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I was at the cafeteria the other day and got a bowl to fill with soup. Instead I poured milk into it. I felt like an idiot but Im pretty sure that this kind of stuff is normal

Great to hear man!

Just Coming back to remind everyone that you can recover. I'm almost done my first semester at school and am doing pretty well. I still have some strange sleep problems though, according to my roommate I regularly talk in my sleep and will even rise to yell at him for not paying his taxes or other nonsensical things in the middle of the night but I guess its not really a problem right now. Unfourtunately I had a really strong hypnapompic hallucination the other day when I tried to nap. I kept getting to sleep for a minute or two and then awakening to a couple seconds of sleep paralysis but one time the paralysis lasted what felt like ten seconds so I started focusing on moving my fingers suddenly they stared to move (It never felt like my fingers were moving but I could feel them tapping my chest and could see a part of them move from under the sheet) and I was relieved that I was coming out of the paralysis but then they started to move like crazy tapping my chest even though I wasn't trying to move them at this point. All of the sudden it wasnt my hand but a seemingly sinister hand connected to an arm that was coming from under the bed. Fourtunatly I was aware that I was hallucinating and I just kept telling myself that it wasnt real but I was still terrified that I was insane and may never come out of the hallucination (and I suppose part of me did fear the possibility that I was under attack by a demon). Anyways I suddenly awoke and although I was very anxious I wasn't nearly as effected by the experience as I would have been 10 months ago (I definately would have literrally shook for a week after somethinglike this then). Other than those sleep problems I think I get more anxious about certain things now but am also better at controlling the anxiety. I'm so used to the extremely minimal visual snow that I have now that Its like I dont have it at all and in fact I'm not certain that I do any more than a regular person. I hope everyone is doing well. Happy Holidays

Congrats and tanks for sharing your story

I think this kinda stuff happens to everyone. Even before HPPD I definately put the cereal in the fridge and milk in the cubboard a few times, and I'm young. But I know what you mean about fearing old age and senility I terrified of it.

Then Ignore them. I know its easier said than done but you have to put yourself in a position to ignore them, sleep with a lght on and keep busy. 10 days is nothing after a month or two you should be feeling better. Good luck

Mike- Ive been drinking, probably more than I should be since i'm going to one of the top 20 party schools in the U.S. It hasnt seemed to effect me but I didn't start untill I was really comfortable with how much Ive healed so maybe you should wait until the starbursting goes away. Good Luck!

Bassically. Keeping your mind off of HPPD is really important. I found that letting everyone know what I was going through made it easier. In a few months you will completely forget how bad you are feeling right now.

I didn't use medication. Eat healthy, exercise, take vitamins and supplements, ignore your symptoms, and most importantly believe that you will recover. Good luck man!

My full story is on the "(almost) Recovered" thread. I went through about a month or two of hell then it started to get better and after 4 months I could live normally, after around six i'd say I was cured.

How's it going? I haven't been on here the past month and decided I would come back to let you guys no how I'm doing. Besides ocassional VS and some Hypnagogia I am back to normal. I even can sleep with the lights off now. I'm going to college and I dont think I've lost any intelligence given that I barely studied and still got three A+s on my first three exams. I'm having a blast playing rugby and am even able to get hammered weekly with no ill-effects so far (I definantly dont recomend this though and hope it doesnt bite me in the ass). Anyways I just wanted to remind people that it gets better! Good luck to you all!

I haven't been on here the past month and decided I would come back to let you guys no how I'm doing. Besides ocassional VS and some Hypnagogia I am back to normal. I even can sleep with the lights off now. I'm going to college and I dont think I've lost any intelligence given that I barely studied and still got three A+s on my first three exams. I'm having a blast playing rugby and am even able to get hammered weekly with no ill-effects so far (I definantly dont recomend this though and hope it doesnt bite me in the ass). Anyways I just wanted to remind people that it gets better! Good luck to you all!

I've recovered 99.9% and I'm fine with whats left. I know how horrible the first weeks/months can be. Do what you can to ignore and mask your symptoms for now. The less attention you pay to them the sooner they will go away because anxiety is a key part of this disorder. I slept with a tv on to keep me distracted for several weeks, then slept with a light on for 6 months but now I'm fine sleeping in the dark. You will be to just give it time.

