John Smith

Soma would help me, but my symptoms would always feel worse after the comedown. Not worth it.

The know about the DPDR but they dont buy that DMT smoke can make it worse.

Just wondering how things have progressed through the days...any side effects? Howre your visuals doin? I got an appointment with a great neurologist coming in a week, and I wanna be able to take to him a decent amount of testimonials in order to help my chances of getting some sinemet. On separate news, i had been feeling much better, then my roommates decided to smoke DMT in my apartment, woke up anxious as hell in a cloud of rancid smoke, with eye pains, and now im back to insomnia, waves on the walls, depression, head pressure, and worse trails and after images. It blows. My DP also got worse, now things that didnt seem unfamiliar before make me anxious as hell (my knees, trees, burritos lol) Exams arent helping either. Also, i know it's too early to tell, but if you get off the drug after taking it for say a few months, at least theoretically, would you find improvement, or would you just go back to feeling the way you did before?

Damn man i cant even imagine, i passed out in a funky pose for about an hour a few months ago and i couldnt walk or sleep well for a few weeks...hope youre feelin better

Fred hows your trial goin mane? keep us updated!

what are your symptoms man? how much did you trip? Ive always wished i couldve tried mescaline somewhere in the desert...sigh

Good to hear brother! I'd been wondering where you were. Maybe one day we can get together and share a pint and not have to worry about anything but the hangover. Btw duke...youre on keppra right?

Im glad to hear man, frame vision was horrible, thats when i thought i was done, although i only had it for a few hours. The stepping stones are small for us, but they're there. Glad to hear that some people have been making giant leaps as of late. Howd you get HPPD man? And alot of people have been told so and felt that way, but many also manage to lead seemingly normal lives. Although we know that this might take a while, if you keep walking toward a landmark on the horizon, youll eventually get there. Easier said than done, but we gotta try... Youre very knowledgeable about this shit man, youre an asset to the community and a great help to many of us unlucky few

Yeah, my CEVs are mostly gone except for when i press down on my eyelids...non-hppders have experiences this as well...weird.

alright, honestly if it helps cognitively, thats a great start for me...do you just take 1 a day? how long you been taking it btw?

Now that you mention it, my face does feel greasy as hell, and my hair has been falling out like crazy, even though it's never happened before and im only 20 :/

Yea man, I know a kid who went keto, keppra and klon and got better...Ive also read about remission of symptoms from keppra...i honestly dont know enough about sinemet, but from what ive read, dont its effects only last 3 hours before you have to take another one? I dont know man just reading between the lines i guess..

Thats great man im glad to hear, fills me with hope. Sinemet sounds great, but i'm thinkin id rather try something like keppra first, which may serve as a true remedy, over sinemet, which just sounds like a temporary antidote...I guess we'll know more as people keep taking it... has keppra decreased your fatigue and pain as well? have you had any noticeable side effects? howd you approach the dosage? Ahhhhh good vibes in this thread And merkan, thats alright man thanks, good luck with all your shit and keep us updated!

shaolin how does tramadol work for you? it makes my shit a lot worse

Ramblingon, how did keppra help you? can you expand on how it's been a big step forward for you? And Merkan, Im really happy for you man, and im glad that it might be a big step forward for all of us. From what i recall, your symptoms are quite similar to mine... You dont have hallucinogenic symptoms right? "Just" the trails, static, afterimages, floaters etc, and of course the DP/DR, which im guessing is what bothers you the most? It's pretty much what kills me as well man, i cant think, talk, recall shit, come up with shit, and on top of that i have nerve/muscle pains and fatigue coupled along with it...do you have fatigue and stuff too? If so, has this helped? Also, if you stop taking the sinemet, do the symptoms return? Please keep us updated!

