Heyguys

I had many symptoms of HPPD about 5 years ago after taking MDMA/Magic mushrooms. Spent many many hours reading this forum and it led to quite a bit of depression/anxiety. Long story short... I don't even think of HPPD anymore as it doesn't exist in my life. I only come in this forum when I get tempted to try another drug (really want to try coke/ket) and the sadness on here drives home that it's not worth it. Some people are just not meant to have fun with drugs (me!). My advice to anyone new here... GET OFF THIS FORUM. Do what you need to do to understand what hppd is and then try and forget about it. The anxiety you get from reading on this (and other) websites makes it WORSE. Seriously, focus on you life, mental wellbeing etc. but DON'T OBSESS about HPPD. I remember being what I would consider 'almost HPPD free' and I would come back on this website and instantly all the text would start waving around again and my peripheral vision would start seeing random shapes etc. My hppd was directly related to how much I focused about my hppd... Many years in and i'm HPPD free and have been for ages. Believe that you will be too and all will be alright. To those veterans that have had HPPD for year I have no advice, sorry. I just hope that you guys can help any of the new members by sharing a similar message as above. Don't obsess over HPPD and HPPD won't obsess over you.

Are you sleeping regular patterns mate? I find that less than 6 hours and more than 10 hours makes my VS/flickering worse. I know it's hard but try to find something new to focus on. Every minute you're not focusing on your VS they better it will get. Need to train your brain! Do you have the freedom to go travelling? Start a new hobby in the evenings? Learn an instrument? Do you go to the gym?

My visual symptoms get worse for a couple of days after then reverts back to baseline. I also get head pressure when drinking but not to an intolerable level. I'll also get a head ache the next days, even if I only have a couple of shandy's. A few hours after drinking (and a bloody good dance) my vision is much better, headlights are how I used to remember them! Starburst free and not 'burn your retina' bright. One can dream! Then I sleep and it's back again in the morning! I'm with you on the ghosting/after images though! Two pints + club with a good light show and it's like I've entered a psychedelic world! I see double of everyone and 10 x as much multicoloured light as everyone else! I don't need any more drink for the rest of the night! (Cheap-entertaining-non liver killing night out anyone!?) I also find that when clubbing I'm more active and have more energy than even my mates who are on MD/speed! Maybe my body associates the music with some kind of unprompted dopamine release! I'm also with you on driving + headlights. Damn pain. I also look down at my speedo and I'll see it on the road when I look back up again! You ever get any weird heart palpitations? Feels like it's a bit harder to breath for about 30 seconds? I've only had this twice but it's quite scary and not sure if it's HPPD related. I'm interested on hearing back how the weed goes. People say about hindering progress etc... I do wonder if we will ever progress pass baseline? Or do people that "got better" just unconsciously accept their new reality? I wonder if anyone that 'had' HPPD can honestly say that they no longer get static in the dark any more. Hmmm Dylan, are you suggesting that if you're going to drink alcohol, do it properly...!!?!

Blimey you're a cheery one ain't ya! Hope is powerful mate. When you noticed you first had it 24 years ago... did you stop taking more drugs? Do you still consume now? Your reply is interesting; a mash up of spiritualism and science. Don't feel like you have to simplify your text though. We can follow... there's always Google if we get lost ;-)

Does it revert back to normal after a certain amount of time?

OMG everyone on here should watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_490724&feature=iv&src_vid=FkUwogWzSwk&v=L_W-IXqoxHA Interesting effect at the end too! Anyone else have a blank circle in the middle where they don't see the blood vessels? His third video. Again very interesting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LmCbRPdd0Q

Wow thank you! Just watched this video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkUwogWzSwk

How are you doing now mate? I've gotten a little but worse but that's because of alcohol. No more for me! Yea the buzz and jolt down your body is exactly what I felt... while I was asleep. Weirdest thing ever I think! My head flew up from the pillow too as I woke up! I thought I'd been abducted my an alien or something! I'm confident without alcohol we will recover... in time I really 'hope' you're doing better. (Don't let it fade! ) What country are you from, I'd be interested to chat/skype? I've not told my parents; don't think I will. They are going through enough (divorce) as it is. Best not tell them their son is a failed druggy too! Hehe. I'm real glad your parents are very supportive of you though, I can only imagine the weight lifted upon sharing it with them. Kind regards,

