pennyarcade Posted March 30, 2011 Report Share Posted March 30, 2011 ? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mycall81 Posted March 30, 2011 Report Share Posted March 30, 2011 Drop to my knees and kiss the sky 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Br0k3nS41nt Posted March 31, 2011 Report Share Posted March 31, 2011 If it just dissappeared? Probably freak out, think I am derealizing and worry my ass off for a while before finally forgetting that this world is now different then my current one. This is why I want my recovery to be a slow fade of symptoms, I can gradually get accustomed to my new, clearer, less mobile sorroundings one baby step at a time. It been three months and I have already honestly forgotten what "normal" vision is like, I can't stare at a wall and have it not move. I just just always assume it will. Normal I am guessing is not noticing the dreamy overlay, the afterimages, the illusion of movement, minimal ghosting, minimal starbursts. But how would I ever know if I ever returned to how my vision was before this. Recovery is not noticing I guess. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
1998 Posted March 31, 2011 Report Share Posted March 31, 2011 I would laugh and cry at the same time while enrolling back into college!!!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
windscar Posted March 31, 2011 Report Share Posted March 31, 2011 It's impossible to answer that question, it would simply be the new best day of my life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted March 31, 2011 Report Share Posted March 31, 2011 This will sound soppy.... but i'd make sure my wife had the best day of her life (get your mind out of the gutter!), as she has never known me pre-hppd. I try my best to show her what I was like, but it is never fully possible. I'd love to just have a 100% happy, chilled day on the beach with her, nice meal and stuff. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
minderbinder141 Posted April 5, 2011 Report Share Posted April 5, 2011 Believe in a higher power Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saber44 Posted April 9, 2011 Report Share Posted April 9, 2011 Stare at a blank white wall without it becoming covered in static, breathing, floating, morphing. Drive at night without squinting at the bright lights and halos/starburst around everything. Close my eyes to go to sleep without fractal pattern CEVs covered in static invading on my vision. Be in a dark room at night and be able to see from one wall to another while being able to distinguish where one object ends and another begins. Words wouldn't even be able to express it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
keep positive Posted April 9, 2011 Report Share Posted April 9, 2011 right now I'd trade winning the lottery to have my normal vision back. I try to spend 30 minutes every night reassociating what correct vision should be like to try and "re-train" my brain. I'll think of times when I was younger and associate songs to places in times and think about what I was seeing, how it looked etc. Not a cure, but it does bring some level of comfort. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
shaolinbomber Posted April 9, 2011 Report Share Posted April 9, 2011 I would wake up and wonder where the last 2 years of my life went because having HPPD with DP/Dr feels like my life has been put on pause and im waiting for it to resume. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Br0k3nS41nt Posted April 9, 2011 Report Share Posted April 9, 2011 Shaolin, I know that feeling all to well. Feels like the time I have spent is meshed together, unseeable by some dark fog. Everything I have done since hppd I cannot remember or are not fully there like I had done it in a dream. It really fucks with your perception of time, and the formation of memories. I also feel like the memories I do recall get meshed with the emotions I was feeling at the time. Which is funny because when I feel those emotions they feel fake. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jay1 Posted April 10, 2011 Report Share Posted April 10, 2011 The vaguely good news is that you can begin to enjoy life, even with hppd. I've said it a few times on the old board... after around 3-4 years I really started to live again, even with strong hppd. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
vexation Posted April 15, 2011 Report Share Posted April 15, 2011 I would try to wake my self up from the dream I was obviously having Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
balance Posted April 16, 2011 Report Share Posted April 16, 2011 Go back to work. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iwasnineteen Posted April 18, 2011 Report Share Posted April 18, 2011 i would cry and go fall in love with the world again and laugh and cry some more i' m 19 and have this because my boyfriend dosed me, i don't deserve this. noone does. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
415_stylee Posted April 22, 2011 Report Share Posted April 22, 2011 Party and scream in happiness! No seriously.. I have had HPPD for 5 years now and have got quite used to it, and I can hardly remember what "normal" vision looks like.. So I would probably have some kind of "HPPD withdrawal". Maybe I would have mixed feelings of euphoria and sorrow. But the euphoria would be the winner after a while! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
closetotheedge88 Posted May 9, 2011 Report Share Posted May 9, 2011 "Party and scream in happiness! No seriously.. I have had HPPD for 5 years now and have got quite used to it, and I can hardly remember what "normal" vision looks like.. So I would probably have some kind of "HPPD withdrawal". Maybe I would have mixed feelings of euphoria and sorrow. But the euphoria would be the winner after a while!" first id like to say hello all the old timers form the old board, its great to see some of these usernames again. but i quote the last post because in november it will be my fifth year with hppd, and I honestly can say it hardly phases me anymore. i have severe hppd, dp/dr, and anxiety/panick, etc you all know the schpeal. but trust me, especially those of you new to living in this, err lets say different mindstate, time WILL HEAL YOU. i hardly think about my visuals or any symptoms anymore, now I just live life and actually enjoy it. no longer do I worry about doing or not doing certain things because it may or may not fuck up my symptoms. and if i do every now n then do something that flares them up, I know what caused it and know it will subside. life DOES GO ON! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Merkan Posted May 9, 2011 Report Share Posted May 9, 2011 Like this one. "fall in love with the world again", that happened to me when my symptoms went away. I could hold a snowball in my hand just watching it melt and just appreciate the beauty of it. Looking at My friends and family totally normal, like being reborn again. i would cry and go fall in love with the world again and laugh and cry some more i' m 19 and have this because my boyfriend dosed me, i don't deserve this. noone does. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lucid206 Posted June 25, 2011 Report Share Posted June 25, 2011 prolly something similar to when i first got hppd.. freak out at such a different world Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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