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^I think time is the cure for everyone, if you were doing better and caffeine made it worse, then you exaggerated it for 8 years, which is a long time. I think only time will heal it and after 8 years of exaggerating it, it could take many months to who knows, maybe a few years. I honestly think being 100% clean and time will heal it. Medicine just helps us get through it but it could in the long run make it worse for some of us or make some of us unable to get off the medicine. I would avoid caffeine because there is that possibility that caffeine effects you, give it time stay away from caffeine and other drugs, 24 years is a long time to have this crap I wish you the best sir!

Idk what it was from but Alpha-GPC scares me now lol, I took a capsule apart and took 100mg today and I am fine!

I got a few buddies who do steroids, I use to but it has been a lot of years ago. So here is some advise. Shooting up is fairly easy and after you do it a few times it doesn't bother you, I could never do it to myself as I hate needles, having someone else do it makes it easier. Always clean the top of your bottle before and after use. If you open up a needle and drop it, toss it. My buddy caught a infection like this. Buttocks, inner thighs and arms. If it is just like 2 shoots a week I would just go with buttocks. Always clean the area you are going to inject. You don't really have to do this but you can just to make sure you aren't in a vein, which is damn near impossible but purge your needle back to make sure no blood goes in. I can't remember what size needle is used, it depends on what you are putting in really, but it is either a 20 or 22 gauge and 1 inch thick I believe. That is about it for injecting, just be very clean, clean everything 2-3 times or you can get a infection. My buddy when he got a infection had a big lump deep in his buttock and couldn't sit down lol. To be honest, you are going to hate shooting up 5 times a week and 5-10cc is a shit ton, it gets old really fast. I would start off 3 times a week for 8 weeks or so. You can do 4 shoots, I would do each buttock and each inner thigh, I really hate sticking crap in my arms. But regardless you will get tired of sticking yourself more then 3 times a week which I still didn't like, I like the 2x a week stuff lol. I am guessing, and this is on a hunch, since it can take 1-20 days to take effect that means it has to build up in your blood, does this mean that after your last shot it will stay in your system for up to 20 days like most steroids do? I will do some research on this when I get back.

Has anyone experienced anything odd on Alpha-GPC? It has passed now and the last symptom was it felt like the world was tilting and was hard to walk. I did drink for the first time in a while last night and did about half a gram of some cocaine, I haven't used in months and after that I decided not to drink for a long long long time since it just makes me crave for things that I normally don't crave for anymore. Could this have caused it? I got my son tomorrow and sunday and don't want to take the Alpha-GPC while I got him just in case this happens again. Any information on Alpha-GPC would be appreciated. Thank you

Valerian root is natures Valium. No joke

I think this is common when people use stimulants like mdma, cocaine or meth. Even lesser stimulants can have this effect to me or a lack of sleep. Throwing that out there.

You need to be 18 to order kratom and it is legal, you don't have to sign for it. As far as a site goes for I can't really recommend one because I haven't found a site I am satisfied with but have been doing research and I got it narrowed down to 2 so pm me if you need. I am going to give these 2 sites I am interested in a try and if I am not satisfied I will buy the best UEI kratom money can buy just to see if it is me or what. I have read it is comparable to 10-20 mg hydrocodone when you do like 10 grams. I use to take 60 mg hydrocodone a day for 2 years and 8 mg of subutex for 6 months and then 2 mg for another 6 months buy have been clean for over 4 months, was clean for 3 months when I started kratom but when you got a tolerance it really don't go away for a while so this could be why it doesn't do much. I have taken 5g 15x extract and 15 grams on top of that and wasn't really good, also I wasn't looking to get high I was looking for the mind altering effect hydrocodone gave me which kratom so far just seems to make me feel a little speedy with very very little mind altering. 20mg hydrocodone 3x a day would have me motivated and doing what I was suppose to. I will probably buy some poppy seeds and make a very weak tea to take with kratom. To be honest you are 15 years old, you got school you should be trying to focus on, I mean I am for it most the time when something helps someone but you don't want to fry your brain and get addicted to something it isn't fun(even though imo kratom isn't addictive and the people who say it is need to try a hard opiate addiction like oxys or hydros, a benzo addiction, meth or coke. People who haven't really dealt with hard addictions can find kratom addictive, although it can be mentally addictive imo it is a walk in the park compared to other stuff.) But whatever the case I know how hard it can be to be young and not happy or feeling right, I got my GED when I was 15 and just said screw school, so this might be something you need to talk to a parent about and if you understand what you are getting into and they agree then go for it, but don't get behind their back it isn't a cheap habit 100-200 a month unless you are one of the lucky few who gets away with 2 grams and feel like you are on top of the world. Blah sorry for the long run together essay I just wrote I feel like crap and my first dose of Alpha-GPC kind of threw me off today if you need more information or help shoot me a pm. will be glad to answer your questions the best I can and how to bring something up to your parents. I had to break a lot of news to my folks and had to get their help plenty of times.

