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Just ingested 30mg, I haven't been following a tight program with 2 times I had to skip on the PRL and both those times also causing a relapse in my progress. Think I am going to blow through the rest of my PRL since I only bought half a gram, will do high dosages. Will report back later with results, if any! Happy Turkey Day Gergagagalgglglaglalalggal, The real noise a turkey makes!

I have been sleeping 8 hours now compared to 5-6 hours I use to sleep. I liked sleeping 5-6 hours better. I ran across something one day that said your dopamine or serotonin levels, possibly both I can't remember, increase when you sleep less or are sleep deprived. So maybe sleeping 8 hours for me is to much, I need it but my brain works better on 5-6. Who knew! That article could of been full of crap though I am not sure, never read much into it.

It just makes my dp/dr pretty bad for that day and somewhat worse the next day. But I am high so hell I really don't care about the dp/dr at the time, being in a car driving while on coke and your dp/dr is bad at night is pretty tough though. It is like you are driving in a dream while being high, to me, it literally feels like a video game and I am not driving but the earth is moving and I control that if that makes sense lol. Kind of like being at the arcade playing a racing game and you just sit in the screen and look at the screen that is how it gets. I usually have this but is WAY worse on coke.

It depends on the person, benzos can cause anxiety too believe it or not. Most people who get anxiety from Kanna are people who took way to much and were trying to get high on it rather then let it do its subtle effects. Weed causes anxiety for some people while others it relieves it, for me it throws me into a full blown panic attack. Also with the use of benzos, if you start using them more then once a week or 2 they can cause anxiety when you are off of them, like going through withdrawals just not withdrawals. You need to really talk to your doctor and mom about this, unless you want them to keep giving you ssris or some shit, really you are wasting your time, your moms and the doctors. It sucks telling people this, in fact my mom and I were just talking more about me, but you will never get the help you need unless you tell them the truth, part of growing up. Other then that you just look like a kid who wants drugs which is what most doctors see and deal with. See if you can get Gabapentin, I would always recommend that over Lyrica for first time users because if you can get by with Gabapentin instead you are better off as it is not addictive like Lyrica but anything can become habit forming. Really you have to experiment with things, that is what I am currently doing, what might work for me might not work for you. What are your main problems mentally? Anxiety, depression, dp/dr a mixture of everything? What is it that is really bothering you and I can try to help you out a bit more. For me my biggest problems are anxiety, motivation and cognitive problems, I have ADHD too which led me to be a pretty mean person sometimes but I have gotten a hold of that and don't explode so to speak anymore, I use to always be on pins and needles but learned to work through it.

I drink and do coke when I see my friends. Sometimes you got to cut loose certain people. You are more important then your friends, might sound retarded but it is the truth. I myself am having to cut ties with some friends right now until I can get myself under control.

There isn't much information on it. I am studying its effects on myself without knowing much about it although it seems safe. It is suppose to help with your memory, how I am not sure. As you are a teenager my best advice is to, and this part sucks, wait. You are still going through changes and at this point in your life you don't want to do anymore damage. You are either going to be looking back 5 years from now saying "Yeah, he was right glad I took his advice" or possibly "Damn I am fucked I should have taken his advice". Lol just saying I was your age before and wish I listened to the people around me. PM me what you are going through and what drugs have you used, I can help point you in the right direction but for the better part of me I can't help you get anything I wouldn't give my own child. I can help you out with some stuff and it is something you need to talk to your parents about. Mine have been a big support for me and I would of never thought they would, I am now getting back on my feet because of them. But send me a private message of what is going on with you, visuals, mentality and just the whole works and we will see if we can find a more natural or a better well known nootropic that can help you out. Ultimately still, I can't give you sites and tell you yeah take this and this, you will need to speak with your parents and say "I was told about this, have done my research, I really want to try this and that" and present them your findings and express yourself. Thank you

Has anyone ever tried valerian extract in the liquid form? I wonder how that works. Kava is suppose to be another good one and for me I like Kanna. Mr.50 you can get bezos, as far as I know, at any age. They prescribe 4 year olds speed so I don't see why they wouldn't give someone a benzo though I could be wrong. You do not want to get on benzos either. If you are on insurance get Lyrica, I myself haven't tried it but I take Gabapentin which is like Lyrica, Lyrica is just suppose to be 10x better. IMO Gabapentin has been a big savior I am just waiting to get a job and some insurance so I can get on Lyrica. I quit a 30mg daily use of valium, was on it for 2 years with Gabapentin. I would also drink white grapefruit juice daily so it was like I was really on 45mg of valium.

