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How long did the remission last? Meditation is beneficial in many ways. It relaxes tension, more oxygen to the brain/body/blood/etc, emotional relief, massages your organs, and many more. A quick google search on "benefits of deep breathing" showed me those. Nice to see that it helped, i will try this! ty

Need some help choosing which magnesium to buy. Magnesium 250mg or 500mg version (mg oxide) or Super magnesium 400mg (combination of aspartate, lactate, and citrate) or Potassium and Magnesium 250 (monomagnesium 250mg, monopotassium aspartate 250mg) Also B-Complex formula which includes: B1, B2, Niacinamide, B6, folic acid, b12, biotin, calcium d-pantothenate. The Bcomplex daily values are 1000-2000% except folic acid, is that ok? All are from GNC.

visuals slowly getting worse. text moving more noticeable, CEV is like watching a very faint tesla sphere, or an outline of a purple flamed campfire ish, very faint so its hard to distinguish. I feel like visual snow is ready to present itself but still faint enough that its hard to distinguish. was able to sleep for 7ish hours for 2-3nights but today my exhaustion/tiredness came back and when i tried to take a nap, hearing random sounds and tremors were there; basically my brain not being able to shut down again. I hope i can sleep tonight. Also, ghosting/double vision is less clear. The ghosting/doubles are more blurry and halo-ey and expand further. I find it interesting that many people including me post about how sleep deprivation relieves symptoms for them. Anyone care to comment on this?

*nevermind, i misread my prescription. i doubt .125mg will do anything to my visuals? probably mild effects for the anxiety. thoughts? When the time comes for me to take xanax, is it okay to take 2-4 .125mgs if i find that its not working well? If on the full white oval pill says Xanax 0.25mg , is half of that pill a dose 0.25mg? I was prescribed 30 doses of 0.25mg and when i went to the pharmacy to get it, they are halves. Did i get screwed or something

Just some speculation, probably not helpful at all :\ i had very noticeable anisocoria (different pupil size) and now, not so noticeable but still there. (probably damaged from mdma use?) Eyes rolling back is also another effect of MDMA. considering how hppd is usually permanence of effects experienced during trips/rolls, maybe the cross eyed is as such? Though after reading hundreds of posts on hppd over the past month, cross eyed is a first read for me. my ghosting is like the 3rd moon in the picture above though when it first presented itself it was the 2nd one. worsened over a month or so. I think hppd definitely effects the eye muscle and movement in addition to the perception and processing problems. Though it may not be a direct hppd thing, it could be the body's 'natural' reaction to hppd. Even people without hppd, when one or both eyes has a problem, the brain will try to enhance the dominant eye and shut down the other eye.

Sleep has improved a bit. insignificant details in my log. http://hppdonline.com/index.php?/topic/2163-my-logdiary-extremely-long-symptom-list-at-the-end/

My sleep has somewhat improved. I can sleep. always dreaming of course, dreams are more dream like vs day-dreaming. Still vivid and memorable. Once I wake up, I cant fall asleep again. I guess this is good once i start school again in sept :\ 4-7Hours seems to be the max my brain can remain somewhat asleep. Though my brain is always open to outside stimulation. Wakening tremors have decreased significantly but still there. Anxiety is down or even gone. Worries i have some but i dont consider them anxiety. simultaneously, my High blood pressure and high pulse fluctuations have stabilized. I've never had anxiety before and it only took 2 weeks for this problem to appear and disappear(hopefully). Maybe its the fact that im new to anxiety but FOR ME, i dont think its a co-morbid/separate symptom of hppd, rather just hppd. Headpressure has decreased a bit. If i look at the fact that my transcranial doppler ultrasound confirms faster/increased blood flow to the brain (shrinked vessels), i can assume my heart pulse/bp is going to be abnormal and also cause anxiety. like how caffeine can do so. I never had anxiety before, and having back non-anxious level is something to cherish so if and when it comes back ill remind myself its just a symptom flareup and let it run its course. Visuals have slightly worsened though. Text dancing is more noticeable. Night vision seems to have worsened but cant say that with confidence. One thing i noticed is that ghosting doesnt occur when i am looking up at whatever was ghosting when i was looking straight at it. Also, loud squeaking sounds when i rub my eyes indicating dry eyes.

