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3 seems like a poor idea. Putting people through that...

I almost smoked cannabis the other day that had shroom dust on it...I had no idea and am so happy that didn't happen...it is so scary. I have reduced my ingestion to alcohol, marijuana and nicotine. My life is on the way back up but if something like that happened I dont know how I could go through it again...I feel for you

I don't think I could ever tell my father, have yet to say anything to my mother. I haven't told my girlfriend yet tho I want to so badly, it's such a hard thing to bring up

Haha seriously I could have used a torch. I knew they weren't real but they were so vivid I could bot make myself go any farther without reaching out with my hand. My night vision sucks also but this seemed much different and wasn't just the usual static and not being able to tell where things start and end.

I was running through the woods last night (my city has a bunch of golf cart paths) and there was only minimal light from the street lamps a few feet from the cart path. The path I was running on had trees hanging over it and multiple times I could have sworn I was about to run into a branch hanging down. I would stop and reach out with my hand only to discover the branches were hallucinations. Even after a few times of stopping and discovering they weren't real I still couldn't force my body to run through them. I would have to stop and reach out in order to progress. This is much stronger than most of my other symptoms as I have a much milder case than most here Has anyone had similar experiences?

I used to believe in some sort of higher power or order karma or something. But that illusion has been shattered by what I've gone through. It felt i was reading my thoughts written down when reading your port brook. And I noticed my symtpoms 2 nights after

That shit sucks. All I hear is bad things from my friends

Hell yea summer time. Can't wait to finally finish high schoo

Nice post...anxiety was by far the worst part of my first couple months with hppd

Believe in a higher power

Acceptance was by far the hardest part for me and I think most. It's so great hearing stories from people who have gone through the same things. I felt so alone for so long with this...

I'm down in Florida on spring break and got stung by some bastard jellyfish. My foot swelled up masssive qnd had to go to the ER. I got some antibiotics and a bunch of steroids...which leads me to my question. Has anyone had any adverse reactions to Meds not specifically involved with their hppd? P.s. Haven't drank this much since odor hppd and it has gotten a lot worse since I've Been down here

I drank for the first time in about 8 months last night and bam my symtoms exploded this morning. Nothing unbearable(I have a much milder case than most here). But I was just curious if this happens to everyone that drinks. Symptoms worsen after drinking? Then return to normal? If I start drinking again regularly will anything start to adjust and symptoms won't increase as badly? Would love to here some personal experience with this

Wow what an incredible journey you have been on. Personally, I'm just starting to feel normal and good again and my hppd symptoms are decreasing. I was thinking about smoking pot again but was worries about my symptoms worsening. I smoked after I got hppd and I didn't rlly notice a difference but have given it about a year. Do you think I could catch Candida from smoking and if I did would that make my hppd worse?

Oh also i just looked at one of your older posts and saw an excellent response to your question about "brain fog" that I think should be highlighted. While I don't pretend to have much of any knowledge of physioliogy or brain chemistry...I can talk from personal subjective experience and listening to other stories. The anxiety And terror you are feeling have much more liekely of a chance to be contributing to your "brain fog" than any physical brain damage. For myself I felt the "brain fog" much leas severly than yourself but it subsided before my actual visuals began to fade. This leads me to believe( I stress again my lack of knowledge in this area) that "brain fog" is much more psychological in orign than actuall physical brain issues. I still worry about hppd and espicially the cognitive side of it now, but as time moves on it becomes less and less a part of my life. My llfe has felt normal again for really the first time in a year and a half and i'm sure yours will too:) it takes time:)

Oh also i just looked at one of your older posts and saw an excellent response to your question about "brain fog" that I think should be highlighted. While I don't pretend to have much of any knowledge of physioliogy or brain chemistry...I can talk from personal subjective experience and listening to other stories. The anxiety And terror you are feeling have much more liekely of a chance to be contributing to your "brain fog" than any physical brain damage. For myself I felt the "brain fog" much leas severly than yourself but it subsided before my actual visuals began to fade. This leads me to believe( I stress again my lack of knowledge in this area) that "brain fog" is much more psychological in orign than actuall physical brain issues. I still worry about hppd and espicially the cognitive side of it now, but as time moves on it becomes less and less a part of my life. My llfe has felt normal again for really the first time in a year and a half and i'm sure yours will too:) it takes time:)

Windscar It seems like the issue that bothers you most is the possible cognition loss or detioration. I know the exact feeling. I also was at the top of my class(although not number 1 hehe) when I developed hppd through a single LSD use(2 blotter also). The first few months were the most horrific thing I've ever experienced and by far the thing that scared me most was that I could have damaged my reasoning skills, memory, and so on. I had incredibly unique timing for this, I had taken the SAT once before my LSD use and 3 times after my hppd. All three times after I actually scored higher:). It could have been for a million different reasons(i wasn't smoking after hppd) but I know this, there was not a distinct measurable difference in my case. I see so many similarities to you in so many ways as do many others on here. I promise you that the terror that you feel now will subside. I can only relate to myself when I say these things but I know how similar our positions are. That being said you can be guranteed that your life will not be the same as it was. When I recogniZed that fact my life got so much better. And you are not the only one who thinks there career plans are changing because of this. I did not have any aspirations to become a doctor, work jn medicine, or any nueroscience before this but my major next year is listed as cognitive science and Ill have to decide if I want to go to med school or pursue further graduate education in nueroscience. Hope this helped:)

@mutts Great insight! The "obligation to be happy" is dead accurate. the pressure my parents put on me to be perfecty happy all the time is hard. I've had to hide my suffering around them at all times and it makes it so much worse...

I've had mild symptoms of hppd for about a year and a half now but just recently started hearing a lot of ringing and static in my ears...I know this could be from a multitude of others things but was curious if anyone has experienced auditory symptoms from their hppd

You are the man

Thanks for the input guys...What you said makes a lot of sense boogres. I would have to say the anxiety and visual hallucinations have definently been the most prominent symptoms for me

I can't add much on whether there are full recoveries or not but I found your experience with your friends extremely similar to mine. You are not alone in this:)

i guess what i'm asking is have any of you experienced lessened problem solving ability after developing hppd