Have been struggling with dp, and VS lately. Usually at normal levels my DP is just nonexistence. I cannot naturally associate myself and my actions, I know I do them, but my memories are just words, I cannot visualize or claim any emotional ownership over them. It as if I was told them by an absolutely reliable third party. Visually I know what things look like, but to me those descriptions are aquired not though me living in my own memories (I could never say that something seems like only yesterday, as all my memories seem infinitely distant). The other day it got as worse as it has ever been, my perception felt like it retreated into my own head. My surroundings felt as if they only existed within my mind. Everything felt as if it was an idea, without any eternal reality associated with it. I felt as if I was going to lose control of my body as I could not associate myself with it, only with my perception (which felt that it was only attached to the idea of my external body). Because I was so within my own mind and not in anything objective, I fept as though my existentense was not tied to anything. I was just going to fade out of reality (or keeping with the theme of DP existence was going to fade out of me)
This was not a good feeling to have in times square at 3 AM. To abort the panic attack I had to sit down and think. This is not actually happening, this is just a feeling.