In what ways is valerian root a lifesaver to you? Do you have any physical symptoms like exhaustion, weakness, head pressure? welcome! :\

Hello, instead of creating a thread for every new symptom i get (my apologies), I decided to create my introduction and also use it as a symptom list. Im 23. First time using weed was around 17ish and weekly-daily started at 19-20ish. I am introverted, complex thinking, was very content, very chilled out(no enemies), handy, tech guy. (any similarities in personality among hoppers?) Somewhat depressed but not really because I was carry free/content. More of a extreme procrastinator than depressed. In dec 2012, i tried MDMA for the first time. In the span of 6 month, i would go on to use it about 10 more times. I kind of abused in near the last 7ish times, doing it weekly and a couple times on consecutive days. It was never more than 2.5pills at a time. A few times were just 1, maybe less. 2 Shroom trips, 2-4grams, wasnt very exciting. First time, things were just hilarious and minor breathing/waves/ground moving, and grass glowing? 2nd time was more of a heavy body high, bringing back some of the prior LSD effect but nothing too special. Smoked a bunch of weed with it. Got hungry and had a bunch of pizza. Out of my 3 LSD trips, i also took a small amount of MDMA for two occasions. (candy flipping). 1st time was 2 tabs, experienced tracers, beautiful lights, slight patterning on blank walls. Enhanced music, spent a lot of time watching lsd trippy things on youtube, etc. Tried some self emotional manipulation. No bad parts. I think this is when i noticed that text dance and paper mache ceilings would move (if i gave it enough attention) even when sober. I thought it just came with the lifestyle of daily weed. I shouldve noticed it as wrong when my friend said he didnt notice it. 2nd time was 4 tabs. A bad beginning, puked because i ate 40minutes before ingesting LSD. Also because i felt bad for not sharing my LSD even though i could've. Eventually the anxiety was getting so bad, it felt like my vision was caving in on me, so i told the person about me not wanting to share (even though i didnt have to), to the person it was obviously nothing but to me i was dying lol. Got over that phase in an hour or two and everything was fine-ish. Experienced many effects, closed eye fractals, patterns pulsating a lot, face shifting in mirror, brain melting, couldnt articulate, a couple identity crisis that i could pull my self out of and then fall out into again because it took a lot of effort to hold it together (but i was relaxed so it didnt matter to let my self go). Couple of bong rips during trip, took a shower, lots of music, a couple shots, a dip of mdma, more weed smoking. Ended up not sleeping for 2 days. Though the LSD wore off, i remember smoking some more weed after not sleeping and having a depressional episode, basically feeling bad for my parents cuz i was fucked up the term. Overall good trip. 3rd time was 2 tabs. Started out ok, didnt really want to trip but friend ask me to, ended up getting some bad vibes, i guess minor anxiety. Sent my friends home. After that it kind of evened out but i decided to cry again, getting emotional.. Trying to put my self into therapy mode again. Again, i didnt end up sleeping until the next night. Not a bad trip but not a good one. My last instance of MDMA was at AVB concert. I usually peak hard because 1 pill doesnt give me anything at all until i take another or drink some alcohol. I peaked so hard i had to sit down for a bit, basically feeling so good that i couldnt use my brain lol. Ended up dancing the night away. Went to friends house and smoked weed for the comedown. Somewhere along the line of post LSD/MDMA, I did notice a change in the highs when I was smoking weed. I wasnt getting 'dumbed down'/high as much. (I guess another warning sign) In mid may i was on my way to visit my parents in asia so what better way to spend the night smoking weed, eating 2 slices of magic brownies at the airport, drinking a cup of vodka at the airport lounge and then falling asleep before the plane even took off for its 12 hour flight. Didnt really get high off the brownies if at all, i guess i was too zombified. Plane food was alright. So with that my sobriety of drugs started. Arriving in asia, i noticed that i lost some appetite and even eating a little bit made me full. I also noticed that drinking a lot of alcohol didnt get me drunk either. The hardships of drinking too much were there but i didnt really feel drunk. After a week, i felt energy less, random aches, anisocoria what not so i decided to go to the hospital. Doctor thought i was fine but i wasnt so i requested endoscopy. Had erosive gastritis, (i did have acid reflux problems prior). But i knew it wasn the cause of my symptoms so i requested an MRI. Found some minor lesion (that is 'normal' or something) and it didnt raise any bells with the neuro. 2nd-3rd week, i noticed some head pressure. I felt like my muscles were being weakened, slight knee buckling. I felt that i was lacking some micro-control in strength. It went on like this energy less/fatigue for a bit but i felt better. For about 3 days. After feeling fine, while trying to sleep i felt stings all over my body. Like nerve conductions. And it came with a sudden onset of cherry angiomas. Doctors said the cherry angiomas were likely there before and that paresthesia was probably allergy. Eventually the stings/paresthesia subsided (took 10+ days iirc). Overall doctors tried to blame all my symptoms of stress,allergy, and whatnot. I had 0 stress. Looking back i guess stress wasnt really a wrong diagnosis due to the nature of hppd? For the random aches and muscle jitters and chest tightness, i was prescribed some clebopride, paracetamol(acetaminophen), clotiazepam. Made me feel better but i noticed that it had some internal tremor withdrawal so i decided not to take it. Had tickets for a 2 day music festival and these medicines gave me the energy so i danced all night long and enjoyed the night. On the way home of my first night was when i noticed some ghosting on signs and lights. I blamed it on the bright lights of the festival and let it be. But now i believe one of those medicines triggered it. Especially since they are closely related with the medicines that affect hppd. (doapmine antagonist, benzo analog,) From that day forward, ghosting got worse, starbursting, after images, trailer, floaters, very minor 'seeing the air', blue entoptic, anxiety, tinnitus, prostate infection. I have my suspicion of anxiety and tinnitus on ciprofloxacin (antibiotic with a couple cases of hppders noticing a worsening of symptoms) but it didnt start until about a week in to it. Symptoms: It could be unrelated but it all started with my body going haywire. Also, ill be trying my best to list it chronologically. Text/pattern movement (very mild and fluid/calm like) Loss of appetite, feeling full with little food. (varies) Didnt get drunk. (sober) Erosive gastritis (gone) Exhaustion (gone and came back) Weak knees (gone?) Slight change in muscle control (gone) Headpressure/Dry eyes (remains) Cherry angioma (once it appears, it stays but no new onset imo) Random zaps/stings. [paresthesia?] (gone, lasted over a week in a subsiding fashion) Ghosting, starbursting, bright lights,floaters,blue entoptic (slowly getting worse, can be manipulated by squinting/eye muscle) After images, closed eye snow?(purple) (remains) Headpressure (constant), slight shrinkage in blood vessels in head/brain. Fluctuating blood pressure and pulse. Anxiety? ( i blame pulse, it comes and goes and is really random) Racing thoughts, vivid dreams, insomnia, tremor. (70% of the time since developing 'anxiety' 2 weeks ago) Wobbling edge (rare..for now) I also recently noticed that when I look at something about 70 cm away and open my eyes really wide, whatever im focus on shakes up and down. Weird thing is that it has to be at that range of distance, if my focus is any closer or further, it doesnt shake. How weird is that. DP/DR? i dont know if i have it. if i do its really minor. There was a time when i felt that my arm was kind of not mine but my mind is stronger and rationalizes it away. I had some existential anxiety due to hppd. When i first found out my vision was hppd, i didnt even really care. I question why i developed my 'anxiety'. I think anxiety is a symptom of hppd and not a co-morbid thing. It really comes and goes at random and when i dont have it, i dont even care about my hppd because the visuals are pretty minor and i dont know if i have dp/dr. maybe my 'anxiety' is really dp/dr having a bad day? hmm.

