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I think you have HPPD. Stop smoking pot if you want to recover. If you stay sober for a wwhile I think you will get better because it seems like you caught it early but make sure not to smoke anymore.

I've had it for 5 and 1/2 months and I am 99.9% recovered (If I look for snow in the dark I can see it and a week ago I had CEVs+ a hypnagogic hallucination but other than that I'm normal). Never do any drugs besides alcohol again and the longer you can go without that the better, not many people on here fully recover we are very lucky that we caught it early, don't fuck it up by smoking weed or doing anything else stupid.

Welcome! At this point no medication effectively treats HPPD without side-effects and even the "succesful" treatments just hides the disease it doesn't get rid of it so I would avoid medication If I were you, ecspeacially since you made it so long without any. To give your self the best chance of recovery stay completely sober for a few months, see how you feel after that. I would highly recommend abandoning weed for life. Supplements like magnesium and omega-3 fatty acids could help you recover a little and valerian root could help you sleep if the closed eye visuals make it hard. Staying hydrated and exercising will also be helpful. Good Luck and make sure to let us know how you're doing.

if you've gone two years without smoking why start now and risk so much? Do you drink? If so how does that effect you?

I know, even though I'm doing well I'm terrified that its going to go downhill and I'll end up in an asylum.

Its probably better that your symptoms are fluctuating rather than staying the same (although steady improvement would be ideal) because it is a sign that your brain is still trying to adapt and fix the problem.

I'm really suprised that you got trails out of nowhere, that sucks. How is your vs, is it constant or just in the dark now?

You don't need adderall and I think anything that effects your brain chemistry will hurt your recovery so don't use it.

But we don't know what causes HPPD and aren't the progressions of these two disorders very different? People don't get better from parkinsons, do they?

Have you been diagnosed with HPPD? Most of us on here haven't because its impossible to be in Europe and most American doctors are very reluctant to diagnose it. Because It is considered so rare of a condition (although I doubt tht it really is) i doubt there are any regulations in place that would keep a diagnosed HPPDer from driving but I don't know.

How is PMA treated? Is there any more success with that than HPPD?

Hope- how many drugs did you take? Was it just the eigth of mushrooms?

There is definatly a connection but I think the disorders are somewhat different..

I think Mild HPPD is really really common, I dont know what makes some cases more severe.

I have parkinsons in my family does anyone else?

I'm basically over HPPD but I'm depressed as hell right now. I don't think its a "chemical depression" I just think its because my life sucks. Something changes and gives me hope that things will get better but then they just get worse. I should be thankful that I'm somehow cured of HPPD but I just feel like my life is so pointless. I'm probably gonna have a flare up soon with symptoms even worse then before that will stick around with the way things go in my life. I hope college is better than this.

I had conversations with people who weren't there from just shrooms. But I took over an eigth my first time. That isn't something to be worried about is it?

I didn't know this. Im so pissed at myself right now for touching shrooms.

I think both setting and dose can have an impact on the likeliness of getting hppd, but I bet that the latter has greater influence. I took over an eigth of dried shrooms my first and only time using hallucinogens and that was obviously too much. Be very carefull, if you don't feel like you are benefiting significantly as a person from using halucinogens then stop using them. Don't do ecstacy or lsd because serious damage is quite common from them. If you continue using hallucinogens stick to "safer" ones like shrooms or salvia but I would suggest you stop using them all together. Be smart, HPPD is hell! You can't imagine how bad derealization is unless you experience it, thank god I only had it briefly. No physical pain can comare to the mental/emotional ones that can come with HPPD so make sure you are willing to risk permanently changing your life before you decide to mess around with drugs again.

I have always gotten headaches but not to the point of migraines. One time when I was about 10 I had the worst headache of my life. The pain was unbearable, I remember just crying on the couch for an hour trying to go to seep so I wouldn''t feel it anymore. I could imagine that being a migraine but it would be strange to have had one the and none since wouldn't it? I don't think I experienced any visuals at the time.

Although what we have is different from persistant migraine aura it is simmilar and I for one have a family history of migraines so it would be interesting to see if he thought there was a link. Also it would be good to know how things like antibiotics or alchohol or other medications effect the brain and whether he has any ideas or suggestions that could be helpful in that regard. Make sure that you go with evidence.

If my symptoms were any worse I would definately see a hypnotist but they've been so manageable for a while that I don't think I need too. Honnestly i feel like being schitzophrenic would basically be the same as dying, either to be completely insane and not myself, or on anti-psychotics and not myself. It scares the shit out of me.

Interesting. There has to be a connection.

Did the booze effect your visuals?

Throughout the day I take few moments to take a dep breath and just be happy, even if everything is shitty for me at the moment I'm just happy that things aren't shittier and If things are too bad for that I'm just happy that someone somewhere is happy. It sounds stupid but I really like this outook that HPPD has given me. Dont let little things get to you. Most of the things that bother people shouldn't, who cares if the person in front of you in the check out line is taking forever, getting upset about it isn't beneficial in any way to anyone. Don't get mad at people. Give people the benefit of the doubt even if you hate them sometimes. Lots of people do asshole things (I feel like shit cause I was a complete jerk the other night) but few do those things to purposefully hurt you. Most do it because they are driven by material objects, try to get satisfaction from other more important things. I'm not trying to say you should give up all of your possesions, just realize that they aren't what's most important. When I near death I don't want to have any regrets about wronging anyone in order to get what I wanted.