Yes sir, one factor for me is weather! It sucks when you are having a good day and for me at least I am always expecting the next day to be bad lol. I do think a lot of it is brought on mentally.

Yeah I don't take pills or anything, although I did order some poppy seeds lol, which come in today *joy* but I only plan on using 50 grams to make my tea vs half a pound or so. I am not using it to get high or even feel its effects. Just the psychoactive properties which can be achieved without getting high. For example I was on a decent amount of hydrocodones, 60mg is a lot to people, but I was only taking 20mg 3x a day to equal that 60. I was never getting high off them in fact it would take 30 pills and a dead liver later to get high from them if I wanted to. I just hope the poppy seed tea doesn't set me back real far it is like playing with fire. I know once you are in the state of PAWS(post acute withdrawal symptom) which follows months to years after quitting the use of a substance after long term use even one usage can set you back damn near close to step one as far as receptor healing goes. I think this could be the case with HPPD too. The best way to recover is avoid all drugs that includes caffeine, nicotine, beer and all that other stuff. Who knows what is wrong with our brains, it could be at the receptor level and even into one year of healing something you do can set you back to square one and it only takes one or a few times to do this. I just plan on using the poppy seed tea in conjunction with my Kratom to boost each others effects. Really I don't care about my visuals when I am under the influence, they are still there in my face but just not caring about them really reduces it since I am giving no attention. I did coke again! Last night, need to just not go out anymore. It is a real set back this is my second time in less then 7 days and I can really feel the impact it has put on me both visually and mentally. Really agitates my dp/dr. Sorry this is all thrown together sloppy, like I said the set back I had last night has me off my game. Thank you, Andrew

Nothing to report today, same effects as yesterday, did go out looking for a job and felt pretty calm and good when I did. Tomorrow I am going to do a attack dosage of 20mg 2x. If I feel I can go up the following day I will try 30mg 2x that day. After that drop down to 5-8mg 2x a day or adjust accordingly. Pray I don't die lol IN THE NAME OF SCIENCE!

If you don't want to read this whole thing I don't blame you, although I do have a lot of questions here and this is quiet long, one of my main questions is in the last paragraph. So if you could please read that and give me your thoughts that would be nice. Thank you Ok, I know this isn't the best site to ask this question but I like to stick with my community. I was a long time opioid user. Around 2 years of 60mg daily hydrocodone, 20mg 3x a day. I was also on the Suboxone program(I used Subutex, Suboxone made me a jerk) for around 8 months and this was the last 8 months of using opioids. Subutex(same main active chemical as what is in Suboxone) from what I have read is 40-70x stronger then Morphine but Subutex has a ceiling effect. So I was taking 12mg a day for a month, dropped to 8mg a day the next month and then went to 2mg a month for the remaining months minus a few weeks of using 1mg to half a mg. Ok that is the first part which will mean something here soon. Ok now the part that confuses me. Supposedly your brain creates more opioid receptors over time of using opioids. Supposedly your receptors get dense. Supposedly you deplete your brains natural chemicals, endorphins in the case from what I have gathered. Ok now this is a lot of "supposedly's", my Doctor told me your brain does produce its natural endorphins that this is a misconception and it is the receptor itself that is damaged. I and everyone here can safely say you do damage your receptor. But what here is true and what isn't or in some sense is it all true. Does your brain really create more receptors and you have to give it time for it to deplete those receptors until it is back to your normal amount? Or do you have one receptor that is totally damaged and dense that it can't absorb its natural endorphins? Is your brain even producing its natural amount endorphins? I could ask more questions but you see where I am going with this and what I am asking lol. Ok so now back to Subutex. How in the world is Subutex suppose to help you. It is in fact, a opioid and if you research it, it is one powerful opioid that strongly binds to your receptor(s). How is it possible that this down regulates your receptor without throwing you in WD(I think that is how it works, down regulates?). So I was on the Subutex program, which is a total gimmick, harder to get off of then any opioid, Gabapentin or Lyrica should be used instead IMO, and if I was to assume the "Doctors" who prescribe this crap are correct, I should be back to baseline or just about. I used Subutex for 8 months and was off of opioids for 2 months, used Tramadol at 150-300mg for 2 weeks after them 2 months, didn't use any other opioids for another month and now have been using Kratom for a month. I do not believe my receptors are healed or even close to being healed, I truly think Subutex does nothing and in fact may be worse. I have used Hydrocodone twice since being off Subutex, months being off of it. One time a weak 15mg, did nothing, another time 30mg, felt it a little bit. Now I am not looking to get high I was looking for a mood-lift, motivation and anxiety relief, which I could use to get off of 20mg and now can't get. I want to start with Kratom is not a opiate, it is a opioid, in the terms that it binds to the opioid receptor. Not all opioids are opiates. I also take Agmatine which is suppose to potentate opioids, stop or slow down tolerance and regulate the opioid receptor. I think I read it right, can someone confirm this? http://www.mindandmuscle.net/forum/27326-agmatine-opiate-tolerance http://examine.com/supplements/Agmatine/ Ok, now I am using Kratom and I mean I have to put down 3 tablespoons, not teaspoons, tablespoons, to get any kind of lift and it is very mild. I think this is because my receptors are just messed up. Here is my BIG QUESTION, I REALLY NEED HELP HERE. Since Kratom is a very mild opioid and hardly binds, will using this allow my receptors to heal, obviously not as fast as if I just took no opioids, but will it allow my receptors to come back to a better state so to speak. I really want the effects a lot of people get from Kratom. Opioids, in particular Hydrocodone, just give me that motivation to go out there and do it, it takes my mind off what I see and feel and I feel happy, it may not be how some people would want to live but I want to be happy and motivated like everyone else so if it works for me why not. So bottom line, is Kratom doing more damage or is it just slowing down the healing process of my receptors. Do you think in the long run if I continue to take Kratom, lower my dose for 3 tablespoons to 1 tablespoon, I might start feeling its effects down the road? Any thoughts or advice on this will be greatly appreciated. And to the people who took the time to read this I really appreciate your help and caring, feel free to PM me any time if you ever need help, if I can't find the answer for you I will try my best to get someone who can. Again, any advice, any help, you don't have to know facts even a thought would be great help. Thank you, Andrew

