally fuking horrible I just wanted the day to end!!! Urs sounds fuking awfull too

Well I know I won't build self esteem with hppd that's just me. My self esteem will come back a bit when I don't have this shit anymore. It really does suck this situation is totally fuked beyond belief

Shit !!! That sounds awfull u reall have all those symptoms !??? I can relate to many of what u have aswel except a few. How depressing

Visual I'm curious...have u had full blown hppd? I would like to know more about full blown hppd from anyone who has had it...what were all the symptoms and what was it like ??

You can buy lamictal here: http://goldpharma.com/search/Lamictal/lang/ENGLISH/ I tried that brand in Brazil, it's a top brand but also a strong brand...start with half of the starting dose. It was great for depression and mood stabilizing for myself but unfortunately made my hppd worse It works for others tho! It may work for u

What if u can't enjoy life again coz ur too disconnected from hppd ? Now that's a problem

well I am interested in doing it then its just a matter of funds for me.

so do I because its a complete joke. hppd in my opinion is a form of chemical brain damage

hey guys, I recently flew back home from Brazil...and on my last flight I felt a feeling of intoxication like the air didnt feel clean enough and I wasent getting enough air, also I experienced heart palpitations & shaking, and just a general feeling of being unwell. So fast forward 2 weeks and I still experience some of these symptoms on and off Im really worried it may trigger my hppd to get fuking worse again...bcoz to me my hppd is also a form of chemical brain damage which has made me super sensitive to every single toxin out there. So my question is has anyone else experienced this whilst having hppd? did you get through it and did it make ur hppd worse? Im thinking of going to get colon therapy and detox starting from tomorrow to try to clean out toxins...I wonder if that may help for hppd also? seriously tho FUCK THIS SHIT ....do we need to be fuking careful about everything?? im so over this horrific nightmare of a disorder!!! I hope my hppd doesnt reverse back to what it fuking was

I'd be interested to be in the study however I don't have $99 to get the test kit as I cannot work and am broke The only other thing that concerns me is, seeing as many of us have gotten hppd from all different kinds of drugs which may alter different pathways in the brain etc not sure how we could all share similar mutations u know..

I would like to say something. Just because there are specific hppd symptoms in a diagnostic criteria does not mean ur not suffering with hppd if u don't have the same symptoms. I believe if you experience anything visually strange after taking a hallucinogenic then it's hppd. And what u said sounds like a visual problem from taking LSD.

Hey! I can totally relate to u...that fuking disgusts me about the doctors u went to see!! This is why I don't wana see a doctor myself! I don't wana have to go thru all that fkn shit no thank u!! I avoid ppl and lay around all day too...I can't fuking connect to jack shit. I have noticed small improvements tho from being in Brazil. I will have to return again tho multiple times I think but I'm hoping that he can cure me coz he said I could, I just gotta be patient! Did u try lamictal or keppra from the goldpharma site?? Fuk the docs! If u want to talk feel free to msg me xxx

I'm just curious to know why this is not a recognised disorder by medical professionals and psychiatrists? It's apparently been around for decades and yet we still have to bring information to our doctors explains to them what it is! And then them telling us we are crazy. Some of us need to get disability because of this disorder ...but how do we do that exactly? It's really horrible. There needs to be recognition of this disorder and it needs to be accepted and a legitimate brain dysfunction because that's what it is. What do u guys think or know about hppd getting out there more?

Hey, I just thought I would make a post about how hppd can come in different types, I read that there are 3 types of hallucinogens: Dissociatives, Psychedelics & deliriants. The following is some information about them.. What Are Hallucinogens? To be general, hallucinogens are psychoactive drugs that produce altered perceptions or ways of thinking and feeling when taken. To be specific, hallucinogens can be broken down into three types including dissociatives, psychedelics and deliriants. What Are Common Types of Hallucinogens? Dissociatives Dissociatives are a type of hallucinogen that work by creating sensory deprivation in the brain so that the mind creates its own perceptions without the interference of actual external stimuli. Examples of dissociatives include PCP, DXM, magic mushrooms and ketamine or Special K as it is often referred to on the streets. Psychedelics Psychedelic drugs alter the way you perceive the world around you and are said to expand the mind-that is, turn off your brain's selective perception function and allow you to perceive everything around you. Examples include LSD, mescaline and peyote. Deliriants Unlike the two aforementioned types of hallucinogens, deliriants are actual hallucinogens in that they produce completely false perceptions that aren't based in reality. Examples include mandrake, deadly nightshade (commonly known as Atropa belladonna) and some medications like Benadryl and Dramamine when taken in high doses. As you can see, each hallucinogen affects the brain on different ways and produces a different affect of hallucinations and disconnect from reality. This is why I believe that there will never be 1 type of cure for hppd. Of you got hppd from a dissociative (like me) your more likely to have sensory anesthesia/deprivation affect and full on dissociative distortions in reality plus hallucinations. In psychedelic hppd the hallucinations work only by turning off ur brains selective perception so it expands ur mind, again that is very different to a dissociative trip. Anyways that's my little input and thoughts about hppd. There is never going to be a same set of symptoms for everyone, generally I see people coming onto this forum who got hppd from LSD, or ecstasy or mushrooms. I have not encountered many that have taken a dissociative hallucinogenic.

Hi jimmy, Yes I do...it's from a hallucinogen and I have perceptual distortions. It's deff a perception disorder. Not all hppd is the same, only me and solveig got hppd from Iboga. And yes it does seem different then the normal typical style of hppd. Iboga is some serious fuked up drug. Some symptoms I have do fit in with the normal hppd like seeing intensified hues and colours looking more bright etc, Depersonalization, dissociation. Things looking like they merge & mix together. I did have slight star bursting when it first got triggered. Anything that alters ur perception and is caused by a hallucinogen is hppd. I have been told I will be healed in Brazil so that is my only hope I will just keep coming back until I'm fixed I guess

What's for benzos ? Y do u drink then? Doesn't it gets worse with alcohol like it makes hppd more severe ?

I'm surprised u guys can drink a beer!! If I have a drop of alcohol I'm fuked and things become even more distorted and dissociated

Ok and that's a rlly small dose?

Same!!!! How unlucky we are! It's not fair Hppd33 tell me how does ur hppd disconnect u so much? I'd like to compare our symptoms if u don't mind.

My hppd stops me from being able to connect altogether so I'd rather not be cold and selfish to a partner until I can get healed from this.

What does 1/16 look like??

I don't need an anti anxiety medication...benzos just fuk me up anyways and make me feel worse. I can't take any medication I honestly judt think I have brain damage in the sensory processing area.

I deff do believe that her and I have a different form of hppd then the norm but it's still the same shit just different symptoms. I already had dp before I got this I think it made my dp into something horrific like 10 times worse I'm not sure, but I also have the visual perception disortions like no depth perception, hues and colours are intensified and bright, body distortions and honestly some sensory processing dysfunction. I experienced slight starbursting and balance issues when hppd first got triggered. No after images, trailing or visual snow. What is ghosting?

I found this article: http://www.webmd.com/parenting/sensory-processing-disorder I have every symptom on that list after Iboga use, it's obvious that hppd is more then just a chemical imbalance problem for me anyways. I cannot sense my limbs in space or time. I hope this can be fixed seriously as I am finding it rlly difficult to function normally anymore. Please god heal my brain