I just took my first dose of Alpha-GPC and I am burning up, brain fog, it is a struggle to write this, my hands are shaking, I feel a little off balance, gassy, I just feel over all like shit. I took 300mg and is very stimulating physically and mentally. Can someone school me on this? How long will this last? If I continue to take will these side effects fade? Does tolerance build to this? Should I have bought a different product? Should I avoid any other supplements while taking this? Any help would be fine. I read a lot of great stuff about it but not enough I guess. It is very hard to do anything right now as I am burning up pretty a little bit and just feel like crap. Thank you

Here will be a little log if someone wants to follow Will be starting PRL-8-53 tomorrow. A list of a few things I will be taking with it. 1: Multivitamin 4: 7g Kratom 2: 3g fish oil 3g flaxseed oil 5: 1.5g Gabapentin+ - going up in dose until around 3g until I get insurance to get Lyrica 3: 300mg Aplha-GPC 6: Lutein and Zeaxanthin A list of what I will be adding to the mixture 1: Kanna 50mg 1x to 2x -3 to 4 days in 3: Agmatine 500mg at once or 250mg 2x a day - 2 to 5 days in 2: Picamion 150mg -2 to 3 days in 4: Phenylpiracetam 50mg once - 2 to 4 days in 5: Maral root 1 teaspoon 2x a day - 2 to 4 days in These are just rough estimates, I will adjust accordingly and could be longer before I start some of these or sooner. As you can see I don't take high dosages, I do them in a pretty low dosage but I've learned to enjoy the subtle effects. I think in return my body will learn to enjoy subtle effects and in the long run will be more rewarding vs burning myself out. Also some of these I may scrap if I don't notice a difference or I think they are causing adverse effects. My plan is to start the PRL-8-53 tomorrow morning, roughly 5mg give or take 2mg and see how that day rides out. If nothing terrible goes wrong I will then try 5mg in the morning and afternoon 2x a day the following day. I will probably keep my dosage at this for a while and in a week from tomorrow I will try 10mg 1x a day to see which is better. Testing: I will be testing it everything on this but my main focus is on its memory enhancing properties, but I will surely note any other positive as well as negative effects. 1: I generally put things down and forget where I have put them e.g. losing my keys, forgetting where I laid the remote down etc. etc 2: The ability to recall information. I have a problem recalling information. I am going to relate this closely to work e.g. I may have done something 1000 times but if I haven't done it for a while I can't recall the information but once I get back in the routine it comes back to me. So I want to see if this will help with not just recalling information but retaining too. 3: I will see if I recall any memories from my past that maybe I thought I wouldn't remember. 4: The speed it takes to recall information e.g. when I have to remember what I did a day ago I have to think about it, I want to see if it helps to recall information on the spot. 5: Remember to do things e.g. turn lights off, pick up a specific item from store that my mom needed etc. etc. 6: Long and short term memory just in general. I will be checking for improvements in memory every way I can. I will also be testing for positive and negative effects on 1: Mood 2: Motivation 3: Anxiety 4: Dp/dr 5: HPPD 6: Energy levels Well this is just a template and it is based on PRL-8-53, I will give this a try for sometime. I wanted to do this based on PRL because memory is one of my biggest problems now. I can say though so far Kanna, Kratom, Picamilon and Phenylpiracetam have helped me to some extent. I just got my Maral root in today which I haven't used and used Agmatine twice which has given me some energy but haven't used long enough. Gabapentin works but only so much which is very much at all, I would really love to get Lyrica but isn't going to happen anytime soon. I will be reporting back all finds and changes once in awhile for people interested. Thank you

