Lucas

Yeah I almost have to force myself not to do it

By far my most debilitating symptoms. 24/24 7/7 Ruining my life. For those of you (I'm so sorry for you guys) that suffer from these too, how do you cope? Only Klonopin (Clonazepam) and oddly enough sometimes coffee helped me so far. Any thoughts?

Hey, I got my HPPD 3 years ago from abusing nutmeg which is an anticholinergic (ie : like Datura, Benadryl etc...) My main symptoms are fatigue, visual snow, chronic pain, photophobia, memory and cognitive impairment. Did you get your HPPD from an anticholinergic too ? and if so, what are your symptoms what helped ? I searched a LOT in those 3 years so maybe we could help each other Good evening, Lucas

Hey, I don't know how to help you but please do reach out to a doctor or addiction specialist, you're treading in dark waters

Haha it's funny because the last sentence of your post implies that you can indeed change your brain chemistry and/or structure by watching a screen The brain is continously adaptating and is doing so by creating and destructing connections between neurons, this is what is called plasticity. What you call a psychological change is ultimately a physical change. Then again I will make a post explaining my reasoning. In regards to your theory with anxiety, I'm an example of someone with HPPD and no anxiety, but I got it from an anticholinergic so that may explain why. I appreciate your constructive approach to conversation man

@olivier24445 I'm talking about plastic changes in the brain, please do read the article I linked. I need to make a full post where I explain things clearly but my mind is foggy tonight, I will tag you if you want, please keep an open mind. Plus I would day try the video it will at least prove to you that your brain is indeed constantly trying to maintain homeostasis, my theory being that our brains consider "the HPPD state" the normal state and do what it can to maintain it. I read an essay about chronic pain that explain this concep pretty well, then again I need to make a proper post.

Let me explain then, as the brain is trying to filter out the visual noise of the video it compensate and then the snow disappear for a few seconds/minutes depending on how long you have been watching. (Did you try btw ?). The idea would be that by forcing the brain to compensate for the stimuli of the video often enough for long enough plastic changes would happen and the compensation made would be in part permanent.

This is a copy-paste from an answer I gave an another post earlier : About "detraining" the brain to notice visual snow, here's a report from a guy who claimed he cured his disturbances by watching anti visual snow video for hours on end. (the video does kind of "freeze" visual snow for a few seconds if you watch it for some minutes, you can try it it's fun). (PIN THIS POST) How I CURED my Palinopsia & Visual Snow - Original Visual-Snow or Static forum I believe this guy because it is consistent with this article Cortical stimulation for treatment of neurological disorders of hyperexcitability: a role of homeostatic plasticity Chai Z, Ma C, Jin X - Neural Regen Res Basically by (counterintuitively I agree) hyperstimulating an hyperactive brain, homeostasis does its thing and the brain reduce the baseline level of excitation of the neurons. At least in my case it makes sense, I got HPPD from an anticholinergic (basically depriving the brain of stimulation for roughly 3 days) so maybe in some people where homeostasis happen faster than other that's why I am left with an hyperactive brain and ultimately HPPD. It might be useful to remember here that classic serotoninergic psychedelics are in fact reducing brain activity. https://healthland.time.com/2012/01/24/magic-mushrooms-expand-the-mind-by-dampening-brain-activity/ This may seem a bit far-out or whatever but do watch the video, read the post of the guy and then the article and tell me what you think about this. I might be making a better and more fleshed out stand alone post about this (the role of homeostasis in our condition) tonight.

About "detraining" the brain to notice visual snow, here's a report from a guy who claimed he cured his disturbances by watching anti visual snow video for hours on end. (the video does kind of "freeze" visual snow for a few seconds if you watch it for some minutes, you can try it it's fun). (PIN THIS POST) How I CURED my Palinopsia & Visual Snow - Original Visual-Snow or Static forum I believe this guy because it is consistent with this article Cortical stimulation for treatment of neurological disorders of hyperexcitability: a role of homeostatic plasticity Chai Z, Ma C, Jin X - Neural Regen Res Basically by (counterintuitively I agree) hyperstimulating an hyperactive brain, homeostasis does its thing and the brain reduce the baseline level of excitation of the neurons. At least in my case it makes sense, I got HPPD from an anticholinergic (basically depriving the brain of stimulation for roughly 3 days) so maybe in some people where homeostasis happen faster than other that's why I am left with an hyperactive brain and ultimately HPPD. It might be useful to remember here that classic serotoninergic psychedelics are in fact reducing brain activity. https://healthland.time.com/2012/01/24/magic-mushrooms-expand-the-mind-by-dampening-brain-activity/ This may seem a bit far-out or whatever but do watch the video, read the post of the guy and then the article and tell me what you think about this. I might be making a better and more fleshed out stand alone post about this (the role of homeostasis in our condition) tonight.