This happened the day my HPPD formed, also my HPPD happened at once not over time. This is a pretty loud rolling thunder noise nothing quiet. It also feels like my eardrums vibrate when it happens. If this was happening before HPPD I would have to be deaf lol. It isn't a big problem or anything and the weird thing is it doesn't happen when I first wake up. So I'm guessing it is my eardrums stretching like you said? The other weird thing is this knot I got on the right side of my neck the same day, it hurt at first a little bit and seemed to pulse and get small or big in size. My doctor says it is a cyst, it is under the skin you can't even see it. I might just have him stick it next time, I swear I think that thing has something to do with my migraines. I wonder why my ears would start doing this though. I can tell you for 100% fact this happened day 1 of HPPD though it had never happened before, something this loud and common I would know about. I mean it happens 10 to hell 40 times a day and if I wanted it to I can do it all day long and it can last for a few seconds up to 15 or so seconds.

So it is day 3(wow I remembered it must be working! lol) and I must say it is doing ok. Nothing out of this world but I can easily recall what I did today and can recall what I did yesterday(still have to think about it a little). Here is my biggest improvement and it just happened today, I didn't notice until I went to the gas station and I was on the road quiet a bit today, I remembered driving from point A to point B! This might not sound like a lot to people but usually when I drive I just leave and some how end up where I am suppose to be and hardly remember driving, like I was on autopilot, but not today! This is just one day and tomorrow might be different. But so far no bad side effects. I am taking everything mentioned above(I will post on my next update dinner is done and I am starving!) and my dosage of PRL is between 5-8mg 2x a day. I have what I believe is a 5mg scoop and I fill it up pretty good so it is hard to give a exact measurement. I have a 50mg scoop and it took around 10 of my little scoops to fill it up that is why I figure it is 5mg, but then again I missed the 50mg scoop pretty good when I tried to put the little one in it with my shaky hands lol. SO WHAT I AM TRYING TO GET AT >< sorry blabbering, is I am either taking around 5-8mg which I am sure of this! One last thing, I do not know what this is from but is worthy to note, I have only seen about 1/10 of the eye floaters I normally see. I hope I'm not jynxing myself knock on wood but if I can get 1% better every week or 2 I will be doing good in no time! BLAH BLAH ^>^ Thank you hope I didn't bore you to death, I am starving and dinner smells great! Next update will be a real update and put together a lot better!

