Wow yeahh. That sounds aweful!! Sorry to hear of your challenges.
Have a feeling my onset was around age 15.
Was too young to know anything of long term consequences... And too caught up in that world.
Main tab names I can remember were : Red dragons, Tiles, Blue gels, Robots, Microdots, Strawberries etc etc As well as other substances...
Yes very true, acceptance is definitely a key..
I've herd a few horror stories from people mixing psychedelics with pharmaceuticals..
No way I would ever touch any psychedelics now...
I'm having real challenges sourcing medication now (K) as I do need it at this time..
Occasionally I will use other things to help me do my best to manage while things are so heightened..
Cheers!