Plausible since psilocybin has been linked with neurogenesis.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spontaneous_cerebrospinal_fluid_leak#Signs_and_symptoms Probably just overlap. Though sickness tends to aggravate hppd for many.

I was woken up by the twitch once but usually i have to 'wake up' because the 'dreams' get too intense and real, as if i was dreaming with my eyes open. Its never like this when im awake though, my racing thoughts are usually obsessions over hppd. All my 'dreams' are closely related to the real world, uses logic, chronological, very vivid, and worrying(a mission) seems to be a common theme. Basically my racing thoughts are in the form of dreams when i am closing my eyes. Its how i fall 'asleep' anyways; by daydreaming about something neutral. Also, food comas(sleepiness after eating), are a satisfying state for me but if i try to take advantage of it by trying to fall asleep, a minute after i close my eyes, it gives me the worst internal tremors and sleepiness is gone :| I am in a content mood right now. The few hours before i try to go to sleep, some of my TRUE reaction emotions are back, i can focus on things enough to find them funny but eye and head pressure are definitely elevated. I wonder if i just dont try to sleep at all, what would happen. Breathing slow and deep definitely helps a bit in the moment but focusing on that is counter productive in trying to sleep. i just leave something to watch/listen on and ill usually trail off. Yea, im trying to manage everything without meds. Im still a newbie. Thanks for the replies.