It would be nice if they could make it more potent where you only had to shoot up like 1 or 2cc. Maybe something you could ask them about? I would find out the mg of this stuff too you could be injecting some potent stuff to begin with lol. I can't open stuff like your guide, I am on what is called a google laptop which is crap. Can't dl anything I have to use apps which I don't even bother with lol. Here is the kicker, you do your thing but just about anyone will tell you not to inject more then 3ml in one site. Going up to 5ml in one site on multiple spots is pushing it. If you ever need help with injections or advice go to anabolicminds.com......I haven't been on that site in forever but back then there were a lot of nice people who had no problem helping others, but nowadays everyone seems to be internet thugs. Me personally would stretch it out........5ml 3x a week for 8 to 12 weeks, that is kind of how a steroid cycle would go. Using longer with less shots is better then a lot at once since it has to build up but just my opinion. Also is there a taper down period you got to do or anything when you get off or is it safe just to quit? Don't rush things, I know you want to feel on top of the world again but taking it easy and enjoy the subtle positive changes you get. I wish I say I feel better day by day but I might feel only a tad bit better every week or 2, but each of those weeks I get 1% better add up and I will be myself again sooner or later. Good luck and let me know how it is going. Read my PRL I am fixing to post, some positives going on.

Yes for the first 5 minutes I did feel like I made a mistake which went by real quick. After that it was nice, it seems it can be very easy to smoke to much by mistake I would start off with 10mg. http://therootofthematter.net/cgi-bin/itsmy/go.exe?page=17&domain=12&webdir=therootofthematter His name is Ken and he sells top notch stuff. If you decided to get Kanna when you go to purchase in the comment box tell him you want powder instead of capsules. The capsules you get 5 grams with the powder he will give you 10 grams. Also tell him Andrew from Dallas sent ya ....I mean't to ask him if he could send me a sample of his Kratom since I can't find any good Kratom with my last order of Maral root. Hoping he will send me a sample for referrals(But that isn't why I recommend him, you can find on the web everyone recommends him, he is well known and a real nice guy) Kanna is no cure by any means but right now I feel decent like I said and I want to smoke it again but I am not using a foil pipe lol, need to get me a glass pipe now. But when my mom gets home I am going to ask her to play yahtzee like we use to when I was a wee lad lol just to give you a idea on how I feel. I would just do it under your tongue like 50 mg 2 to 3 times a day for a week until you get use to it, you have to get sensitive to it, then smoke it so you don't get a big rush then be scared of Kanna forever.

I have been using Kanna for the past few weeks but today was my first time smoking it. For the first 5 minutes it did have me feeling a little weird kind of like a weed high but then that wore off real quick and has me feeling right. I went out looked for a job and feel pretty decent. I don't own a piece so I had to use aluminum foil(dumb I know) and it was real hard since the Kanna is powder. I got only one decent hit and was about 15mg worth of a hit, yes very small. Just throwing this out there I have been using Kanna and love it. Kratom I am having a problem with but I think my opioid receptor is blown out. I have gone through almost 300 grams of Kratom in 2 weeks and am not using to get high, in fact I haven't gotten high off it once. I take a little over 10 grams now and have taken up to 30 grams, but 10-14 grams gets me a little motivated. If anyone is looking for a legal herb that might help you out(does for me) I think Kanna is a good one. Kratom is worth looking into but do your research and find a good site. I am ordering for 2 more sites, one on Wednesday and if it doesn't help me out I will probably just stick with Kanna for half a year and give Kratom another chance then. Sorry for the long post but I truly do think Kanna is worth looking into for some people as far as anxiety, depression and mental problems go. For visuals it has done nothing but over the course of 3 years my visuals have reduced 50% I would say but that is just due to time. If you need a source for Kanna pm me. I can give you a few sources for Kratom that I believe might have some high quality stuff, at most I can tell you what sites to avoid. Thank you

Yea see I get no pressure in my ears, in fact the pressure I use to have in my head has gone away, I do get migraines time to time. I don't remember where I read it at but a lot of people have the rolling thunder noise and I read it was your eardrums or something stretching. I just don't know why this started happening the same day I got my HPPD. Things I have gotten since day 1 of HPPD: Rolling thunder noise in ears when something in my face is stretched on squeezed basically, a cyst or that is what the doctor calls it on the right side of my neck right below my skull, it is under the skin, migraines, eye floaters, depth perception is off, shit can look holographic and everything just looks to real it looks unreal, bright red cars really jack with me on this. Oh and when I drive I feel like the earth is moving and I am just sitting in the car, kind of like a video game lol. So the rolling thunder is the least of my worries! Thank you

Does your vision go blurry when you are on the computer? Mine do this constantly, I can even force it to happen by focusing my eyes real had so it happens on command. Do you get any migraines by any chance? I get eye floaters and blurry vision constantly and my optometrist says it isn't my eyes but can be due to my migraines.