I saw this picture on a medical page on facebook. I'd only ever seen this before once a week after first getting hppd but not seen it since. So I looked out my window at the sky just to see when looking at the blue sky. Saw nothing, just the same old sky. Then I saw this little triangle whizzing around. Was really shiny like a crystal, darting across the sky. Then more appeared and I could see like 20/30 of this little shiny triangle darting in their own direction! Looked a lot like a game on my phone called "Eufloria". They weren't falling like VS. They wern't moving away from my area of focus like a off centre floater does. They were all flying around in their own direction. I was beautiful for the 10 seconds I noticed it. Then I looked away in fear I might never stop noticing it now! I haven't seen it again (phew), but I'm grateful I did get to see it. Very pretty, a different depth to HPPD. I do wonder if other have seen these shiny crystals whizzing around. Makes a change from black floaters and this one "ripple" looking this I see sometimes! Update: My HPPD has been getting slightly worse but it's my fault. The alcohol is the issue. After this NYE I'm completely T total. The main thing that's worse recently is trails. I move my lit phone in front my my eyes and I get the usual trail (Everyone gets a slight trail) but then a second one lagging behind. There's a noticeable "lag". Bizarre. Peace.

Copied a thread I started. I'm trying to keep my stuff together in this thread though. I've been trying real hard to not drink alcohol but with friends birthdays and Xmas and that it's hard! Had a few mulled wines (festive!) Sat night and then went clubbing in London. I had a great night! The combination of the low amount of alcohol, the loud music, atmosphere and all the lights meant my vision went pretty crazy. I'd be talking (shouting) to a mate and then look away and I'd still see his face clear as day for a second! Weird! Very shroomy and I actually enjoyed it as I felt a lot more 'gone with the fairies' than usual My mates were on MD and I swear I had a better night than them! I certainly danced/raved harder! Everyone was asking what I was on! By 2/3am the alchohol had worn of and I was going strong till 6am. "Sober!" I replied to their disbelief! During alcohol: + No visual snow, flashing etc + Headlights are less bright + Blacks actually look black (walk home at 6am, so I was sober I guess) - 10x noticeable increase in afterimages in the club After alcohol - All symptoms worse for a day or two. I may notice an extra floater etc. - Particularly 'background flashing' (Persons face is clear but I can see the background flickering slightly?) - Headache next day (normal really) I have cut my alcohol consumption down massively and have drunk only 3/4 times since HPPD onset, all just enough to get tipsy. Doesn't take much though any more!

Do you know why each drug makes HPPD worse? And what have you experienced? I've been trying real hard to not drink alcohol but with friends birthdays and Xmas and that it's hard! Had a few mulled wines (festive!) Sat night and then went clubbing in London. I had a great night! The combination of the low amount of alcohol, the loud music, atmosphere and all the lights meant my vision went pretty crazy. I'd be talking (shouting) to a mate and then look away and I'd still see his face clear as day for a second! Weird! Very shroomy and I actually enjoyed it as I felt a lot more 'gone with the fairies' than usual My mates were on MD and I swear I had a better night than them! I certainly danced/raved harder! Everyone was asking what I was on! By 2/3am the alchohol had worn of and I was going strong till 6am. "Sober!" I replied to their disbelief! During alcohol: + No visual snow, flashing etc + Headlights are less bright + Blacks actually look black (walk home at 6am, so I was sober I guess) - 10x noticeable increase in afterimages in the club After alcohol - All symptoms worse for a day or two. I may notice an extra floater etc. - Particularly 'background flashing' (Persons face is clear but I can see the background flickering slightly?) - Headache next day (normal really) I have cut my alcohol consumption down massively and have drunk only 3/4 times since HPPD onset, all just enough to get tipsy. Doesn't take much though any more! I'm interested to hear how other drugs have affected your HPPD?

Ah. This sucks. Well just a case of being healthy and hoping they moisten back up!

So I got drunk a few nights back and my visuals have got worse. Yay. Mainly random flashes of light, like shooting stars that catch my attention. And lots of black wormy things at night. My full colour after images are starting to suck too. I also have about 3 black floaters (little dots) and another floater that's weird. It's like a mini see through ripple. Like a little bit of gel or something. Can't describe it but it floats like a floater but it's not black. Also last few days I've been finding it harder to read on the computer. My eyes just don't want to focus. I can make teh vision sharp again if I try but my brain won't do this automatically any more! My oh my what have I done to myself! Haha. Booked into the opticians anyway to see what they say and would also like a good examine of my eyes, see if they see anything wrong... Meh,

Anyone else's contact lenses dry up quicker than before!? Or just me?

^Same. I can drive fine, but at night headlights are a lot brighter. Burn my eyes bright. I'm constantly questioning whether the car that just passed me had their high beam on!