Just keeping away from processed food basically. flour --> chips, fried stuff, etc etc. Purpose of this is to keep my gut clean, it does hold 90% of our serotonin even though it may not be the ones used by our cns. As for visuals, when I first found out it was HPPD, i basically did a checklist of all the visual symptoms. Even forcing myself of trying to make it happen with the risk of 'cant unsee it' but what wasnt there wasnt happening. However, its been a slow but surely progression. DP/DR is what really worries me though. So many of the posts are about how its the worst thing ever, and i dont even know what it is. When i was tripping on 4 hit lsd, i remember i was trying to talk to a sober friend and had to build up all this knowledge to formulate a sentence but mid way my brain sort of melts and i stop talking and im just there drugged out for 10-20seconds and ill try again but couldnt. Is it anything like that? That shits scary, though it wasnt at the time of tripping. Sometimes Ill look at my arm and think, is that my arm? but i dont know if thats me forcing some DP? Are there any cases where DP/DR was formed after visuals??? hmmm.. Xanax.... hmm i dont even know how i can get Klonopin here. When i go back to vancouver,Canada(my home), i dont know how i can even find a doctor to talk about hppd. I usually just went to a walk/drop in clinic. Will they be able to prescribe it? Thanks for the replies, you seem to be the one of the few that consistently reply to many redundant long posts. It good support!

Over the course of 1.5month-2month, i have been getting new symptoms all the time. My ghosting was only on LEDS, now its occurs on many things. Today was the first time i noticed wobbly edges. And posts say obsessing over it makes it worse but i dont think it makes a difference. When i first got the occasional ghosting, i wasnt aware of hppd and didnt even try to make ghosting happen. It just sort of became more frequent till it went 24/7. Sigh. How long do i have to wait until i develop visual snow, dp/dr, speech impairment, fractals, frames, colourblind, etc. And how do we see the 'post has been promoted to article' posts. So many i would love to see but it just ends up linking to an error. Maybe i should take xanax. i have been living so healthy. not even sugar in my diet. nothing artificial, no flour made products etc. only water. doesnt seem to do shit.

For me, its like having tinted smudges on my glasses. So mild that i cant really pinpoint it but noticeable enough that my vision is not crisp clear. like there is a very very thin layer of shadow in my vision. Is this considered visual snow?

Is this part of the good day/ bad day thing? Is the good day / bad day phenomenon a personal thinking thing or is it something that HPPD has control over? Ever since I 'developed' anxiety 10 days ago, some days my brain just doesnt want to shut down. Even though anxiety is directly related to blood pressure and heartbeat , I want to downplay the anxiety part and blame it on irregular blood circulation. My BP and pulse fluctuates so much and even varies a lot by the second. Some examples are: 124/59 69pulse 134/82 109 pulse 115/84 145/73 and it really feels like its irrelevant to how anxious I feel. During the past ten days, I felt that high pulse/hbp was the reason i cannot sleep but after measurements, it isnt. If i do 'fall asleep' on the days i 'cant', its more of my body is sleeping and my brain is in an vivid closed eye day-dreaming mode. I'm pretty much 100% conscious to all external stimulations and if I open my eyes. But if i wake up from this state, my body will have internal tremors. (nothing actually shakes, only the sensation exist) Also, just for some random info, I too have experienced that sleep deprivation can induce a 'clear thinking' mode though the head pressure seems to be intensified. (sleep dep doesnt always cause this though).

Yeah i have no problem with the orthostatic hypotension. in fact, i kind of try my best to 'see' how dark it gets lol. Was pretty shocked since this is my first fainting in life and i can only hope that it is not a sign of my HPPD worsening. I now know to sit back down again if it feels too much (though i didnt think so), and if i do faint, its best to remain down for a bit.

OK WTF. i just fainted from orthostatic hypotension(blood rush). the blood rush that has been common for me these days wasnt any severe or anything but this time i decided to put my hands on a wall. next thing i know i was on the ground leaning on the wall. I was in a dream like state, some random fast thought/dream for the 1-2 second i was out. I thought is this DR/DP??? but probably not. It's called Vasovagal syncope and though the cause is probably from the orthostatic hypotension, its not surprising to see that serotonin level is also listed as a cause. Its interesting to see that : Prior to losing consciousness, the individual frequently experiences early signs of symptoms such as lightheaded, nausea, the feeling of being extremely hot or cold (accompanied by sweating), ringing in the ears (tinnitus), an uncomfortable feeling in the heart, fuzzy thoughts, confusion, a slight inability to speak/form words (sometimes combined with mild stuttering), weakness and visual disturbances such as lights seeming too bright, fuzzy or tunnel vision, black cloud-like spots in vision, and a feeling of nervousness can occur as well. excluding lightheaded ness and speech problem, i had all those symptoms for quite sometime which i blamed on HPPD. This again supports my theory of blood circulation problem causing hppd. Fuck i didnt mean to make this thread into another one of my speculation thread, sry.

oh and i forgot to mention that, today my legs were kind of sore like i worked out and kind of exhausted. I guess its because i havent been out that long in a month or two? or could this be a symptom of hppd. I feel pretty shitty and worthless in the morning but once i take the initiative to get out of bed and go outside, i feel pretty content.

