John Smith

Yeah man, I took a BUNCH of Oxys yesterday and Ive been noticing an ungodly increase in symptoms it sucks...I just popped a benzo called oxazepam...but im using these sparingly, no way im getting addicted to this crap, i just wanted a little break from the anxiety..First time ive tried one...lets see. Hpe you get better mane!

Hey guys, I accidentally drank alot of ginger ale with caffeine (usually it's caffeine free) and I had a moment of unreality where i didnt recognize my hands and they looked like alien claws ( when looked at from above- just thumb and index finger, i was eatin a sandwich so he just looked like 2 capital C's) I had strong CEVs and OEVs for a good 2 hours after... Anyway...i have been more aware of my hands than usual...it's hard to describe...things have been looking slightly cartoonish, mostly cars...i always thought that was because of some prior accidental PCP intoxication bc thats the way cars looked for months, but now im coming to realize by reading dp dr symptom descriptions that it's probably the beginnings of that... im usually pretty quick, even though i do have mild hppd, but today my dad asked me to call someone on his cell phone and i suddenly blanked out and started getting the beginnings of a panic attack, and i kept reading the menu items (contacts, messages, etc) and couldn't make sense of them at all. This all lasted for about 10 minutes and i felt completely fried out. No thoughts coming or going. Is this the beginnings of DP/DR?

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What are your symptoms man? If it is hppd, risperdal has been known to make it much worse, as i believe has ativan. Best of luck mane, sorry youre goin through this.

Hey guys, Its been a while since i slept well, but it's been getting better. Granted my symptoms are mild by comparison to some, but still, falling asleep was near impossible for me. Ive learned to leave a light on...a tv, something, just so the symptoms dont get a chance to get out of hand (although invariably, they are usually much worse when i wake up, but that usually clears after a few minutes.) Whats worked magic for me though is music. It sounds retarded. For a while post hppd, music sounded just like noise. I enjoyed it fuck all. Thats not the case anymore thank god. Now, listening to something relaxing usually mellows me down, and i pass out within 30 minutes of putting on my headphones. I'd recommend Blood on the Tracks by Dylan, some crosby stills nash and young, or some Led Zep acoustic material: Zeppelin III, going to california, black mountain side on a loop. Hope it helps!

or is it just me

I know man. I wish the fuckers could live inside my head for one day...theyre all really into drugs, it kind of scares me to think that some of them might choke on their words some day.

Thats crazy man! Im just curious, whats HPPD from delirants like? Im guessin you were pretty young? Nutmeg easily available?

What still pisses me off the most is that my "friends" don't believe me...they all say static and trails and afterimages and shit are "normal." Theyre all worth shit to me now.

The weed laced with PCP happened in May. I know for a fact that it was laced with PCP because I tripped balls for 6 hours and never felt the same after, I had all the symptoms of PCP intoxication and generally had no hallucinations until my HPPD started in September. Idk why theyd do it man, pcp is cheap as fuck to make in bulk, guess you can buy a cheap QP of grass, spray the shit out of it, and sell it as fire. I dont know, dont care, but it happened. But yeah man, im fine, it was just weird as fuck. Never happened before. Ive had visuals and stuff before, but I never felt like I was IN a trip.

I always thought antidepressants made HPPD worse?

Hey guys, thought I'd share something that happened to me yesterday. I've been substance-free for 3 weeks (except for some Vike, but i'm talkin about shit that worsens my symptoms.) I was at my neighbor's and they were passing a bong around. I ripped it hard because im retarded. I decided to go grab a bite, and as I'm walking to the dining hall, I have what I think is a FULL-ON PCP flashback, except it was alot more colorful than the drug itself because of the HPPD I guess, and I was stuck in a moment of unreality, and all i could think of is "Fuck I just got DP/DR" and there were colors, and hieroglyphic-like patterns everywhere, and that trippy fog everywhere, and there was a horrible knot in my head that's still kinda there, although my symptoms are not noticeably increased at all which is the weirdest part. There''s no way im smoking after this, at least til im fully recovered from this shit. BTW, i never tried PCP, i got it in some laced weed, and was unaware of the fact. I'm the kid who got to debunk 2 myths into the truth realm :/ Could it have been strictly a PCP flashback? I know it's a vague description, but it felt very shroomy, or acidy as well, can people have full on flashbacks even though they already have some form of HPPD? I thought i was never comin down :/ Just one more thing to be thankful for i guess.

I did less than a quarter line and my tinnitus got real bad and i thought my head was gonna pop and I got really shivery and it sucked.

Just wanted to try it, but it's definitely not worth it, didnt even feel that good, just different.

If it happened to you on your first time, then youre really overstating their influence man. And honestly, you know that you are genetically prone somehow to HPPD. Chances are, it would come back. Chances are, it would be way worse. What youd be doing is tantamount to playing russian roulette with six bullets in the revolver.

So I just snorted a vike. HAd a bit of a headache for the first 5 minutes, I feel a bit slower, like im slurring my words, but overall my symptoms are definitely less pronounced. Although I feel like the ghosting is a bit worse, but overall better...lights have no streaks! Kinda weird to see the world like this after 7 months of weirdness.

Dude, not to be a douche, but if youre willing to take that risk, then you've really got alot more to learn. Think about the people who love you. Think about how the symptoms can worsen TENFOLD. Picture what you have now, and multiply it by 10. Would you be willing to risk not being able to go out during the day? Or simply be able to fall asleep? Or feel crippling pain all over your body ALL the time? They do help you, and they sure as hell are fun. But it's all in your head, there are other ways to achieve transcendence without frying yourself.

Yeah man, i feel ya. Last time i felt manic was on monday night. I really wanted to get fucked up. Instead, I went and got a tattoo on my wrist hahaha. Oh well. I don't mind the feeling though. It gets me writing, and feeling like i can get through and do anything. Beats feeling depressed i guess.

Id always heard that opiates made HPPD worse though...or so i thought...isnt Kratom an opiate? Isnt that known to really mess with peoples symptoms?

Yeah man, alot of people with MDMA induced HPPD experience tunnel high def and 2d vision, stuff like that, not as many-if any-fractals, or rippling...thats as far as i know haha

Damn, it's actually HYDROCODONE not OXYCODONE....what does everyone think?

I love psychedelics, but i'm never touching them again. I would probably be fine, but I would just expect it to come back one day, even if months later, and I couldnt live with that worry.

Honestly dude, I've known people with mild symptoms, but they all seem to be fine with it, so I guess it's not true HPPD. Every time I talk to the true druggies, it's always the same...I know so many people whove done so much shit and theyre all fine blabla it's a myth, and when I try to talk about this forum or condition, they always seem to look at me like im retarded. Idk, I dont care what people think, never have, all i care about is that I have people here who support and emphasize and can help me. Thats it.

True? Two words man: FUCK THAT. Hahaha thanks for the timely reply, I love that the board seems to be gettin active again, sounds mean, but it's almost like many of the kooks got siphoned out...Do miss some of the old members, I never really posted here because there was so much info available, but i felt like i knew them in a weird way.