Thinking that someday I just might. Molly aint helpin man. Keep positive. I break down on some days too, but you gotta push on. My dad's got cancer...thinkin about becoming a burden on my parents makes me desperately want to get and feel and look better. Loneliness doesnt have to be so bad man, we are creatures that need companionship, but a year or two of loneliness while you start feeling capable again is not the end of the world. Find some hobbies. Get a cat. Get healthy. Stop using drugs. I too lost alot of friends, and im an extremely social guy, but in the end it's helped me realize who mattered and who didnt. It doesnt have to be a bad thing. The ones who are worth it will funnel through. We're here for you bro. Next time you feel bad just hit up the chat section or leave a rant about how it all sucks. Weve all wanted to do it at some point, and someone will answer and hopefully make you feel better.

Those symptoms sound tough and scary man my condolences...do you have trails and afterimages as well? Also which drugs gave you hppd? Ive had brief bouts of tinnitus, but now it's gone, my only ear symptom is that when i swallow my right ear pops as if it were adjusting to a change in pressure, which is strange. When it was at its worse I would occasionally get pains in my jaw, and it would always click, even went as far as dislocating it once while eating, but fortunately it settled again somehow. And yea, i suffer from physical pains as well, ive also felt lower back strain. Never had problems with surround sound, only one time when i had a full on flashback and it felt like there was a wah wah pedal connected to my brain it was horrible.

I was pretty high one time and i accidentally drank half a can of ginger ale that i thought was caf free, but about halfway down i got this horrible uncomfortable feeling on my neck and when i looked at my hands all i could think was "what are these," and when i looked it had caffeine. Needless to say I dont touch caffeine. They literally looked like strange claws and it took me more than a tick to think that theyre my hands. Got strong closed eye visuals too. Depression and suicidal thoughts started after this as well, i tried to sober up, but being sober just felt too shitty. I believe that oxys also helped speed up this progression that my disorder took, at least the DP and visual aspects. Trails definitely became more prominent as a result.

First time in my life that ive had high blood pressure recorded occurred today, funnily enough it was 139/83

Yeah i had an mri and an eeg done and they showed nothing as far as seizure-like activity. When you say dopamine helped, wat did you take? I know it's dopamine related because all these new symptoms started when i consumed caffeine, including fatigue and dpdr, not to mention the related cog issues which to me are the worst part. And cevs are just purple or pink spirals, eyes closed or in near darkness, weird grotesque faces appeared later as well, it's all gone away a bit, think alcohol was sending me down the rabbit hole...btw the cevs also started due to the caffeine intake, it was just white static before. i dont blame myself for hppd, but i do blame myself for not sobering up immediately, it's hard to think i mightve ruined my life just for an uncomfortable, tripped out high :/

There are warning signs? haha my perception was perfect, and then 5 months after my last trip i had a panic attack and click, it all came on and with drug use got progressively worse. Tripped around 12 times. It's not worth it man, forget drugs, this shit will break you, whoever you think you are will disappear, maybe for months or years or maybe forever...it'll drive you right to the edge.

Yeah, although i think dopamine is more related to DP than hppd itself... the pains are weird, they started along with the DpDR, i just get cramp-like pains in my body, even in weird places like the tips of my fingers, sometimes theyre barely perceptible other times they make me cringe with pain. My symptoms arent really hallucinogenic thankfully, and the CEVs and weird faces are nearly gone, but i have trails, floaters, phosphenes, static, afterimages, and as of recently, i guess it's the DP, the world looks cartoonish and plastic and HD as hell. My night vision is horrible. Ghosting seems worse as well. Thats about it i think.

Nah, started around the same time as my DP but i never connected the dots, and i think i remember reading complaints about it on the old board but im not really sure now, thats why i was wonderin about you guys...think it might be goin away but it's hard to tell, my scalp's as itchy as ever though, losing my hair by the minute from all the scratching, feel like a freakin cat :/

Is this a symptom or is it an allergy? I just put 2 and 2 together...goddammit when will new annoying stuff stop co-occurring with this disorder