When you guys talk about suicidal thoughts, how severe is it? Quite often, ill think about jumping off the balcony, ways i could suicide and even imagine out the death of me itself (like how my head will look after i pull the trigger, etc) and make it all go away but at least in my current state of mind, my subconscious/conscious knows ill never do it. Who knows if it will get worse. Though the thought of suiciding after my parents go to heaven [knock on wood, make it far as possible ] has crossed my mind many times.

Just doing some 'research' and for my curiosity. Short answers first and then explanations(if you want) preferred. 1. Prior to hppd, what was your drug experience 2. How long have you had hppd? 3. What triggered the start of your symptoms? 4. List your visual symptoms 5. List your physical and mental symptoms. 6. Have you remained drug free since hppd? Please specify if you still consume alcohol, caffeine, etc. 7. How long did it take for your hppd to reach a baseline? 8. Timeline of your symptoms? 9. Did your symptoms 'naturally' get worse? 10. What external factors made your symptoms permanently worse? 11. What external factors made your symptoms temporarily worse? 12. Any improvements? What factors? Timeline of improvement? Short answers first and then explanations(if you want) preferred. 1. Prior to hppd, what was your drug experience daily pot smoker, 2 mushroom trips, 3 lsd trips, 10 mdma. 2. How long have you had hppd? 2months. 3. What triggered the start of your symptoms? I think pot brownie triggered body symptoms Medication i took for body symptoms triggered visual symptoms. I did not know i had hppd until i got visual symptoms. Though i always had some very mild text movement since my first lsd, i assumed pot kept it alive. 4. List your visual symptoms ghosting, pot vision, blue entoptic(sky sperm), floaters , some sort of tint. (it feels like there is transparent shadow tint but very mild. kind of like a shadow mid air. (maybe its really unnoticable visual snow?), mild tracers, mild afterimage. It seems like im the only one without visual snow. Weird. 5. List your physical and mental symptoms. Random body aches, head pressure, shrinked blood vessels in brain, 140 blood pressure, 100 pulse (anxiety?), tinnitus, feels like body is sleeping and head is awake, body tremors when waking up, blood rush standing up, mild anxiety? pressure behind eye., weakened legs? 6. Have you remained drug free since hppd? Please specify if you still consume alcohol, caffeine, etc. excluding medications, yes. few weeks of no caffeine, 7 weeks of no alcohol, couple weeks of no sweets(juice, junkfood, etc), 10 days into no flour, fried stuff, etc. 7. How long did it take for your hppd to reach a baseline? Im only 1-2 month in so I cant say if i reached baseline yet. 8. Timeline of your symptoms? 1-30 days month body aches, kind of worrying(but not heart racing anxiety) resulting from not knowing why i was sick. 30-50 days ghosting, starbursting, shadow vision, blood rushing, 50-60 days mild anxiety, tinnitus, racing thoughts. 9. Did your symptoms 'naturally' get worse? I think all my worsened symptoms were triggered by medication. 10. What external factors made your symptoms permanently worse? medications mentioned before, and i THINK ciprofloxacin for my prostate infection caused my tinnitus and mild anxiety. (cant say for sure though) 11. What external factors made your symptoms temporarily worse? anxiety perhaps. 12. Any improvements? What factors? Timeline of improvement? After a massagist (not your common one) massaged my head[blood vessels] (he was able to notice my blood vessels had shrinked which was confirmed by hospital but i didnt tell him. Though i did tell him my symptoms of head pressure and not being able to sleep due to my brain remaining conscious) That day he told me i would be able to sleep from now on and my anxiety also was somewhat relieved. I have a pulse checker at home and it did show lowering of resting pulse. I always had mild text dance since first lsd and assumed it was because i smoked pot daily. After pot brownie at the airport (which also marked my sobriety) before a plane ride, I started with some body aches, fatigue, stomach infection. Took some medications(paracetamol, clebopride, clotiazepam) for body aches and such which turned out to be related to cannabinoid system, dopamine antagonist, and gabaa agonist. All which are closely related with hppd but i didnt know i had/prone to hppd at the time. When taking this medication is when i started to notice visual symptoms. Yesterday, I went out with my friends for the first time since my sickness. I have a pretty good 15+ group of friends which i have no hesitation telling them about my hppd. So when i was out i kept on looking at led lights, and such cuz there was so many and they were teasing me like i was a fucking mosquito lol. During the whole night of looking at lights, i guess i sort of accepted it was always going to be there and became content with it. (we'll see) . However im sort of scared that i am not at my baseline yet since many users have reported worsening of symptoms over many months. I really think i would freak the fuck out if i experienced DP/DR and visual snow. I dont know how you guys do it. Lots of respect. Also, having something to do makes me feel better, even if thats spending time at hppdonline. but sometimes even if im watching tv, i can only concentrate on my hppd. i guess thats anxiety?