My HPPD is 99.9% percent gone and has been for the last few months. I have some Hypnagogia when I try to sleep sometimes and a little static in the dark on occasion but other than that Im cured. I might be slightly more anxious too but its had to say and I definately respond to situations that cause anxiety better than I used to before HPPD Ignore your symptoms and live healthily sooner or later you will realize that your symptoms are disappearing.

As time goes on it will get easier to ignore and then maybe your symptoms will go away entirely. good luck man

Doesn't suprise me at all.

Monkey- Do you know why you relapsed? Did drugs or stress cause it, or did it just come back out of the blue? Mgrade- Same question I asked monkey, but I'm pretty sure that I already asked you and you said that somebody drugged you?

You should definately be done with pschedelics for good. They will bring your HPPD back and it could come back a lot worse. I don't think you should smoke pot either, I've heard some say that they haven't seen major consequences from it but I have'nt heard of anyone recovering while smoking. I really think you should be done with drugs from now on. Since i've recovered i drink some and have been fine so far but i'm still really cautious about it.

I wouldn't take any medication for a while. See how your HPPD acts if you just leave it alone. It could go away quickly by itself, if it isn't better in a 6 months to a year then maybe you should think about medication. Also I wouldn't take an SSRI because they have made some peoples HPPD a lot worse and its not worth the risk when there is a good chance that you'll heal without one.

Thats weird, you wouldn't think that a CEV could cause afterimages. But anything can happen when you are close to sleep, I've had stranger visuals when I'm trying to sleep. I think its probably more connected to Hypnagogia than it is to typical afterimages.

The caps weren't very big and they didn't look like dicks.. I think the caps might have been tan but I'm not sure. The stems were white. They had a lot of blue-green on them. I wish that I had payed more attention to detail.

I wouldn't take an SSRI if I were you. It could be helpfull but it could make things a lot worse, I don't think its worth the risk when there is a good chance that time will heal you in a few months. I'm also going to be a freshman at college this year. I've been drinking lately with no long term effects to my HPPD (I'll sometimes feel an increase in anxiety and visual snow for a few days afterwords) but I don't recomend trying that for quite a while. I hope it isn't hard for me to not go overboard in college.

About time for a thread like this. I took about 4 grams of shrooms (twice as much as you should on your first time) in early january. Before that all I had done was drink and smoke weed a few times. I tripped really hard, I was in a completely diferent dimension talking to people who don't exist, and time had no meaning. At one point I became really scared that I wasn't going to come back and began freaking out trying to physicaly claw my way back into this world while my eyes were closed. Still the next morning I was fine and I looked at the trip in a positive way. Three weeks later I smoked a little and the night after that I drank a little. The night after the night I drank I woke up from a really messed up dream shaking with really bad anxiety. For the next week I had horrible anxiety and sleep issues (hynagogic hallucinations and such) but no other symptoms. After a week it went away but then a few days later it came back with all that stuff plus 24/7 visual snow and some after-images and some derelization. The next two months were hell but then things started to improve. After 4 months I was feeling a lot better and could ignore HPPD pretty easily, after 6 months I was basically back to normal. It's been almost 7 months now and I still have some very minor symptoms. I am more anxious/moody/prone to depression than I was prior to HPPD but its still improving and I'm confident that these symptoms will completely dissapear soon. In certain lightings I stilll get visual snow but its so minor that if it had never been worse I would think it was just a normal thing that everyone had. Ocasionally I'll get a random visual (like an afterimage or something weirder), but its getting increasingly more rare and honestly might also be normal. I dream vivid dreams all night long it seeems now but thats not really a bad thing. I still have some Hypnagogia issues, I kinda start dreaming while I'm still awake and had a little sleep paralysys a week ago (I thought i was dead), its really hard to explain but its not a problem as long as it doesn't get worse. I also get CEV when I'm trying to sleep sometimes but those are fun now that they aren't there all the time. I didn't use any prescriptions to get to this point, just eating healthy, taking vitamins, exercising, and most importatly ignoring my symptoms and believing that they will go away. Good Luck!

Mgrade- Its hard to remember exactly what they looked like. They were dried. The mushroms were mostly white but with blueish green spots/mold on them. I've looked online for pictures that matched them but I can't find any.

Persistant Migraine Aura is obviously simmilar to HPPD. I have a family history of migraines. Magnesium is used to treat migraines and HPPD. I feel like it is safe to assume that Migraines are definitly related to HPPD. Do any of you have a family history of migraines, or have you experienced migraines yourself? What is known about PMA? What is used to treat PMA? I cant find much info about it, what do you guys know?