Well if anyone is in the Dallas, Tx area I got 2 good doctors and a good Psychiatrist. Shoot me a pm.

Tired of seeing a lot of people not getting the help they want/need. I don't know if it is against rules or shouldn't be done but was wondering if we could post our locations and Doctors/Psychiatrist etc. etc. names and locations that have helped us out to give people on here struggling to get help a hand if they happen to be in that location. It would be better for people to get help this way rather then ordering the stuff online or wherever. Just a thought, was tough for me to find the right Doctor and took years but I got a great one now and wish everyone could have a great Doctor. Thank you

Rhodiola Rhodesia is a MAOI I believe, was going to order some from a website and I think that is what it said just for a heads up. Ginkgo Biloba can take awhile to feel its effects, could take a few weeks to months, need to be taking this in grams too. Look up Siberian Ginseng, it is better(from what I have read) for long term use of increasing norepinephrine. Great news! Keep the updates coming!

My buddy does, he takes xanax and metoprolol, he like it but he does have high blood pressure.

I hate when people can't get Keppra it is just wrong IMO. I really think we need a thread on where people go for their prescriptions so people with this problem can get help. I know of doctors in Dallas, TX if anyone is out this way. My doctor will give you just about anything(other than opiates) as long as you are serious and don't abuse your meds. He is willing to help and listen and is good for folks without insurance, 50 bucks! Other doctors charged me 80 bucks and 120 for the first visit! Before I go to a doctors I try my best to research them. I found a psychiatrist my old doctor referred me to and he seen me for free 3 times and gave me my valiums at the time, continues to talk with me on the phone if needed and I got a total of 6 months of valiums from him, awesome dude! If I was you I would call him up once a week and bug the crap out of him, keep pushing Keppra over the phone, it is not right to make you suffer and have to keep paying him for nothing. I find this breaks a lot of doctors when you just call them and bug the shit out of them, they will make you get another appointment of course but it will be a appointment to get your stuff lol. Good luck! And tell him you aren't interested in his theories that isn't what you went to see and pay him for you want hard stone cold facts and Keppra is proven to help a ton of people, I would demand he give this to you because there should be no problem with you taking it under his supervision.

Yes I smoke 32 mg lol shit is way more nicotine then a real cig and I go through 30 ml in 2 weeks. I would smoke that as least as you can because you never know when you might feel the urge to say "well I will just get the 8 mg stuff it isn't much and it isn't a cigarette" and the next thing you know you are easily hooked again. Have had many of these so called "worse addictions in the world" problems and I beat all them, nicotine is one I just haven't been able to yet.

I wouldn't see a problem with it as Keppra is just a racetam. It would be like the pharmaceutical companies putting a brand name on Piracetam and calling it whatever then Piracetam would be the generic. But then again I know generics have a lower standard they have to meet, I think it is like 80%, so for example some generic hydrocodones that are 10 mg could be 8 mg and binders and fillers do effect the meds IMO because I have noticed difference in meds such as Adderall and Hydrocodone from one company to the next. My generic Subutex 8 mg were super small pills but my name brand Subutex 8 mg were fucking huge as hell and were better that confused the hell out of me lol.