I'm basically symptom-free for the day after a hit of changa, it's kind of crazy really.

MDMA was the precusor to my HPPD too. Nutmeg finished me off and SSRIs were the cherry on the staticake. Weirdly enough, LSD, mushrooms and DMT ease most of my symptoms except for the visual snow.

Lmao, I guess your intention with this post are good but oh boy... I never ever experienced anxiety from my HPPD, it sure made the "normal" moment of life that warranted a bit of anxiety (job interview etc...) more difficult, but is not part of my daily, nor monthly life. (It has in the past and I wish strenght to anybody struggling with anxiety disorders right now !). So what ? I have a completely different condition than other in this forum despite sharing many symptoms and getting them trough drug abuse ?

Hey all, I just wanted to know if you have tried Keppra and if you had any side-effects, were there transient or not ? I feel like my physical symptoms are worse on Keppra (pression, tension, pain and fatigue) but given that I've been suggested Keppra precisely for these symptoms I wonder if it's only getting worse to get better, the time my brain adjust ? Can somebody with experience with this medication enlighten me ?

Hey dude, I totally relate to the can't focus on a single point. I had it from day one and it was horrible at first, I couldn't focus for more than a second, it physically hurted. 3 years later it has gotten better but still it's unconfortable to focus If I focus too long things start to morph and all

Very nice

Hey all, I need help. I just got prescribed Sinemet 100/25 and I am very tense, irritable and I feel overall confusion. It's like my adhd was put on steroids ! I struggle to type this... Is this normal ? Is there an adaptation period or is this medication just not for me ? I have important things to do in the upcoming weeks...

Hey all, One thing that has been consistent since those 2 years of dealing with HPPD is that the longer since I woke up the better I feel. Some days I almost feel normal on the evening. But the mornings are always awful. Has any of you also felt that sleeping seems to worsen symptoms of HPPD ? I'd be interested on hearing what you guys have to say on this subject. Let me end by wishing you strength on dealing with this shit.

Hey guys, I have HPPD since a just little more than 2 years now (happy birthday to it), and the symptom that get in the way of living a normal life the most is pressure in head and around the eyes(my vision is foggy according to how much pressure I feel, the rare moments when I have no pressure my vision is clear) Ofc I did all the classic exams which all came back fine lol. I would like to know how many of you have this too ? And have you found some ways to relieve this ? So far only caffeine proved to be helpful to an extent I don't mean this to disrespect people who have "only" visual symptoms but I could live with them if I didn't had this constant pressure in my face

Dude sorry for your mom I have exactly the same thing since 2 years too ! Glad to see I'm not the only one dealing with headache and blurred vision I hope we will find a way back to our lives together

You did nutmeg too and you feel pqin around the eyes ???

I tried Alpha GPC Choline and CDP Choline whit no real effect but I will tale them again along with Lion's Mane as some people saw improvement from it

Hey, I have those skins problems, seborrheic dermatitis which I think are auto-immune. My HPPD worsened a LOT when I took nutmeg whic is an anticholinergic and I too now have pain in my face 24/7 which seems to be link to contraction of whatever is in there. I just found this forum and I hope we can together find how we can get our lives back.

Hey all, my name is Lucas and I'm french, I'm 22 years old. I started doing psychedelics 4 years ago, but if I remember correctly it's an heavy period of MDMA/Ectsasy use that earned me HPPD. It was nothing too spectacular, visual snow + halos around lights, I thought nothing about it. It worsened when I took drugs and got better when I didn't for a while. Really not that much of a problem. But 2 years ago I did nutmeg just to see what was the effect of it, i took a fair amount (about 2 little bottle of grounded numteg). Since this day nothing has ever been like before. My HPPD worsened a lot, I know have strong afterimages, strong visual snow, blurry vision, eyes and mouth dryness, memory issues, reading is more difficult and also I have a lingering pain in, between, and around the eyes. It's debilitating.It ruins my life. I can do with all this shit but the pain is too much, it's 24/7 since 2 years. Of course like many I think, I did all the exams in the world, which you guessed it all came back fine. It's only since recently that I started to make the connection between HPPD and my symptoms, I know usually people don't feel physical pain due to it but it seems in my case to be linked with the other symptoms. Numteg is an anticholinergic delirant. After hours and hours and hours of researching the internet I found on this forum that many people were discussing the link between acetylcholine and HPPD. Anticholinergic toxicity is always acute, but there are many similiaities between it and HPPD : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anticholinergic I think maybe a high dose of anticholinergic drug on people who already have a mild case of HPPD can worsen it dramatically. I will delve on this forum more to gather information and talk about all that to my neurologist, I hope she ever heard of HPPD before or it will be fastidious lol Good luck to you all :)