The antibiotic is called ciprofloxacin.

Update: *just throwing random theories and info* the healing massage has made some changes, not necessarily for the better but it did have an effect on visuals. The massage guru as soon as he saw me knew I had bad blood circulation and also noticed I was close to going full retard mentally. He mentioned of how foreigners(westerners) had to resort to drugs because of what I was to become. He couldve been just talking about depression/schizo but when he was talking about how he has treated some 'crazies' it sort of gave me hope. Basically he tells me to drink plenty (4L) of water so I can flush out my intestines and get rid of excess air etc. He treats the intestine as a very very critical part of body and of course water because our body is 70% water and brain included.Belly breathing is key. He goes on to 'massage' stab pressure points all over my body, even inducing a full blown paresthesia and sweating in my hands. Maybe the 'hope' somehow alleviated some of my anxiety resulting in some changes in visuals but I have high hope that hppd is related to blood circulation and stuff. Maybe the improvement of hppd via exercise has more to do with simple blood circulation vs dopamine/etc. It kind of makes sense since LSD puts so much strain on your body, stomach and intestines when tripping. There's a reason people dont eat before trips. I did puke in the beginning of a trip once, although the puking was sort of anxiety bad trip related too(maybe the strain on stomach --> heartbeat --> anxiety ?). And this process some how opened a connection for stomach+intestine with visual stimulations, subconscious and brain. I knew my hppd was pretty unique considering that i produced cherry angiomas and 2 infections among other symptoms most did not have. I think i had very very mild hppd that was intensified by sickness. I also 'learned' that my anxiety is sort of not anxiety at the same time. My anxiety as i mentioned before seems to come after my heart starts beating fast, not before. I observed and reflected the past 4 days of 'anxiety' and realized that lying down and (closing my eyes?) gets my heart going. Doing some googling has led me to believe that its because lying down, for me, easily pools my blood in my lowers, resulting in faster pulse creating a viscious cycle. Also supported by the fact that I easily get orthostatic hypotension(head rush standing up). Anyone else think that our true deep subconscious is at an anxious state, creating various symptoms? Related to how lsd can allow us to tap into our subconscious and change it. Kind of supported by euphoria causing drugs making people better. Also, i did receive some 0.25mg xanax and propanolol after telling my doc that, 'it feels like my body is sleeping but my mind is not, my heart beats fast and it makes me anxious-y.(i dont mention of hppd, though he knows i have visual symptoms). I wont be using it for a while though; any cases of worsening symptoms???? Also decided to stop my cipro antibiotics to see if that was causing my fast heart beat. This could all be bullshit though T.T changes can mean for better or for worse. Also knowing that my anxiety is heart related is relieving?!?!?! and has grounded me from the Post anxiety stress.

One of the more noticeable symptoms I had was Orthostatic hypotension, and the "dimness" of when it occurs sort of remains at 1% in my 'normal' vision. Another disease, dopamine beta hydroxylase deficiency, also thought to be underdiagnosed, causes loss of sympathetic noradrenergic function and is characterized by a low or extremely low levels of norepinephrine, but an excess of dopamine.[4] which is basically norepinephrine and epinephrine deficiency. which are both neurotransmitters that have the ability to fuck everything up... I dont know if it means anything but whenever I see the word dopamine, serotonin, etc i just link this and that lol :\

Although its great to hear about the improvement, 1 day seems too early to tell. Especially the comedown of M and whatnot. It gives me hope that one day I may be able to take MDMA again but i doubt it. Still a hppd newbie 2month in. You mustve been already content with your hppd to have enough balls to try M.