I don't know what this is probably would just call it zoning out. I get this too but it is caused by me it doesn't happen on its own unless I just let my eyes relax and kind of zone out and I usually get tunnel vision or a crossed eye felling. I can also see shit sometimes when I do this but very minor, like shadows move or something. Look at your wall when your room is fairly dark with just some light like from outside and just zone out at the wall. This doesn't happen to me much now and in fact now that I think about it I haven't noticed it since my CEVs went away a week and a half ago. But I wouldn't think it has anything to do with blindness, I could stare at a wall or whatever and all light would sink out of a fairly dark room and it would go back, this was self inflicted though it wouldn't happen unless I made it happen.

Yes, my doctor told me I could take this like candy if I wanted to, his words not mine lol. Me personally, I liked it the first time I took it, kind of like Gabapentin, but didn't really do squat the next day. I would use once a week due to this. I don't know how to fight low blood pressure, drink a beer? lol idk. But it is good for anxiety for a lot of people esp if you have high blood pressure it will fix you right up most the time.

Right, the only thing is everything is so damn detailed and I hate the fact that everything looks to real. Think about the first time you seen like a HD blueray movie compared to just standard t.v. idk about you but to me it looked weird kind of like peoples motions were like robots if that makes sense. It is like my vision is a constant HD blueray movie that I never get use to and no it doesn't make my sight better or sharper. My vision also goes blurry when I stare at something for more then a few seconds, this idk what it is caused by xanax has made it gone away and so has hydrocodones and oxys but nothing else and since I don't take anything any more my vision gets blurry when I look at something(I tend to zone out sometimes >.<.) Also eye floaters up the ying-yang. And it isn't a single eye floater I might have 3 in my field of view going all the way from left to right, right to left, up and down, down to up. This also happens all day and I tend to rub my eyes a lot because of it(which does nothing.) The only thing that seems to help me is beer which it doesn't do anything for my symptoms just makes me not care which in return I don't notice. One other thing, since my symptoms have started my hands have been shaking, sometimes it is little and sometimes it is a lot. This is not anxiety because I have been completely anxiety free, from the use of drugs like benzos and opiates etc, etc, and they still do it. Kind of ruined my soldering career which I was good at and nothing seems to help with that. But whatever the case is I will be trying everything I can to get rid of these symptoms, I am the kind of person that will try something most people may not lol. So hopefully I find something fast, won't be a cure but sure the hell looking for relief!

Yeah idk wth it is. It feels like dp/dr without the dreamy feeling? I'm not to sure but whatever it is it is the root of most my anxiety and dp/dr. Hell it could even be dp/dr just not as intense but I couldn't imagine dp/dr being 24/7 you know from the time I open my eyes to the time I close them. I think this is one symptom I am going to have to learn with. With hydrocodones it made it a lot easier because I really didn't give a damn and was always cheerful but as the months of sobriety pile up the more I notice it and the more it affects me.

I don't think it is dp/dr, I was thinking it was photophobia but now I don't. I have had dp/dr and that is why I don't think it is that. It is a constant symptom, it is like everything is bright and very detailed and gets bad then good, anything from weather to mood or migraines can make it worse. It has also at many times made my dp/dr real bad because everything can sometimes look to real if that makes sense. The best way to explain it is like I am high on weed all day just visually. I also get tunnel vision sometimes and at others it is like I can see the whole damn world and is to much to take in.

Yes it greatly increases my dp/dr even though I haven't smoked in half a year or so and when I did it was only a hit or two of low quailty stuff. I haven't smoked any high end in over a year just because it would put me in a bad state for a few days to a few weeks. It could be different now since I am doing a bit better but I don't dare to try. I still ponder about eating it, obviously you wont get high but I wonder if it would do anything as far as getting CBD with no THC, I don't even know if that theory makes sense lol. Can anyone tell me about this idea or should I just trash it.

How did it go? Punch anyone in the face today? Hope it works out for you! 500 mg sounds like a lot to start on, I myself have never tried it but have read about it and agree with Sabzi, take it easy or you might get side effects and they might make you not want to take it anymore when in reality you just haven't given it time to warm up.

If you don't mind, what are you experiencing? And what do you hope to gain?

Maybe a good resell? Maybe some profit to be made.