Awesome, I hope this works out I don't mind sticking myself. Quick question, why did you decided to do 10ml vs 5 ml? Figure go big or go home? lol, and I might have over looked it but I couldn't find the mg/ml on this stuff on this site. My stupid little laptop wont let me open your guide, which guage needle and lenght of needle did you decide to go with? I would go with a 23 guage if it is water based and a 1 inch needle unless you got a lot of errr room between your skin and ass meat? lol Thank you

This one doesn't bother me much but it is one of 3 symptoms I have had since I got HPPD that hasn't gone away. It happens when I yawn, open my jaw wide or squeeze my eyes shut with some pressure, my eardrums make like a rolling thunder noise. It is kind of hard to describe I guess the rolling thunder one is a good way to describe it, another way to describe it is when you get that sheet of metal(I forget what it is maybe aluminum?) and shake it up and down to make that thunder like noise. The kicker is it doesn't happen when I first wake up but usually starts happening within a hour to hour and half of waking up and happens throughout the day whenever I do one of the above mentioned ways to cause it. I have read it is my eardrums stretching, can't remember where I read this was about 2 years ago. I don't get tinnitus but have had it, I think everyone has had at one point in life. So like I said happens only when I yawn, open my mouth wide and have some pressure on my jaw from opening or squeeze my eyes shut. The other thing is it usually gets worse when my anxiety hits me pretty good and when I mean worse is it is a louder rolling thunder sound. It happens in both ears but some times it might be only one ear other times the other ear. No idea what this is, like I said it is more of a nuisance then anything. While on hydrocodones this was pretty much nonexistent and xanax sometimes made this go away strangely. Any thought? Thank you

Thank you sir!

Is this oil based or water? If it is oil......ouch!

So yea, started today off with a trail, 3mg dosage, nothing was wrong so a few hours later I slapped in 7 more mg. I think I will start doing 5mg twice a day. I have done 50mg Phenylpiracetam, 150mg Picamilon, a teaspoon of Maral root and a tablespoon of Kratom with 100mg Alpha-gpc. Tomorrow I will do the same thing and starting Monday I will ramp up with Kanna and Agmatine. So far nothing wrong, but nothing good to report, again it is the first day. I will start testing when I don't know I am testing, to make sense of that after a week or 2 of using it will just become natural to me and I won't be looking for improvements, hopefully one day I just notice my memory has improved. I slept like 14 hours today I think it was from not doing Kanna for the past few days or it could have been from doing some work and body needed a rest. Will report back Monday when I add in the rest and from there is it just adjusting measurements and finding what works best. I don't recommend this but I ordered 8 pounds of unwashed poppy seeds and plan on making a very weak tea to mix because opiates really help me out. My plan is to make the tea with just a ounce of seeds and some Kratom. Very small amount of seeds to use but I am not looking for a high I am looking for the psychoactive effects which can be achieved with a small amount. Thank you

n-pep-12 http://memoprovecanada.com/ 3 months worth for 100 bucks. Will try this is you like Cerebrolysin after my PRL trial. http://www.longecity.org/forum/topic/63858-latest-stack-n-pep-12mexidoldexedrine-so-far-so-good/ Says it is oral Cerebrolysin. Oral obviously wouldn't be as good as IM but a option it you want to avoid needles. I don't know how true it is that it is the same as Cerebrolysin, just what this guy says.

I've done some reading on this and it seems awesome, very safe. I ran across N-PEP-12 which is a derivative of cerebrolysin. I don't know where this can be picked up or how far along trial it is, just ran across it and wanted to toss this in here. What I have read so far is it takes one month to kick in and the effects can last up to 3 months. One method is 5 days per week for 4 weeks and 2 days per week for another 8 weeks, I guess the first 4 weeks is to(I forget the proper term) get it in your system real quick(god what is the word I am thinking of). Me personally, I would just do 3 shots for 8-12 weeks. I don't know how it is cycled but probably can do this twice a year, 3 months of injection, 3 months afterwards it is still effective. So 6 months there then one more go around will finish your year. 4 weeks seems to short to do it, 5 shoots a week is kind of extreme but if shoots don't bother you go for it. I would really like to know how this goes and will be doing more reading! Good luck I think the word I am looking for is loading or pre-loading lol